so i took out my chatterbox...well more like they took it away from me b/c no one was posting anything. what a sad sad site haha. sorry i don't blog more. i get busy and lazy all the time.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

so I'm finally done w/ all my shopping thank God. And all I've been doing for the last day is farting around. it's great cuz there's no guilt. i don't have ot worry about if i have to study or whatever. just good old farting around! i dunno what kyle got me. i'm very curious and i find out tomorrow!!! i'll let you all know...yeah the 2 ppl that read this site what i got. haha. anyway i'm hungry and i have to run at least one errand today. hasta!!

Not trying to push religion on anyone, or not trying to offend anyone...just thought i'd share. Have you guys heard of the Mel Gibson production about Jesus Christ's life? You can watch the preview on the second link...but i think u can watch on the first one too. Anyway, lemme know what you think of it. Supposedly it's ALL in Latin and/or Aramaic...with SUPPOSEDLY no subtitles. So all the images and score basically carry the movie. And i suppose if you're of the Christian denomination then you can probably infer what the character's are saying. I thought it was interesting though. Mel Gibson has an intro on it...and he addresses the Harvest Christians. What are Harvest Christians? I've seen the stickers etc...but never knew what they were about. So yeah....edumacate me if you can. :)

The Passion Official Site
The Passion Unofficial Site watch the 4 minute one.

p.s. i was just reading the unofficial site...the guy that wrote it is kind of dumb haha so don't take him all that seriously.

love actually....good stuff

wooh! i'm proud of myself! i studied at starbucks for 4 hours!! and i finished the carbohydrate packet for biochem!! 2 more packets to go. i plan to do fatty acid tomoorrow and finish up with amino acids on sunday! yay! cross your fingers. i wanna do REALLY well on this exam. but we'll see. well, i just wanted to report my accomplishments!! :)
listening to: "Under the Table and Dreaming"-by DMB---THE BEST DMB ALBUM AND BEST ALBUM EVER!

haha what a pathetic blogsite i have...well, i'm busy or lazy.

i had my last anatomy exam of the semester today....wooh! yeah i wasn't as prepared as i should be but whatever that's what "they" get for giving us a test after thanksgiving break. WOOHOO just found out we get free lunch tomorrow...PIZZA! yay!

so my new thing right now...i'm trying to work out at least 3 times a week. i have it SCHEDULEd in so i will stick to it. at least that is what the red head suggested. so here i go...pray that i stick to it and don't get lazy! i got a new sports bra...partly for the workout, but also for OMM---OH which btw i did really well on so I'm happy about that. right now i'm just relaxing..i have to organize my stuff and clean my room, but i think i will leave that for tomorrow. i will start studying biochem tomorrow....so i will have relax time this weekend...like i can go to the red head's for dinner on sunday and spend time w/ my family too.

3 more weeks til break...which means 3 more weeks for Christmas shopping. i think i've figured out what i'm gonna get the redhead for Christmas. I know what I'm getting my mom too....it's just my cashflow is deteriorating. arg...i think i only have 300 bucks left...boo. i might have to borrow some money from mom via the credit card.

Wow this is some serious rambling. I haven't rambled like this in a while...anyway, so i think i'm rambling b/c i miss the red head and wish he was here with me. man i wanna live with him so bad now...like i miss him at nights and he misses me in the mornings...it's no good. but that won't happen until like 4-6 years from now. Neither of us want to live w/ each other unless we're married. ohhhh well.

listening to....absolutely nothing!!! :)

this is funny....cute and funny

just wanted to say that i really like everwood, the show on the WB. good stuff. ok time to study!!

i hate school....

disclaimer: this all could be b/c i'm starting my period soon but i don't care this is how i feel!!!

ugh seriously it's time to blog. i'm so frustrated and RRGHGG! right now. school is really taking it's toll...just the stress and the pressure and the tests and the lectures and it's just too much!! i'm not even hard core studying and i cant take it! even when i relax and hang out...i'm thinking in the back of my head...i need to study i need to study....GOARREAKL;ADFGAHGIO! i can't get a break. my dreams are of school or studying and i just wake up all tense. seriously people....no one knows what the hell doctors have to go through to get to where they are!!! and then when you become a doctor people don't like you because they think they don't care...and we DO care....that's why we're in the damn profession in the first place....but there's all this shit in between the doctor and patient that prevents us from giving good healthcare. anyway that's a tangent...i'm here to complain about med school life. your whole friggin life is taken over. you can't really go out...you go out and feel guilty b/c you should have studied...then you take the test and find out you would have done exactly the same had you studied that night you went out.....then after the test you can't even relax b/c there's MORE shit to learn and it just repeats itself over and over...week after week.

take my bf for instance....he had to write 2 cover letters for a job at the Univ of Redlands....that was a month ago...b/c of his procrastination one of the positions was filled and the other position is open but sux....luckily he found another position that i actually think would fit him well. so today he has a plan to finish the cover letter...and he did....it's half a page....half a page that i could have written in 30 minutes...and he was complaining b/c it's "HARD"?? wtf is HARD it's not fucking HARD.....write that you're interested in the position and why....why you would be good for the position and what you would bring to the organization....thats' IT!!! and it took him one month...ONE MONTH to get his ass in gear to friggin write a half a page of bullshit?????!!! I fuckin wish i had it that easy...but no my task is to learn all the structures in the lower limb...arteries, nerves, muscles, veins....fatty acid biosynthesis and degradation....cell injury, pathology....all the friggin bacteria that exist....and what drugs do AND how to do manipulation..........HARD!?!?! not that his work isn't hard b/c it is...he works a lot and he's great at it...but COME ON. at least you can friggin go home and just relax and go drink beers at your friends house.

yeah ok i have to eat now...then do some microbiology. hate school man.

i have a game for the chatterbox...i dunno if anyone even reads this anymore but here it goes. basically the point of the game is to give lyrics to a song...the next person has to give lyrics to a song that contains a word or phrase from the last song lyrics given. for example:

show me show me show me - The Cure
next person....
ME myself and i- Easy E

so capitalize the word/phrase you took from the last song. anyone is welcome to play :)

so i went to the LA county medical association(LACMA) welcome dinner for 1st year med students.....and so this is an email i wrote kyle telling him about my night:
so the drive there was ok...just some traffic but we weren't late. donnell, katie and shefali rode with me and that was fun...good conversation. we got kinda lost in LA but we found our way. we got there and signed in...it was a nice hotel. there were ucla and usc ppl there...and lethal weapon girl was there! i meant to say hi and introduce myself but by the time i had thought of it...i couldn't find her anymore. hehe donnell said he used to love her when he was younger. i think western had the biggest turnout. probably the only thing that sucked about tonight was that Western wasn't even acknowledged. when the presidents of LACMA chapters for each school went up there, the western one didn't go up....then when our MSI representative went to introduce someone he didn't say his name or where he was from...so nobody knew we were even there. so i was mad about that. OH and then the keynote speaker was makikng his speech and some emergency alarm went off...then some guy on the PA was saying that there was an emergency situation on the 11th and 12th floors and that they needed to evacuate...which was dumb b/c we were on the 2nd floor. so the dinner ended kind of early. but the COOL part was i got free gifts! i got a stedmans medical dictionary....i actually wasn't going to get one b/c they ran out...but i asked one of my classmates if he had one already like at home and if i could have his...and he gave it to me. woohoo. but that's not all!! i got a vacuumized sterling silver flask that holds cold and hot stuff. it's SO cool! i dunno when i'll use it but it's awesome. and also i told you about how my class/school is really cool, like we're a family and it makes me feel good. like all the other schools seemed distant to each other or something. i'm glad i went to western.
then we decided to go to westwood to diddy riese...b/c we didn't want to go to the bar with our classmates...and that was cool. westwood has a cool atmosphere. and we got some cookies.

it was a great night. :)

listening to my body saying it's time for bed because u've got an 8am class!

hey all, just wanted to send a prayer out there for ryan jasso, my friend justin's brother who is in the hospital, in surgery. he was in a car accident this morning/afternoon. if you're religious, or not, please send a prayer out there that he is ok.

happy halloween + 1 day. i went to my school's halloween party and can i tell you....stick a bunch of med/health professions students who've been studying non-stop for 2 and a half months into a room, mix in some alcohol and some crazy costumes and you've got yourself a partay. it was a lot of fun. the red head's friends came...plus my friends so...i think we were like 20 deep. we went to my friend sheila's place to pre-party and i discovered a new drink. vanilla stoli and ginger ale!! so good and i go messed up! so then we went to a party at this gay bar but it wasn't a gay bar that night. i had a shot of surfer's on acid...and then danced and mingled. it was fun fun fun! just what i, and i think everyone there needed. it was a great night for the most part. and i'll just leave it at that.

listening to: KOST 103.5 i think....oh whoops it's KBIG 104.3

yeah i think i'm bipolar. i feel all blah today. just feel sad or whatever. i dunno.
listening to: travis tritt-it's a great day to be alive--trying to cheer myself up

i tried posting this yesterday...but blogger was down...

ah today was a good day. even though i have been really tired and at first i really didn't want to go to my friends bday dinner just b/c i was being a lazy ass. so i dragged myself...actually i was rushing b/c i lolligagged until the last possible minute. i had to go get flowers for this one girl and then a picture frame for my friend. and it all turned out great cuz i found the perfect frame and flowers.

