woohoo SD for 4 days with kyle! and woohoo! missa got into nycom!! oh and woohoo harlem(sp?) lee chinese guy won on fame! woohoos for asians all around! it's been a good day except that i feel fat! boooo! anyway things calmed down at home and all is well. oh oh and today i got my graduation present from kyle's parents....they gave me an old school doctor's bag!! and a sphyngometer(bp cuff dealie, which i don't think i spelled it right), ear thermometer, dr. scissors and reflex hammer thingie hehe. it's awesome. although i dunno if i'll actually use it...cuz ppl don't use that stuff anymore...and what would i put in it? despite that it's dope!!

anyway i'm off to SD tomorrow...so won't really be blogging but i'll blog when i get back!

pendelum swings...altho not far from where i was at last blog when my blog got erased. i got in an "argument" and it was a stupid one that shouldn't even had happened. you know when your voices just get louder and louder and you don't really know why? anyway, so i withdrew 60 bucks from my discover card b/c the nail salon place would only take cash for my sister's mani/pedi and facial. i didn't have enough money in my bank so i took it out of my discover. yeah i could have withdrawn the money i was saving for rent...but i didn't know when i was going to sign the lease and didn't want to risk it. discover charges me 5 bucks! FIVE DOLLARS! for getting a cash advance. i was never aware of this ridiculous fee...i knew there was a fee of 1.50.....but add to that 5 dollars? ludicrous. so she tells me not to withdraw money from the discover card anymore....which c'mon now, just seeing that fee would tell anyone not to do that anymore. the convo following this is fuzzy, but all i remember is that i was trying to explain why i withdrew the money...it's a natural reaction esp since she asked why right? then she says i know and tells me a second time.....just don't take money out of your discover...next time just take 200 dollars out. would this confuse anyone? a little. so i'm not understanding her and i ask questions...she's getting more annoyed and irritated. why would i take 200 if she told me not to take money out of the card....she means take 200 out of my account....uh i don't HAVE 200 bucks to be taking out of my account. long story short it escalated into me yelling that i was just trying to explain to her what happened and her yelling that i always have something to say and that i can't just say "ok next time i won't take the money out of the card OR i will call the card next time to make sure there are no charges OR i will call the place next time to see if they take cash or not"...i distinctly recall me saying "OK" when she told me not to take money out of the card AND recall me THINKING "well i'm not gonna do that again." so what's the deal??

MY theory is she's frustrated at something else about me...right Dr. Phil? so why doesn't she just say it? i think she's frustrated about a lot of things....i'm moving out in a month, i spend a lot of time with kyle, i've changed since philly and am not afraid to TALK but she's afraid to LISTEN. judging from her ramblings when i finally decided to shut up since i knew she wasn't listening to me anyway, i think she feels inadequate as a mother and she's taking it out on me. she doesn't think i appreciate her and she thinks i think i'm better than her. there may be some validity in that but i never said it OUT LOUD...AND if she has a problem with it she should make changes in her life so she can feel better about herself, not taking it out on me. i'll admit i've gotten more selfish since getting back from philly but i think it's a good selfish. selfish enough to know i need to do stuff for me.

THEN i try to make ammends by deciding to call her consolidation company to inquire about her loans and fix stuff...so i ask her what her birth year is cuz they need that confirmation info......and she--does--not--answer. silent treatment all the way. now does anyone think i did anythign wrong for me to have to apologize? i didn't insult her...i was just trying to explain things, get answers, etc......the only reason my tone started changing was b/c hers did....and possibly the only thing i may be guilty of is not being the bigger person(right away) and letting her get to me. but seriously, do i deserve the silent treatment? perhaps not for this little incident...but for deeper things she's frustrated about? and i will close with the statement that my mother says that i'm always saying.......it's not my fault. and i really don't think it is.....

dammit i just spent all this time blogging about my weekend and the page messed up...i'm not writing it all over again. i'm going to sleep. fuckin yahoo pool messing up my internet shit...piece of crap!!!

i totally forgot to blog about the dolphins! at first i saw them when i was on shore...they were riding the waves...4 of them. then when i was out boogie boarding i spotted another group! it was so cool! oh and i guess i left out the details...we went to zuma beach which is up the coast from malibu. so much fun!

listening to: let me down easy--chris isaak

i went to the beach w/ melissa, andy and my cousin Ben. it was sooooo much fun! prolly the best time i have had at the beach. we got there kind of late...around 6. the sun was still up but it was kind of chilly. once i got in the water tho it was ok. the redhead let me borrow his boogie board and so i went out w/ that while my cousin surfed. dumbass that i am, i was riding the board upside down....so the nose went down and hit the sand...the board dug into my stomach and OUCH. so i went to lay out...then i went out on the surf board and tried that. i didn't get to stand up but it was fun just the same. when you catch the wave and just ride it...it's the best feeling in the world. it's a different kind of freedom that you can only get from either flying or something like that. it's awesome. i kneeled on a couple of waves. i also scraped my knees, swallowed some saltwater(yack!), went under a few times as well. and even tho there are aspects of the beach that i hate...the sand and the saltwater....i love the beach!

i'm too tired and lazy to blog about my beach experience today...this blog is basically a reminder for me to write about it....ni ni

who's bored? my fam reunion pics are up at www.novette.com

hey ok i LOVE LOVE LOVE this song off of DMB's Crash album....and I sing the words etc but i never knew what the song was about...but today I finally looked up the words to see if i could understand what the song is saying. I read it...and I'm STILL lost.