so we went to dinner for my friend grace's and this girl elene(pronounced like elaine)'s bday. we went to a chinese/korean restaurant. crazy huh? anyway so it's super cheap and we have super good food. oh but first we went to ikea to get her gift card...and i had some swedish meatballs! haha it was yum. yes i am fat so what!?!? but i had so much fun. it was a bunch of girls like 16 or so..there were like 2 groups...for the 2 girls' bday but we all go to school together. anyway my group of friends is really really big...we have 12 ppl total 11 girls and 1 guy. and you know what? i used to think, that's way too much...but all of them are really cool in their own little way. and we are way diverse which i also think is really cool b/c u see cliques within our class...and they're mostly based on ethnic lines. but we have 4 white ppl, 2 black ppl(2 out of the 2.5 black ppl in our class haha), one korean, 2 filipinos, one asian indian and one vietnamese--does that add up to 12? i think so. but isn't that great? so i love my friends and they're hella cool, sweet and awesome!! shoutouts to the 2nd and 3rd row on the (if you're looking at the lecturer) RIGHT!! woohoo. :)

listening to: woman-john lennon

oh oh and what i thought was REALLY weird was...ok after dinner we were getting the bill togehter which came out to 58.02...so we tipped him like 8 and some change. so one of my friends paid 7 bucks on her discover then gave him 60 in cash. so he comes back and is like...."so you put 7 on card and i'm confused this is 60 but bill is 58" and i just told him "KEEP THE CHANGE"...and he was like so "8 buck tip?" and we were like uh...yeah. and he kept asking and looking confused...and it's like ok dude....so lets say it was a 60 buck bill...10% is like 6 bucks....so we're giving you 15% tip...which is normal. so my friends are like super nice and they pitched in like 5 more bucks. the reason why i thought it was weird was that usually chinese or asian places don't really care about tip. i mean am i being ignorant or don't they usually expect like 10% tip? so either he was complaining about the tip or he didn't understand what was going on....but i seriously think he was just complaining about the tip. what do y'all think?

my mom made me go to church today...and i am really thankful to her for it. i didn't wanna go to church b/c i had to study for my anatomy test. but for some reason, church has really been helping me figure out my life and just realizing what's important you know? as well as, helping me understand what's going on within me. so today the deacon preached the gospel and he was talking about the story between Jesus and the blind man. And when Jesus called the blind man jumped up, dropping all his valuables and ran to Jesus. Jesus asked, "What is it you want?" and the blind man said, "I want to see."...Isn't that powerful? In order for one to "see" one must disregard all the trivial things in life and realize what's important. anyway i really liked it. back to studying!

listening to: some random rock song on X1039...boo i should change the station...

so my priorities are screwed up....it's 1 and i don't wanna go to sleep. i'm not being a v. good med student. i feel lost....

listening to: er track 13 off the michelle branch album...i dunno the name i think it's called "it's you"

Wow, so today was my VERY first freak out breakdown in med school!! Congrats to me. As a result of my block-long procrastination I was completely overwhelmed w/ all the anatomy I have to learn in 5 days! My reason for procrastinating was b/c my professors sucked and I didn't want to study it b/c I didn't understand it or thought it was too much work. That is not, however, any kind of excuse b/c I could have learned it all on my own...which is exactly what I'm doing now. See how I sound very calm and relaxed? This was not the case 4 hours ago. At around 730 pm I had been reading a lecture for an hour...and was not retaining anything. I wanted to cry, I was frustrated and I still didn't know ANYTHING. Lesson learned: I cannot learn just by reading. I was too lazy to draw everything out. Solution: copy and paste diagrams from powerpoint onto word document and label that way. BAM! worked like a charm and now I'm thinking more like how I should, in the anatomy perspective and I am learning(hopefully). At least I feel like I'm getting good work in and thats' all that really matters. Another lesson learned: I MUST MUST pre-read and prep for anatomy lecture and lab the day before each lecture/lab. This is what they told me at the very beginning but I was sidetracked by the lack of organization/structure/GOOD TEACHING of this anatomy block. So now i know, NO MATTER WHAT, study for anatomy. And I knew this...which is why i was so frustrated with myself...but now i know it's doable b/c it only takes an hour an a half to 2 hours tops per lecture/lab. So I will do that next block.

listening to: Track 12 on the Michelle Branch album...i dunno what it's called but it has French in it.

hey all...so my bday was fun despite the physio test. i had a dinner thing at BJ's pizzeria and brewery in West Covina. Most of my WesternU friends went and kyle and a few of his friends. the lame part was that i got faded off of 2 drinks...but in my defense i only had a banana since 1...and i started drinking at around 8 something before our food came. my friends got me a 100 dollar GC for nordstroms. i think i'm gonna get a MAC makeover and buy some make up. Then buy something to wear or whatever. kyle got me 24 red roses which was really sweet and the season 4 of friends DVD and Chicago on DVD. And our friends Sokhom and Kim gave me a khaki purse and a khaki top. v. cute.

so i have an anatomy exam next monday and i don't feel that confident about it at ALL. and this is not my normal lack of confidence...i really haven't learned anything this whole block. it has really sucked monkey balls. so i'm half assing studyiing b/c i want to get through everything. i am done going through half of the lectures...but i dunno how much i retained. the 2nd half shouldn't be too hard, but we'll see. I think i will be fine..but i am just scared and feeling lame b/c i'm not a v. good student at the moment. hopefully this will change after this anatomy exam and i will get on the ball again. b/c it really isn't that hard to prepare for the next day's lecture. i did it today for thursday's lecture.

tomorrow i plan on staying at school all day so i can get some work done. we have a biochem review too...which blows and will only make me lazier. whoopie. time for bed now tho.

listening to: why don't you and i--carlos santana and chad kroger

i love my boyfriend! :) no particular reason...just feeling the love. :D back to studying!!

ugh...so today is the 19th..day before my bday. so i wanted to have like a family lunch whatever. and my mom was like can you call these ppl...and i was like ok whatever. i had forgotten to do that b/c i was busy w/ school and what not and i really felt that she should do it. so i didn't have my aunt's number and my other cousin was living w/ them so i called him..and he said he was gonna meet up w/ them so i told him to tell them about the party and just call my mom or whatever. turns out he never told them...and whenever his sister told me that my aunt didn't know about my party, i thought she was kidding cuz she does stuff like that and she had said just kidding on the IM and then never clarified. should i have called them personally? yes. it's my bad but i just feel like grr my mom should have done all this stuff u know? she knows i have school and i don't even know how to get there. i'm just feeling like crap and it's for my bday. i wanted to feel special and just have a party not having to worry about anything. then this morning she was like..."do you want a cake?" how the hell could you even ask that. of course i want a damn cake. it's my bday. then she asks what i want for my bday....man just once i would like her to just ask ppl who know me and get a gift...without having to ask me---THE DAY OF. i know she prolly thinkns it's more practical and she would be getting me something i wanted but the surprise is always welcome. maybe i'm just being a brat...but a girl likes to feel special right? blah blah. i'm gonna study for physio now b/c i have a test tomorrow. whoopie.

listenting: lacey's song-buddy jewell

once again, i am hating school. for the most part it's because our anatomy professors this block SUCK ASS! i got used to dr. bales our first professor and then they switched it up on us. the lectures/labs aren't as complete now...and it takes forever to study each lecture b/c i have to look everything up. yeah i'm being a bitch about it, but don't get us used to one thing then change it! we need consistency here...how are we supposed to learn??? the professor we have now doesn't tell as at ALL what to do in our lab. we're supposed to use the Grants dissector book that we're not used to...and it's not v. helpful. it's just so frustratiing!! it makes me hate learning...which i'm supposed to like b/c this is actually interesting stuff...but they suck the life out of me!!!!!! all i want to do is eat and sleep and eat and sleep. booooooo! boo on the anatomy and physiology professors. Dr. May and Dr. Kiick and Dr. Bales have been the best professors thusfar. At least we have Dr. Kiick for biochem...he makes me wanna learn biochem. Dr. Fiorindo on the other hand(for physio) has been going over membrane transport, the sodium potassium pump and action potentials FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER...and then after that he REVIEWS everything he just said!!! and they expect us to go to lecture?!?!?! I mean they tell us not to bitch but c'mon shit! give me the education i'm paying 30 grand a year for!!! ARGH!!! i mean who do i go talk to about that? does anyone care? BLAH!

listening to: shit

so last night i watched Forrest Gump....man that is a GOOD ASS movie! i hadn't seen it in a while, so i watched while i did the laundry. It's really really good. It has a great story, the direction/cinematography, script and acting is fabulous....it has wit, drama, everything. ok just wanted to share. :P

listening to: kelly clarckson-miss independent
OH and emma thompson is cast to play professor trelawney in Harry Potter and the PoA movie set to come out June 5, 2004!!!

ok for the sports fans in the house...i RAREly take an interest in sports but this one caught my eye

the redhead and i were trying to figure out who we wanted to win the world series...because we liked the red sox and the cubs cuz they havne't won a WS in FOREVER. in our thought process...at the time, we thought the cubs were just on a regular old losing streak....and we thougth the curse of the bambino is a cool curse and wanted to keep it going. so we decided to go for the cubbies. THEN i found out about the billy goat curse from my friend who is from chicago. dork that i am, i did some research....

so i got the info on the cubbies. the curse of billy the goat....billy the goat is/was(?) this famous pub/bar in chicago...the owner of the pub wanted to bring his goat into the game(world series 1945)...he bought a ticket for himself and the goat...and they were denied entrance. so they escorted them out of the park and he cursed the cubs and wrigley field.

sooooo the strange thing i learned is...that the curse of the bambino....it TECHnically started in 1920 when the sox traded babe ruth to the yankees...but they haven't won a world series since 1918....if you do the math using 1918....the curse of the billy goat is on it's 58th year...while the curse of the bambino is in it's 85th year!! how crazy is that?!

yes i'm old AND i'm a dork! :D

haha listen!
Delta Airlines

JAMES TAYLOR CONCERT TONIGHT! yeah i'm old so what??? he's the best!

hahaha check it out
Outrage over Ghettopoly
Ghettopoly.com

read the first one first. i dunno why ppl are mad...they have dope wars and grand theft auto. :D

listening to---i mean NOT listening to Dr. Foster's lecture about the stomach

hmm so i'm getting that feeling again. i have a biochem test tomorrow...didn't really study too much for it...but i feel ok. it's getting scary cuz damn like am i learning enough? am i taking things as seriously as i should be? well i mean it's my 3rd time taking the course..i would hope that i understood certain things well enough so that i wouldn't have to study for them. i'm also concerned that my school isn't preparing us for boards. like as hard as it is to be in med school...shouldn't it be harder? maybe i'm just being arrogant...and i should thank my lucky stars that i was in a program that helped me prepare for med school so it WOULD be easier for me.

I AM definitely behind in anatomy though. i'm gonna need to get on that ish this weekend as well as catch up on physiology. sigh. well at least i'm motivated....or am i????

listening to: halo friendlies-me against the world

One must have time for oneself

So I've been in a funk for the past 3 weeks and HOPING today i have snapped out of it. I've been sick for the past couple of days and have had no motivation since my first anatomy exam. But today...today I feel different. I cleaned my room and organized my school stuff(put away old anatomy, micro, histo stuff from the first exams) and now i am going to take baby steps into getting caught up. I am still sick and my head is all retarded congested but I am GETTING IN GEAR! For the past 3 weeks I've been lazy and THINKING about all the stuff I had to do and not really doing anything. In being lazy I would delude myself into thinking that it was "time i needed for myself" when it was really time spent wasted on not doing anything at all b/c i didn't want to study. Time for myself should be reading a book, organizing my life, cleaning my place so i feel good about it, cooking something so i can eat actual food, talking on the phone with loved ones...etc....NOT vegging out in front of the tv or in front of my computer. So here I am trying to get my head in gear...let's hope this lasts!!

listening to: mmm i THINK it's led zepplin on the classic rock station.....kyle and i watched "school of rock" and it was really funny, but also got me wanting to listen to some good ass rock! which is prolly better than all the crap that's coming out these days. :)

ok so i got my anatomy scores and i did better than i expected. on the practical i got a 42/49 and on the written a 46/50 which totals to 88/99 which is like an 88%. rumor has it that the mean was 69% so yeah. i feel good now and i feel motivated to do well again! which is a lot better than me feeling like i can slack off. how cool would that be to honor some classes in my first year? alrighty time to go do somethin productive. i'm gonna change out of these school clothes tho! i want to be fit and thin! :( i can't go to step aerobics tomorrow cuz we have review til 8. BLAH!

i felt really burned out this week. we had an exam on monday and then the week's schedule was just hell. it's just that we have so much lecture time and this block has really crappy professors. I miss all the profs from first block. It's a shame because some of the subjects are really interesting. So i totally ditched my first 3 lectures on friday...it felt good hehe. I studied instead and I think that was more beneficial. However, I do see the benefit in going to lecture b/c you get to hear about things that aren't in the lecture notes, you get clarification and just extra stuff that might be on the test. but it's just soooo long. and i don't wanna get burned out. It's only a month or so into school!

I have been doing pretty well about the balancing the priorities thing and I think I've done well on my exams....I haven't gotten my anatomy score yet *crosses fingers* And this test coming up which is microbiology seems like it's gonna be easy. I sometimes wish that school was "harder"...so that it will prepare us for the boards...and prepare us how to study more efficiently at the level of the boards....but *shrug* we'll see. I'm bored.

HAHA MaD TV is doing a satire on Jewel's Intuition video!! HAHA its so funny it's called "prostitution" and basically how she sold her ass out. freakin funny.
listening to: prostitution bye MAD TV ppl

so i survived my first anatomy exam. i havent gotten my scores yet so i'm ok for now. just gotta prepare for the next test. i think i did ok on the written part but the practical has got me worried a bit. i could have done decent or i could have done really bad. oh well.

so i like this new ludacris song "stand up" there's this funny ass line in it: *most girls lookin right some lookin a mess...that's why they spillin drinks all over your dress...but louie vuitton bras all over your breasts....got me wantin to put hickies all over your chest* HAHA it's great. mindless entertainment is cool.

test results

developmental histology: 70/77 on written and 35/35 on lab which equals 95%
biochemistry: 47/51=90 some %

woohoo!
time to study for anatomy

today was my first set of exams and i think i kicked ass...yay me! next week is anatomy and at that time it will be the other way around my ass will be the one being kicked!

time for bed! OH OH...and the 2nd years threw a party for us...and it was a costume party of sorts: you're assigned a character and you have to find your partner i.e. mickey finds minnie...etc. so this girl showed up as wonder woman....she came in a leather jacket...then she took it off and all she had on was a red bikini, a stomach chain thing and a whip. I gave her mad props for showing up in that. It was crazy shit! NOW time for bed...i wasn't even gonna blog....

Friends is a great show and while I think that this being the last season is a good choice, I'm still gonna be sad that they're going. :( they just make me laugh when i'm down, when i'm bored and when i'm happy. random thought of mine cuz i watched some friends episodes today.

Phoebe(singing): it wasn't just that she was fat; the lady smells like gaaaaaaaaarbage

check out the new link at the bottom...well, it's a modification of an old link.

Norah Jones-Shoot the Moon

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!! las;dfjkdsaljfdsklafsdjlk!

alternate study space
also known as A.S.S.

I have found it! Starbucks on Central is my new ASS!! For the last couple of days I've been going to Starbucks to study. It gets me out of the house, away from the internet and to studying. It's working for me so far so I think I will continue going there, ESPECIALLY if I'm not feeling motivated to study; which is EVERYDAY!

listening to: Will I-RENT OG broadway recording. it's the best!

this is what someone posted on this blog group i'm in. v. straaaange

[Tue Aug 26, 09:51:12 PM | Mac the Knife ]
hello everyone. i heard some interesting information on the radio this morning. apparently we will be able to see Mars clearer than we ever have sometime soon. but that is not the news i am talking about. what i heard was this lady talking about her belief that all Chinese people are Martians. it was very intriguing she belongs to a special "club" a cult you might say that believes that Chinese people are decendents of aliens. isn't that awesome? so when asked what the culture of aliens were she responded with they have a very asian influenced style. ummmm, k.........just thought i'd share this tidbit with the Chinese folk out there, apparently you guys are all aliens, and not the illegal kind either.

when in doubt, go to a study group session

that's the lesson of the day. i had a TOTALLY crappy day at school today. I think it was a mixture of frustration, being overwhelmed, fatigue and brain overload. BUT everytime I feel this way, and I think I'm gonna go crazy.....I go study w/ my group and I feel so much better! There's this group I study with and they're really cool. We discuss one subject and go over all the lectures to date and it really helps. I also need to bulk up on my studying alone time. I seem to find myself wasting time in my apartment. So what I'm gonna try this week going to A.S.S.(alternative study spaces) to a. get me offline, b. away from the tv, c. away from the phone(sort of) and d. to studying!! Hopefully it works out. We get out at 3 tomorrow, so I'm planning on going to starbucks either right after or something like that. Then tomorrow we're going to go to the HIP HOP class at the LA fitness in La Verne. WOOHOO! Dancing is awesome. Can't wait. Plus I think Novette is gonna go so good times will be had. Ok I gotta get ready for bed. Night all!

listening to: the whir of my computer

k i'm totally freaking out again. :( i slacked this week and will be paying for it this weekend. at least i have my embryo book now and i can catch up on that. anyway yeah i think this blog thing will be pretty much a rollercoaster of medschool. so it won't be v. interesting. oh well! time to opack to go home...hasta
listening to: ultimate-lindsey lohan(freaky friday soundtrack)

Feeling Better

I had study group today and it helped a lot. It's so different when you're actually prepared for study group. It goes along smoother. So hopefully this will motivate me to keep on top of things.

listening to: Painter Song-Nora Jones

hey all. it's the weekend!! woohoo. i had planned to study hard core today but it doesn't look like that's gonna happen. I mean some of my fellow students seem so much more gung ho than I am...like ppl are going to anatomy lab every day after class....just all this stuff. somehow i feel like i should be more into this studying thing. but, i guess i shouldn't compare myself to other people. but i'm scared that maybe i'm not studying enough even though i understand all the stuff i'm learning. i do think i should be reviewing more. there's a study group today that i'm going to. i dunno how exactly we're gonna study but i'm gonna make the effort to go. i hope it is helpful. i was just never good at group studying. i'm cool with studying with someone else or like 2 other ppl. but i think our group is like 6 people it's crazy.

anyway i gotta pack and get ready to go home...then i think i'll eat cuz i'm getting hungry.

listening to: some commercial on the radio...i just heard a song by outkast on kroq....so weird

FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!! and this is JUST for anatomy. insanity i tell you!! and oh yeah...DON'T PROCRASTINATE IN MED SCHOOL!!

listening to: my braincells hanging on for dear life

Well yesterday was my white coat ceremony which marks the beginning of my medical career and the end of my social life as we know it! haha. Nah it won't be but I will be remarkably busy. I'm scared that I won't be able to balance my personal and academic life but since I do have concerns about that already--even before I start--then maybe I will be concious of it and succeed in doing so.

I don't really have much to say....what have I been up to. OH i watched CSUSB's production of "Into the Woods". Considering it was a college play putting on a broadway play....I really really enjoyed it. The music was cool, the actors were great overall. Everyone except for maybe a couple of people could sing very well. I also watched "A Midsummer Night's Dream" there the next day, but I didn't enjoy it as much as ITW. My friend was in it and played Demetrius. He did a really good job. What killed the play for me was the girl who played puck mostly, the guy who played lisander(sp?) and a couple other ppl in the company(not b/c they couldn't act but b/c I really couldn't understand them; no offense to them b/c they were deaf but I just couldn't understand them on top of the shakespearean language). But I commend the casts of both b/c I know I sure as hell couldn't get up there and pretend I'm someone else and do a good job. :D

listening to: only you-112 f/ Biggie

i'm all moved in! it only took two days so i'm glad that it worked out ok. kyle's family helped me move my stuff in, along w/ darren. then at night my mom and sis came over and helped me clean. today novette came to visit me...my first visitor! and she brought some thai food...yum. it was really good timing cuz matess and i were getting hungry. it's fun setting up a new place. your old things find new places and everything is like new. :) i feel like i have stuff to do...but i havne't organized my head to think about it yet. perhaps i should make a list of things to do. i know i want to change my sprint plan and phone number...and i have to cancel the gas and electric in philly....but amy never emailed me back. then i just gotta get ready for school in general. orientation is in two days...craziness. then it's school like i've never had before. 8-4 everyday....WOOHOO! i'm SO looking fwd to it. bleh. hopefully it will be fun...but when is studying ever fun. *shrug* alrighty i'm gonna continue to take my lil weave thingie i got from seaworld out of my hair...it's annoying.
soundtrack: girl from ipanima--astrid gilberto

so i'm moving into my new apartment tomorrow. i'm tired from packing and i'm not even packing all that much. maybe i'm just tired at the idea of tomorrow being a long and tiring day. that's all the blog i can muster....prolly won't be blogging a lot anyway just b/c of school and what not...hey, you never know maybe i will.
playing in the background: finding nemo

woohoo SD for 4 days with kyle! and woohoo! missa got into nycom!! oh and woohoo harlem(sp?) lee chinese guy won on fame! woohoos for asians all around! it's been a good day except that i feel fat! boooo! anyway things calmed down at home and all is well. oh oh and today i got my graduation present from kyle's parents....they gave me an old school doctor's bag!! and a sphyngometer(bp cuff dealie, which i don't think i spelled it right), ear thermometer, dr. scissors and reflex hammer thingie hehe. it's awesome. although i dunno if i'll actually use it...cuz ppl don't use that stuff anymore...and what would i put in it? despite that it's dope!!

anyway i'm off to SD tomorrow...so won't really be blogging but i'll blog when i get back!

pendelum swings...altho not far from where i was at last blog when my blog got erased. i got in an "argument" and it was a stupid one that shouldn't even had happened. you know when your voices just get louder and louder and you don't really know why? anyway, so i withdrew 60 bucks from my discover card b/c the nail salon place would only take cash for my sister's mani/pedi and facial. i didn't have enough money in my bank so i took it out of my discover. yeah i could have withdrawn the money i was saving for rent...but i didn't know when i was going to sign the lease and didn't want to risk it. discover charges me 5 bucks! FIVE DOLLARS! for getting a cash advance. i was never aware of this ridiculous fee...i knew there was a fee of 1.50.....but add to that 5 dollars? ludicrous. so she tells me not to withdraw money from the discover card anymore....which c'mon now, just seeing that fee would tell anyone not to do that anymore. the convo following this is fuzzy, but all i remember is that i was trying to explain why i withdrew the money...it's a natural reaction esp since she asked why right? then she says i know and tells me a second time.....just don't take money out of your discover...next time just take 200 dollars out. would this confuse anyone? a little. so i'm not understanding her and i ask questions...she's getting more annoyed and irritated. why would i take 200 if she told me not to take money out of the card....she means take 200 out of my account....uh i don't HAVE 200 bucks to be taking out of my account. long story short it escalated into me yelling that i was just trying to explain to her what happened and her yelling that i always have something to say and that i can't just say "ok next time i won't take the money out of the card OR i will call the card next time to make sure there are no charges OR i will call the place next time to see if they take cash or not"...i distinctly recall me saying "OK" when she told me not to take money out of the card AND recall me THINKING "well i'm not gonna do that again." so what's the deal??

MY theory is she's frustrated at something else about me...right Dr. Phil? so why doesn't she just say it? i think she's frustrated about a lot of things....i'm moving out in a month, i spend a lot of time with kyle, i've changed since philly and am not afraid to TALK but she's afraid to LISTEN. judging from her ramblings when i finally decided to shut up since i knew she wasn't listening to me anyway, i think she feels inadequate as a mother and she's taking it out on me. she doesn't think i appreciate her and she thinks i think i'm better than her. there may be some validity in that but i never said it OUT LOUD...AND if she has a problem with it she should make changes in her life so she can feel better about herself, not taking it out on me. i'll admit i've gotten more selfish since getting back from philly but i think it's a good selfish. selfish enough to know i need to do stuff for me.

THEN i try to make ammends by deciding to call her consolidation company to inquire about her loans and fix stuff...so i ask her what her birth year is cuz they need that confirmation info......and she--does--not--answer. silent treatment all the way. now does anyone think i did anythign wrong for me to have to apologize? i didn't insult her...i was just trying to explain things, get answers, etc......the only reason my tone started changing was b/c hers did....and possibly the only thing i may be guilty of is not being the bigger person(right away) and letting her get to me. but seriously, do i deserve the silent treatment? perhaps not for this little incident...but for deeper things she's frustrated about? and i will close with the statement that my mother says that i'm always saying.......it's not my fault. and i really don't think it is.....

dammit i just spent all this time blogging about my weekend and the page messed up...i'm not writing it all over again. i'm going to sleep. fuckin yahoo pool messing up my internet shit...piece of crap!!!

i totally forgot to blog about the dolphins! at first i saw them when i was on shore...they were riding the waves...4 of them. then when i was out boogie boarding i spotted another group! it was so cool! oh and i guess i left out the details...we went to zuma beach which is up the coast from malibu. so much fun!

listening to: let me down easy--chris isaak

i went to the beach w/ melissa, andy and my cousin Ben. it was sooooo much fun! prolly the best time i have had at the beach. we got there kind of late...around 6. the sun was still up but it was kind of chilly. once i got in the water tho it was ok. the redhead let me borrow his boogie board and so i went out w/ that while my cousin surfed. dumbass that i am, i was riding the board upside down....so the nose went down and hit the sand...the board dug into my stomach and OUCH. so i went to lay out...then i went out on the surf board and tried that. i didn't get to stand up but it was fun just the same. when you catch the wave and just ride it...it's the best feeling in the world. it's a different kind of freedom that you can only get from either flying or something like that. it's awesome. i kneeled on a couple of waves. i also scraped my knees, swallowed some saltwater(yack!), went under a few times as well. and even tho there are aspects of the beach that i hate...the sand and the saltwater....i love the beach!

i'm too tired and lazy to blog about my beach experience today...this blog is basically a reminder for me to write about it....ni ni

who's bored? my fam reunion pics are up at www.novette.com

hey ok i LOVE LOVE LOVE this song off of DMB's Crash album....and I sing the words etc but i never knew what the song was about...but today I finally looked up the words to see if i could understand what the song is saying. I read it...and I'm STILL lost.

#41
Come and see
I swear by now I'm playing time against my troubles
I'm coming slow but speeding
Do you wish a dance and while I'm in the front
The play on time is won
But the difficulty is coming here
I will go in this way
And find my own way out
I won't tell you to stay
But I'm coming to much more
Me
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now
What if they came down crushing
Remember when I used to play for all of the loneliness that nobody
notices now
I'm begging slow I'm coming here
Only waiting I wanted to stay
I wanted to play,
I wanted to love you


I'm only this far
And only tomorrow leads my way


I'm coming waltzing back and moving into your head
Please, I wouldn't pass this by
I wouldn't take any more than
What sort of man goes by
I will bring water
Why won't you ever be glad
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
Why won't you run
in the rain and play
Let the tears splash all over you

Ok so what I gather from it, it is about a guy coming back to someone but that person doesn't want him back. I'm lost. Anyway it's a kick ass song even tho I don't get it. :D

watching: FRIENDS-TOW Dr. Drake Ramoray Dies
Chandler:...because he thinks I slept with his ex-girlfriend and killed his fish!!
Phoebe:Why would you kill his fish?
Chandler:Because sometimes, Phoebe, after you sleep with someone...you have to kill a fish.

stephen king reviews HP 5 OotP:

ok ok so I finally decided to blog about my 4th. been too lazy to blog anything really. anyhow, we had our family reunion this last week...it's my grandfather's side of the family..the Lims. On Tuesday, my cousin Grace from Michigan came to hang out. We went shopping, watched Legally Blonde and went to TGIF's w/ my other cousin and her friends. Good times. Then on Thurs my aunt/uncle/cousins from Canada came back from Vegas and I took the boys(13/14) to see T3 and it was a v. entertaining movie. Like most action movies I went in not expecting much and i enjoyed it alot. Friday was the Lim Family Reunion Picnic in San Diego(Bonita/Chula Vista area). It started off crappy cuz we had to go pick up the food and that shit spilled ALL OVER my trunk which caused it to reek of...I think it was the shrimp paste...for the next week(I just cleaned it up yesterday and there is still a hint of that smell elch!!!). Oh and we missed all the introductions so i totally didn't know anyone or where they came from and THAT sucked. But the food was really good and i met my cousins from virginia, texas, michigan, maryland...and I forget where else...oh yeah L.A. Supposedly one of my cousins spins for Black Eyed Peas....I'm not a big fan so I'll just give that a *shrug*. Then my cousins and I went to Novette's house and swam, chilled, relaxed.. I swear it felt like I was on a resort cuz we were just lazing about. There, I learned how to surf...in a pool...but it was still fun! I learned the basics: how to balance on the surfboard to paddle, stratling the surfboard and pushing up on it to stand/kneel. That night we went out w/ the "younger generation" meaning teens and up. The 21 and under kids went to coffee shops/wandered around at the gaslamp quarter while the 21+ crowd went into this bar/club called The Bitter End. It was really fun. I danced my ass off....

Saturday was the family party at Novette's house. OMG!!! my uncle made the most tender bestest pork roast dealie. SO FREAKIN GOOD. I ate that for breakfast and lunch haha. Kyle came down and we all went swimming for like 3 hours. I also learned how to play this north-midwestern card game called Euchre: eu·chre
Pronunciation: 'yü-k&r
Function: noun
Etymology: origin unknown
Date: 1841
: a card game in which each player is dealt five cards and the player making trump must take three tricks to win a hand

It takes about 45 min to learn---seriously haha. Then I went back with Kyle and we went to his friends bday thing at D&B in Ontario. His friend came across tickets coming out of that game where you try to knock the coins over the edge...and the tickets kept coming....and coming....and coming. And they were free! So all in all Kyle, his friend Justin and I all split 1400 tickets. I got a D&B glass and a YO YO!!!!! the yo yo is awesome hehe.

Sunday was my cousin Franco's bday party in Irvine. Kind of like the reunion parties part 3. He ordered food from this Hawaiian restaurant and it was yum! After that, i took my cousin and aunt to see Charlie's Angel's. Ok I had said earlier that I don't expect much from action movies....and I didnt going into this flick. But I was actually a bit disappointed. The plot wasn't v. well put together...the stunts were like so impossible that they weren't believeable...and in the end there were a few pieces to the story that weren't resolved.

So that was my weekend or week. Pretty busy, which explains how tired I am. But wait it's not over! Wed is this gathering at my aunt's hotel/resort thingie...then thurs is a party at her friends house and it's also serving as a bday party for my sister.....blah! I'm tired!!!

listening to: the cure-cut here(acoustic version)

ok ok i'm blogging! I can't take it anymore! haha. we have our family reunion tomorrow and the rest of the weekend is like the afterparty hehe. so my mom and i have been cleaning our house. her sister's were here the other night...they were so happy. my mom was showing them her dresses and they were trying it on....like playing dress up. three 50 year olds playing dress up. it was cute and simple and innocent. there's something about people seeing each other after a long time that kind of strips away all the drama and complications. like sometimes my mom complains about her siblings...and that they treat her like she doesn't matter and just drama w/ property in the Philippines. But that night they were just...happy...happy to see each other. It was great. Made me feel all warm and fuzzy.

the red head and i are going on a long weekend to San Diego. I'm really excited about it. Especially b/c it was my idea but he planned the whole trip...booked the hotel and everything. We're staying at the Town & Country Resort in San Diego. We get free tickets to Sea World and we're also gonna go to the wild animal park. woohoo!

listening to: Norah Jones-Nightingale

btw here's a review that i like...i'm too lazy to write my own...but this guy sums it up real nice w/o giving away anything really.

Order of the Phoenix Review

i finally finished the 5th book! it was good. i won't talk about it much just because some ppl who may not have read it yet might be reading this...no i'm not arrogant enough to think that people actually READ my blog page haha but you know...just in case. ;)

I HAVE CRAMPS!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAARRGH!!

ok i'm in a better mood now hehe. on ch 26 of OotP...good stuff. good times. hehe. i also got free car washes for our cars at rock honda for getting them serviced there. woohoo! not much else to say. my life is pretty much, run errands for mom, clean for mom....or reading HP and doing nothing. exciting no? hopefully i get my laptop ordered today.....cross your fingers.

silence.......my stupid winamp is messed up. i think i'll just have to reinstall.

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so not in a good mood right now!!!!!!!!! short version: sister+computer=drivers messed up/computer *expletive* up...possible need for reformat +headache!!!!!!! *expletive**expletive**expletive**expletive**expletive*

sorry haven't blogged...been reading...or the stupid blogsite was down....or my mom was making me clean or whatever....she's on a cleaning expedition or something b/c relatives are coming. it's very annoying....
oh and my compture is retarded as well. now it's stuck on the lowest pixel setting so everything is HUGE and even tho i try to change the settings...once it restarts it's back to the huge freakin settings all over again. v. frustrating. would appreciate any suggestions if anyone has any...just post on the chatterbox.

hi all. i had a great day overall yesterday. HP- OOP came in the mail!! And I got a bootleg copy of Finding Nemo. :) yay!

yesterday was my cousin ben's graduation party. FOOOOOOOOOOOd. My uncle made his famous roast beef with gravy. so freakin good. i regret being too lazy to wrap some up. oh well. it was cool hanging out w/ my aunts and uncles and cousins. i hadn't seen them in a while and it's always a "hoot" to hear them laugh and joke about random stuff. gotta love that. my cousins from LA were there too and I really should start hanging out with them more. but they don't ever call. they're hella cool though.

so i'm on chapter 9. good so far. it's a page turner just b/c...like Harry you thirst for "the truth" and all the secrets that everyone is keeping from you. ok now i sound like a freaking crazy woman like i'm IN the book or something. i'm hungry, but will read maybe another chapter b4 i forage for some food.

listening to: 3EB-blinded

YAY!!!!!!! it came!!!!! 1015 it came! my HP book is here! OK READING TIME!!!!!!

i am bored i am bored....that would have been great if my HP book came today on accident. then i would have something cool to do. i'm not even mad...i'm just freakin bored. and i think i'm getting sick which sux. i think it's gone beyond normal allergies.....b/c nothing new has come into my life that could aggravate my allergies even more right? and i get cold randomly so this must be something bad. maybe i'll knock out on some nyquil and hope for the best. whatever.

listenting to: the beatles-blackbird

i've done absolutely nothing today. i finished up the laundry and cooked some food. man why can't i cook well? my stuff always comes out bland. i just don't like putting alot of seasoning b/c sometimes it's too much. oh well. i was supposed to finish up my physical forms but the nurse practicioner wasn't there today so i guess i'll try again on monday. then i was supposed to get my car an oil change, but by the time i was ready i was too lazy. no one is online...lar lar. and i'm bored. i could work out...but i don't feel well. my throat or like my nasopharyngeal area feels all weird. and i keep getting the chills. i feel like sleeping all day. blarg. harry potter tomorrow. hopefully the package comes b4 we leave for SD. woohoo! that would be cool if my mom's bf could drive and i could read all the way there hehe ;)

u know what i hate. i hate when u make plans w/ someone and u set aside time for that person...but then something comes up that's really important and you can't really be mad but you are b/c you were looking forward to seeing that person. i hate that. i dunno what to do now. i don't wanna clean hehe. il'l prolly just finish hanging up the rest of the laundry and then maybe work out, shower then watch pride and prejudice until 9 when katie curick(sp?) interviews j.k. rowling...dude this news anchor called her j.k. rawlings.....wtf. geez! get your information straight sir!!

listening to: aaliyah-journey to the past

I GOT THE APARTMENT! YAY! YAY! i move in august 1st. it's 505/month plus utilities...so lets just say 600 a month. woohoo! i'm happy now and everything is pretty much set for the school year. My financial aid is pretty much taken care of so yay i'm on my way!!!!

FRIENDS quote of the day
Frank Jr.: ...it's cuz like being with her is so much better than.......not being with her...

song o' dee day well actually yesterday.....but i just now got time to get the lyrics :P
Crush-DMB

friends quote of the day:
Phoebe: Hey Joey, when you said "the deal with Santa Clause", you meant...
Joey: That he doesn't exist.
Phoebe: Oh...right. *surprised shocked look*

ok time for ni ni

blah blah balh

Pure F.O.B. Style
Directions on a Papaya whitening peeling cream:
Use: Days for sub-two, first shall face wetness, and weild the product gently knead, then with cleanly water washing.

On front cover of the box: "Clean out horniness whitening...One minutes dispel horniness"

you like that huh?

ok so if y'all haven't noticed i put a chatterbox on the site so you can leave me a message HINT HINT!!!!! hehe :P well it could also be that no one is reading this and that's fine too...this is for me anyway. dang i forgot what i was gonna post about...ohhhhhh ok so we're cleaning out our house and i found some old stuff from elem., jr. high, and high school. just some funny stuff. i read some old letters....."hey, what's up? how have you been[when you just saw them in the class b4]. sorry it took so long to write back[when you just wrote them the period before that]. so do you like so and so still? well i like so and so. i don't like so and so anymore. ok the bell is about to ring....BFF, WBS, Sorry So Sloppy" hehe. fun shit. i love looking through old stuff. that's why i keep everything. you kind of look back and see how you've grown. that's about it for now. tired tired...i'm 90% done w/ my room! yay. then the rest of the house is left........sigh. work work work.

watching: friends #523-524--The One in Vegas
friends quote of the day

Pheobe: Ugh..that's like the third time that lady's won on a machine I was playing!
Ross: ohh i bet she's one those people
Phoebe: m-m-mole people???

there's something about rearranging your house and cleaning out stuff that feels invigorating...EXHAUSTING...but invigorating nonetheless. my mom and i are cleaning out our rooms and we bought new storage units for each room. we also moved around some furniture...so everythign seems kind of new you know? plus i can't help but pretend i'm on trading spaces...but haha i'm not doing any home improvement...we're just moving around stuff :P...but i can pretend can't i? there's this ugly coffee table that i'm thinking of "refurbishing"...i have to see if it's real wood, and if it is i'm gonna try to take off the covering and sand down the wood and paint it! woohoo! but thats' for later on in the summer when i'm bored haha.

so today was the day. it was HOT but i had a good time. i met up w/ justin and marion at denny's cuz they didn't know where to go. i went to the reception afterwards...subway sandwiches, chips and white cake w/ strawberry filling....yum. marion, justin and cesar showed up. everyone left and i stayed behind to chat w/ the fam. he liked his gift (i think) shoot he better hehe. anywya on his card at the back of it i said: Gift #1-Surprise I came to your graduation....the other gifts were a drexel dragon and a burned copy of "Any Given Thursday"-John Mayer (live). so when i was leaving i told him that he had one more gift and that i was opening the lines of communication and he got all giddy happy. and i said, "so you wanted a chance...here's your chance." and that was basically it. so it went "well" i suppose. we'll see how this goes.

******silence*******

so tomorrow's the "big day"...the redhead's graduation. i have anxiety...but there is potential for a good time to be had...and possibly the start of things being "alright." i still have no game plan as to what i'm going to tell him...bottom line is that i have to get the point across that the communication lines are open...and basically now's his chance to show me...SHOW ME not tell me that he wants to be with me...and we'll see where that goes from there.

things go by so fast...and i know some people will be like "wtf is she doing giving him a chance?" i guess i'm just tired of playing games...i was upset at the events that occurred...and while i'm still upset about those things, i have gotten past the anger point...and now it's like i'm tired of fighting my feelings for him b/c i do love him, i do miss him. ok well that's my blog for now..i'm tired and still need to write his card out, his dad's card and wrap his present....oh and dry my hair and put curlers in it. lar lar lar.

listening to: 21 questions by halfdollar......better known as 50 cent.

guess what?! well prolly doesn't call for a "!" but i was watching CBS this morning...the "kids discovery" portion...and they had Trading Spaces for kids! I was like WOOHOO! I don't have cable so I got my TS fix...but it wasn't the same b/c the host was different and so were the designer people. ahhh i miss cable :(

the cleaning/reorganizing of my house continues and so does the roommate search...this summer seems so busy.

as for the "personal life" section...it's all still up in the air. it's basically the only thing that's not "going right"--hmm i've used a lot of quotation marks in this post hehe. i just feel like something's missing. I'm just scared of making the wrong decision....but I guess that's the risk you take with life right? well we'll see how everything goes.

listening to: "just friends"-musiq soulchild

yay yay! it came on and now i'm taping it!!!

*and i wish that you could be the one i die with....and i pray that you're the one i build my home with....i hope i love you all my life...i don't wanna run away but i can't take it i don't understand...if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am? is there anyway that i could stay in your arms? cuz i miss you...body and soul so strong.......OK I'LL STOP!*

listening to: DUH!

i hate this stupid blogger basic piece of crap "easy" version of blogger. i didn't even want it on there but i think they're forcing me to preview this version. HATE IT!

my sister's graduation was today. my friend's sister who was "small" the last time i saw her graduated too...freakin crazy. the kids that graduated today were in 6th grade when i graduated h.s. am i old or what? hehe. and this couple who were going out when they graduated from h.s. they were 2 years ahead of me...anyway they now both teach at my old h.s. and they're married to each other. i think it's cute. but the guy looks old now hehe. and i saw this other dude i went to h.s. with...but didn't say hi. we used to talk on the phone...i guess we "liked" or were interested in each other...but i think he was boring or something...boring doesn't work well w/ me.

i wanna play pai gow...hehe. :P casino morongo anyone?

listenting to: 102.7 KIIS FM-Santana f/ Michelle Branch-Game of Love....but really waiting for the Daniel Beddingfield song to come on so I can tape it ghetto style on a cassette tape! heeee YAAAAAAAAAAAY

vegas was fun! thanks amy for letting us crash in your uber-fancy hotel room. :) i played pai gow and won 8 bucks...but i started with 50 and walking away with 58 bucks is a hell of a lot better than walking away with nothing! plus i had the best time playing. and we also discovered a new drink from the ppl that we were playing with. it's called a miami vice...has i think some malibu rum, some other stuff...it's a girly drink topped off w/ some whipped cream!

so i'm really loving this song by daniel beddingfield...looking for lyrics atm so will post when found. oh ok it's called "if you're not the one"

DANIEL BEDINGFIELD


"If You're Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

it's soooooo good. anyway...so that's what's been going on. i am a confused girl..hopefully i can figure everything out by summer's end. :(

listening to: savage garden--er i dunno the name of the song it's track 4 hehe

i am lost...feel empty...confused. find pleasure in talkin to friends...EATING. distracted by...cleaning my room--that's prolly the best time b/c there's no thought involved and it's cathartic. hate hate hate hate being like this. altho not THAT bad. just lonely i guess. cleaning out stuff is cool..u find memories that you forgot...and you kind of realize that you've had a really good life. i had some good friends in high school...and i really should get in touch w/ them again. i dunno why it was that when i left h.s. i just wanted to forget everything there...........but i had a great h.s. experience...so what's the deal?

was going through this list....in honors english senior year..our teacher made us write our name on 2 pieces of paper...one was "where i'd be in 10 years" and the other one was "good things about..." and then we passed it around the class and everyone was supposed to write one thing on both papers. i just read it...so funny that maybe 4 or 5 ppl said..."will be married or dating a black guy"...or "will have a kid who's half black and half filipino" haha. that's prolly one of the things that won't come true within the next...what is it 4 years? yeah it will prolly be on the other side of the spectrum...or in the middle somewhere.

blah blah blah boys are pooooooooooop


listening to: hot in here...nelly

i finished the bridgette jone's diary 2...i didn't really like how it ended...but i guess the whole point was...even when you finally get everything that you've always wanted, life's not perfect and it never will be...and i'm adding on, so you just gotta take whatever life hands you and find happiness. get a lemon, make lemonade.....altho i dunno what you could make out of a piece of shit....use it as fertilizer to make a pretty flower??

onto cleaning out my room...it's SO MUCH FUN!!!

listening to: james taylor-frozen man(pull over DVD)

life is frustrating...want to lose weight/tone up but all i want to do is eat and sleep...want to be happy but CAN'T blah.

song o' dee day
Grey Street by DMB

Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears it doesn't listen
There's still a hope in her it might
She says "I pray But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place? "
There's lonliness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It feels like cold blue ice in her heart
When all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
There's a stranger speaks outside her door
Says take what you can from your dreams
Make them as real as anything
It'd take the work out of courage
But she says "Please
There's a crazy man that's creeping outside my door,
I live on the corner of Grey Street
And the end of the world. "
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anyrthing to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
It breaks her heart
To Grey

blargh my room is one big pile of crap! i need to organize/clean/throw out so much crap!!! how did i accumulate so much?? and this is the stuff i left behind. there are 4 boxes en route to my house from philly still. and when those come i have to unpack them, organize/clean/throw out the stuff that's in THOSE boxes.

no one wants to go w/ me to this party. but i think i should go. lar lar we'll see.

so i think i made my peace w/ the boy and i can get on w/ my summer and he can get on w/ his. so i feel a lot better(i think...) about my situation here.

listening to: goodbye to you--michelle branch
*and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time*

i'm home now! yay....kind of. i have much to do before the summer's over. ack can't believe am starting school soon. i actually have to WORK and DO STUFF. what's up w/ that? hehe. i'm lazy...i don't wanna unpack...only to have to pack up again. i wonder if i could juts live out of a suitcase for 2 months...hmmm hehe.

i drove my caaaaaarrrrrr! it was so nice to see it again and to drive around in the 70 degree weather...sunroof open, windows down...just drivin' w/ john(mayer) or dave(matthews) hehe. hopefully i can start work in a couple of weeks. have a feeling i will hate work once i start..but it's money in my pocket. moooonnneeeey. i hate this time difference...esp since i'm used to subtracting 3 hours to figure out what time it is where the ppl i want to talk to are. so now i do that, but it doesn't calculate EST...it's hawaii time! so i'm all screwed up. happens everytime i come home hehe. should call amy tomorrow. alrighty....out.

listening to: john mayer-83(live-any given thurs)....so coooooooooooool

i'm back home...feels so weird. cuz i'm not going back to philly. when i left it felt like i was just going on summer break. as backwards as it seems...i wanna go back. of course i'm prolly just running from my problems...but running is good hee hee. :P i feel myself regressing....i hope i can get all my stuff together before school starts. the flight sucked...took forever. and i watched the hours on the plane and it sucked. like why was julianne moore's character so sad? was it b/c she was a closet lesbian? i didn't understand. then at the end nothing was resolved...it was very annoying that i spent that time watching it. ok i think i'm gonna try to sleep. i hope i don't sleep in too late.

song of the day: everybody's fool--evanescence

have become raving lunatic...perhaps should boycott all creatures of the male sex. seriously not worth all the frustration and anguish we put ourselves through. does it sound like i've been reading bridgette jones? hehe cuz i have. hate not knowing what i want...or if know what i want wish would just realize it and get on with my life. hate making decisions. just want to live life ignorantly and blindly as if in matrix and being used as human battery for the machines. no pain...but then again no joy. crappolla...what to do with my insanely disheveled life. what is it about thinking that one is british that makes one want to speak "properly" and use big words. does anyone else get the sense that i'm manic? altho am not really writing grammatically correct. hate so many things right now. wish could just get on with life and JUST. BE. HAPPY.

listening to: my turnacate-evanescence over the incessant drilling in the alley outside of my apt. can i get some peace please?! it's my last day here.

p.s. is probably my fault all this crap happened b/c i decided to "make contact" with the boy...out of respect and friendship...but just backfired and now have fueled unnecessary drama. def. should go on BOYcott. boys are poop...

hey all...so this is my last blog for a couple days...i know you are all hanging at the edge of your seats to see what is going on in the great and exciting life of christina...but unfortunately nothing...just me moving 3000 miles back home, being confused about ppl and same ol shit different day.

song o' dee day Dave Matthews Band: Say Goodbye

i'm getting sad sad bout going going back back to cali cali. mostly just leaving friends. i just wish i could take them all with me in a lil snow globe for me to access whenever i want. but i guess i have that in the internet. but it's not the same. i want the real thing. the real ppl who i hang out w/ every day, week, month whatever. :( yeah yeah i know, blah it's a new year, you will meet new ppl and will have new experiences and a great summer..but what about noow. whatever...i'm getting all choked up. My last full day here in philly. i'm gonna miss sooo many things and ppl.
listnening to: some evanescence song on the CD their CD that wylie burned for me.

song of the day: Honestly by Zwan

'cause there's not place that I could be without you
it's too dark to discard the life I once knew
honestly, a single wrong is not enough
to cover up the pain in us
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I'll make a joke so you must laugh
I'll break your heart so you must ask
is this the way to get us back
I don't know, honestly
I don't know, this honestly

i feel so lost right now. for the past few weeks i've just been running on this idea of acting and going w/ my gut. no thinking and just "being happy" or trying to be anyway. hmm i feel like i should write this in my journal, but i'm too lazy. anyway, so b/c i didn't want to feel anymore, i just decided to stop thinking about anything. and then my friend asked me last night why i'm doing all this. and i had no concrete answer. i mean the main plan is to "explore" and "have fun" so that i can supposedly find myself and figure out "what i want." but what if all this is just to get back at kyle? what if it's this childish stupid thing that in the end i will be even more confused and lost than i started out? then i end up alone, confused and prolly too fucked up to be in a real relationship. blargh argh. but...at this point i'm not ready to make a decision on the whole kyle thing, so i go back to my original plan; recklessly, blindly....a la carpe diem. this could very well be the breaking point.

listening to: gin blossoms--found out about you

just a side story:
i went to my friend's house for the first time yesterday and MAAAAAAAAN it's huge and sooooooo nice. i seriously would love to live in a house like that when i "grow up." that's what i love about east coast houses, they're not all mass produced and identical to each other. and they have a lot of property...and it's all GREEN. i would have loved to see that place in the winter time. also i met his niece who is 2 and she was so cute...made me wanna have a daughter dammit......i can't handle a daughter!! i'd have to give her away when she reached 10.....then take her back when she's 18-19ish. anyway, looking around in the burbs of philly(west chester) made me seriously consider living out here......but what do i know hehe. who knows what the future holds......

best line from rules of attraction: "I need you like my elbow needs an asshole!"

oh and for those of you who haven't read this, i dug it up from some old posts from another blogsite. i wrote this in march on a plane home for spring break...

"planes don't stop for love"
Romantic comedies are what we hope our love lives will be like. Boy meets girl. They seem perfect for each other, fall in love and all is well. Boy finds "tragic flaw" in girl and girl leaves boy, all accompanied by a soundtrack that conveys the sadness and longing of the parties involved. Girl decides to leave town and boy realizes that the tragic flaw doesn't matter anymore and he loves her. Boy runs to the airport, pleads with airport personnel to stop the plane. In a swirl of romance they stop the plane. Boy finds girl and they kiss passionately...riding off into the sunset...happily ever after.

But planes don't stop for love. There is no soundtrack for your life because while the joy may seem to last for a second, the pain will undoubtedly last longer than three minutes and thirty seconds of your life. You don't know if the boy will come and chase you down at the airport. And furthermore, if he did, would you even stay?

They never really show what happens after the kiss. Maybe all the passengers get pissed and kick the boy and girl out; girl gets upset because she had a medical school interview and that flight was the last one out, ruining her chances of getting into her dream school. It's real life, it's hard, it lasts much longer than two hours, you can't control it and you never know what's going to happen. So next time you watch a romantic movie, give yourself a reality check and think back to when you read the cynical ramblings of a girl sitting "alone" in an airplane with no music, for four hours, waiting for her pain to subside.


hehe so there ya go. enjoy!
listening to: snoop and dre-ain't nuttin' but a G thang BABY!

song of the day
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

I put my cousin, Novette's website up. Right now it's just a blogsite but she's workin on it. I am just relaxing at home. Trying to figure out what I need to do before I leave. I should start cleaning up more..but I'll save that for Monday.

so i'm going through my songs on my computer so i can burn the albums/complete CD's i already have and boy......I HAVE A LOT OF SONGS. Also my friend burned me all the DMB CD's known to man and i realized.....I HAVE A LOT OF CDS! Crazy. Anyway so i have to burn the rest of my Friends episodes...I'm a third through Season 8...so all I need to do is finish downloading the rest of season 9...hope that doesn't take too long. Anywho...that should occupy my time for a while I would say.

I bought this book called "The Science of Harry Potter", I think that's what it's called. Some plane reading. Oh yeah and I have to finish the Bridget JOnes Diary 2 book so I can return it to my friend b4 I leave. And I have to pack. Does anyone get the feeling that I'm overwhelming myself w/ unnecessary tasks? Looks that way to me! At any rate, at least I will have a busy and productive summer. ttfn.

silence.....must turn on CD player before explode.....peace out!

Woohoo. I have mastered how to edit my template and thus will keep this one for a while. I am now using frontpage to edit and then cut and paste the html codes. YAAY.

i got my westernu email today. it's awesome to feel a part of something new. i'm really looking fwd to going to school. new ppl, new experiences. so i set up my emails and there were already a couple of emails out there about females lookin for roommates. so i emailed a couple of them back. hopefully they're cool ppl. i feel all busy like ihave so many things to do before i leave. but it feels invigorating. it feels like i'm alive and have purpose in life. it's great.

we're going bowling tomorrow. woohoo! AND spaghetti warehouse. sangria. yum. hehe. tomorrow i have a bunch of errands to run. tying up loose ends here in philly. man it's only 10 and i feel like it's 2am. i think thats' what happens when you work all day. my roommate told me i was glaring at a customer today when she walked by. i feel bad now. i mean ppl who know me would not say i was a mean/rude person, but i think my job makes me that way geez. i feel so bad cuz i get annoyed at stupid/ignorant/slow ppl. that's not the way to be. i can't help it. :( hopefully i will get better with that as i get into my career. COMPASSION IS KEY! hehe. pray for me.

i'm going home in 7 days and counting...
listening to: Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds Live-Christmas Song

ok i don't care if this site is not updating and it's ugly and i can't change shit! I'm happy!! hehe
64 days until DMB @ Chula Vista
52 days until Counting Crows and John Mayer @ Irvine

i just went shopping and bought some more summer stuff. i'm ready to be young and have fun!! screw everything else. :)
listening to: DMB-where are you going

er i changed it again...but it hasn't showed up yet......and i wanna edit stuff......shit i forgot to copy the codes for my links and info...oh well later. wylie burned me all the DMB CD's that I didn't have! woohoo! he's the best.
listening to: DMB-stay

i changed my template again :P hee hee......

ok my blogsite is annoying me...why doesn't it show all my blogs? and why dont' my archives save correctly??? grr.

so i'm listening to the evanescence CD....they said that they weren't a Christian band..but most of their songs sound very Christian or can be interpreted that way. Anyway, the song I really like is not Christian-sounding...altho I think one could interpret it that way...possibly.

my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

...and then of course the song that they have out has......."save me from this nothing i've become." lar lar lar.....i'm bored. and i want to pack but it's like i can't pack some of this stuff until like next week. ohhhhh well.

listening to: evanescence--everybody's fool

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

i just woke up from a nap w/ a series of weird ass dreams or just a dream w/ weird scenes. i dreamt i was w/ all these guys......i can only really remember 2 buy i kno there were more. anyhow, the first guy--damn he was black again..and he kissed like crap, his skin was all oily and i think i was his first kiss.....elch. then the 2nd guy was that guy josh from american idol.....and we were at a house party w/ my MMS friends. He asked about hookin up and i was down.....and he was hot but he was an ass. like he coudln't remember my name or anything like that. it was all disturbing. arg. so i dunno what the hell that means. I had a couple of similar dreams a month ago...same kind of things...guys who are gross haha. i'm so freakin tired and i don't know why. i gotta pack sometime today. they put up airconditioners!! woohoo! figures it's cold out. haha.

listening to: why georgia(live)-lyrically/vocally sexy john mayer

so i've decided that i'm gonna write a lil sumfin sumfin about my stay here in philly.....what i've learned, what i'm gonna miss...how i've grown etc. i'm thinking it will be pretty long. i will work on it during summer or the rest of the time i'm here. hope it turns out well.

i dunno why i've been so tired today. i woke up tired and was tired all day. i think i might be dehydrated. we're going to atlantic city tomorrow...hope it is ok. it's supposed to rain all day...whoo hoo. i made dinner today. it was rib eye and porterhouse steak, baked potato, asparagus and some mushroom/onion topping. i thought it was good. :) we also had some red wine w/ it. i have decided that i am not a red wine person hehe.

american idol was wack...i wanted clay to win. the show was booooooooring. i don't think i'm a fan anymore. now it's all about the money and it sux.

random random thoughts......
listening to: kelly clarkson-anytime

NY is so cool. this last trip was prolly the best trip to NY i've had. we stayed at a hotel for a night so that made the trip chill and not so rushed. we got to see RENT on broadway.....and that Frenchie girl who got kicked off American Idol was playing one of the swings in the play...actually she played the soloist on Seasons of Love. The performances themselves...like the group as a whole was just ok. Some songs were really good and some songs they performed like bleh. but it was still an awesome experience. we went around central park and i got to see more of it than i ever had...soooooooo pretty and it was a lovely day. I spent 130 bucks at H&M...and even tho it seems like a lot...I got my money's worth. :) Everything is so cheap there...I swear they need to open some West Coast stores cuz seriously I would just shop there all the time.

I'm starting to get really sad about leaving Philly. :(

Listening to: Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride--Mark Keali'i Ho'omalu and the Kamehameha School's Childrens Choir(Lilo and Stitch)

i graduated today!!! it was great. i think the best part wasn't really graduating but watching the M.D.'s graduate...that's where i'll be in 4 years!!!!! woohoo. ok head ache......must gooooo!
listening to: 3rd eye blind--new girl

so i decided to blog for real and not bitch about the page. i've been blogging a lot. maybe it's cuz i have no life.....i mean it's almost noon, i just got up, i'm still in my jammies and if i didn't do a damn thing today, it wouldn't really matter. i have stuff to do tho...will prolly get around to it at like 1 or something. i feel bleh...unsettled and unsure. i have a whir of confusion constantly spinning in my head.

but on to other things.....i was thinking about the things i need to do before i leave...not like "errand" type of things, but goodbye things. It mostly involves food which is sad haha. I have to eat my last, cheesesteak from Pats, meatball sub from the cart, chinese food from the cart, cosi/xando!!!!!! :(, i think i'll go eat at shula's for the last time, buffet at the marriot...and that's about it i think. yum! maybe i'll have that meat ball sub today. it's only 1.50....hmm. well we'll see. i'm gonna miss dirty ol' philly.

listening to: king of kings--cece wynans :) God rocks! hehe

damn this blog page!!! i think i lost my posts from last year......that totally sux.

arg i can't get the stupid page right...blargh

for mother's day i have decided to do absolutely nothing! well not nothing i'm working on my blogsite and trying to learn html.......and it's hard cuz i never learned how to do it :P

so yeah i changed the template AGAIN! too lazy to fix the other one........

oh so i keep finding all these good songs that could relate to you know who(ykw)......haha i just realized that in my last blog i put the acronym as ynw--i'm smart! anyway yeah so i just found another one: the space between.....great song by dave matthews band who i will be seeing this july!! woohoo. here be the lyrics...well part of them. i'll put the link up in a minute:

The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...
Lyrics to "The Space Between"

And then before was "Comfortable" by the lyrically hot John Mayer...ok well these lyrics are not on the lyric page b/c it's part of his live concert.....but:

that you were my first love
was just dumb luck
you were ahead of me
that you were my first love
was just a dumb dumb stupid technicality
you will always be ahead of me
why'd i have to practice on you
why'd i have to practice on your heart......

Lyrics to "Comfortable"


it's a bomb ass song!!!

so i decided to write that in here cuz i think it would be weird to be like "hey hwmnbn....here are some songs that relate to your situation...go nuts!" blah blah. so i blogged enuff for a good week right? :P

currently listening to: i think it's expose??-i'll never get over you getting over me
ok dont' think i'm sitting here listening to depressing break up songs haha it's just a coincidence!!! i swear!

so i don't blog a lot...is that a crime? haha. i think it's cuz i'm part of a blog group and sometimes i blog there so i get lazy to blog here. i wonder if anyone really reads this. oh yeah another reason is prolly cuz i have a journal and when i REALLY need to write i do so there. stil, it's nice to have yet another outlet for my random thoughts and ramblings. i wish i knew how to fix my template. it will have to do for now. maybe i'll fix it this summer.

6 more days until graduation. i can't believe we're done...geeez. and then i will open another chapter in my life. i'm excited......but not extied about the money that will be spent in the next 4 years. i'll be a broke ass doctor. but i'll be a doctor!!

so i keep see-sawing about the red-head who's name i will now change to he-who-must-not-be-named (hwmnbn) or you-know-who(ynw) just b/c it's sounds cool haha. GO HARRY POTTER...oh and while we're on countdowns...5 days til the matrix, 3 weeks til i go home and 1 month until THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! ok so back to the original subject of this paragraph. hwmnbn....yeah well my roommate pointed out something and that was......that i needed to decide whether or not i am going to trust him again....b/c there's nothing i can do and nothing he can do to "gain" my trust. it's all up to me to either say screw it and let it go or screw it and go for it. hehe. as of right now i'm still doing the pendelum thing and i think i will for a while until i am past the anger stage. and i don't think i am.

my roomie and i are going clubbin tonight! drunkeness and dancing.....ahhh hehe that's the life!

so i was talking to my coworker who studied in japan for the past 3 months. she was telling me about this "fad" that they have over there--i forget what they're called. 15 year old girls prostituting themselves....they have this website where you like put your phone number on and men contact them...take them to karaoke bars where they get piss-drunk and "have a good time." She said that the girls never admit to having sex w/ these men but I think it's assumed. And the girls do this b/c they need extra money to buy designer stuff. Then she asked a japanese friend of hers if she knew anyone that did that and the girl said yeah. And she seemed to think it was perfectly normal. When asked why she didn't do it....the girl said that she really didn't need the money b/c she wasn't into expensive stuff. Isn't that weird?! Weird ol' Japs hehe. And she said that the really old ppl and our generation japanese are perfectly cool to foreigners but the middle aged ppl dont' like foreigners and they just want them out. I thought that was weird too--well mostly about the really old ppl cuz of the war and everything. so i thought that was an interesting tidbit i'd share w/ y'all.

listening to: Beatles-Across the Universe

i just saw x2 today. i thought it was really good...well maybe i'm just excited about xmen 3.....pheonix saga! :) I have to watch the very end again to see if whatever is in the water is a pheonix or an X. NOT sure. anyway it was good. i have to sleep soon......have to work tomorrow.

i'm lonely and want someone to talk to. and i think i miss kyle too. :\

mmm so i decided to write in this again....it's been a whole freaking year can you believe it? more later.......working on the template for the blogsite. new obsession.

so i decided to use this template cuz it reminds me of trading spaces...cable rocks! must have it when i move back home...at whatever the cost!