#41
Come and see
I swear by now I'm playing time against my troubles
I'm coming slow but speeding
Do you wish a dance and while I'm in the front
The play on time is won
But the difficulty is coming here
I will go in this way
And find my own way out
I won't tell you to stay
But I'm coming to much more
Me
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now
What if they came down crushing
Remember when I used to play for all of the loneliness that nobody
notices now
I'm begging slow I'm coming here
Only waiting I wanted to stay
I wanted to play,
I wanted to love you


I'm only this far
And only tomorrow leads my way


I'm coming waltzing back and moving into your head
Please, I wouldn't pass this by
I wouldn't take any more than
What sort of man goes by
I will bring water
Why won't you ever be glad
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
Why won't you run
in the rain and play
Let the tears splash all over you

Ok so what I gather from it, it is about a guy coming back to someone but that person doesn't want him back. I'm lost. Anyway it's a kick ass song even tho I don't get it. :D

watching: FRIENDS-TOW Dr. Drake Ramoray Dies
Chandler:...because he thinks I slept with his ex-girlfriend and killed his fish!!
Phoebe:Why would you kill his fish?
Chandler:Because sometimes, Phoebe, after you sleep with someone...you have to kill a fish.

stephen king reviews HP 5 OotP:

ok ok so I finally decided to blog about my 4th. been too lazy to blog anything really. anyhow, we had our family reunion this last week...it's my grandfather's side of the family..the Lims. On Tuesday, my cousin Grace from Michigan came to hang out. We went shopping, watched Legally Blonde and went to TGIF's w/ my other cousin and her friends. Good times. Then on Thurs my aunt/uncle/cousins from Canada came back from Vegas and I took the boys(13/14) to see T3 and it was a v. entertaining movie. Like most action movies I went in not expecting much and i enjoyed it alot. Friday was the Lim Family Reunion Picnic in San Diego(Bonita/Chula Vista area). It started off crappy cuz we had to go pick up the food and that shit spilled ALL OVER my trunk which caused it to reek of...I think it was the shrimp paste...for the next week(I just cleaned it up yesterday and there is still a hint of that smell elch!!!). Oh and we missed all the introductions so i totally didn't know anyone or where they came from and THAT sucked. But the food was really good and i met my cousins from virginia, texas, michigan, maryland...and I forget where else...oh yeah L.A. Supposedly one of my cousins spins for Black Eyed Peas....I'm not a big fan so I'll just give that a *shrug*. Then my cousins and I went to Novette's house and swam, chilled, relaxed.. I swear it felt like I was on a resort cuz we were just lazing about. There, I learned how to surf...in a pool...but it was still fun! I learned the basics: how to balance on the surfboard to paddle, stratling the surfboard and pushing up on it to stand/kneel. That night we went out w/ the "younger generation" meaning teens and up. The 21 and under kids went to coffee shops/wandered around at the gaslamp quarter while the 21+ crowd went into this bar/club called The Bitter End. It was really fun. I danced my ass off....

Saturday was the family party at Novette's house. OMG!!! my uncle made the most tender bestest pork roast dealie. SO FREAKIN GOOD. I ate that for breakfast and lunch haha. Kyle came down and we all went swimming for like 3 hours. I also learned how to play this north-midwestern card game called Euchre: eu·chre
Pronunciation: 'yü-k&r
Function: noun
Etymology: origin unknown
Date: 1841
: a card game in which each player is dealt five cards and the player making trump must take three tricks to win a hand

It takes about 45 min to learn---seriously haha. Then I went back with Kyle and we went to his friends bday thing at D&B in Ontario. His friend came across tickets coming out of that game where you try to knock the coins over the edge...and the tickets kept coming....and coming....and coming. And they were free! So all in all Kyle, his friend Justin and I all split 1400 tickets. I got a D&B glass and a YO YO!!!!! the yo yo is awesome hehe.

Sunday was my cousin Franco's bday party in Irvine. Kind of like the reunion parties part 3. He ordered food from this Hawaiian restaurant and it was yum! After that, i took my cousin and aunt to see Charlie's Angel's. Ok I had said earlier that I don't expect much from action movies....and I didnt going into this flick. But I was actually a bit disappointed. The plot wasn't v. well put together...the stunts were like so impossible that they weren't believeable...and in the end there were a few pieces to the story that weren't resolved.

So that was my weekend or week. Pretty busy, which explains how tired I am. But wait it's not over! Wed is this gathering at my aunt's hotel/resort thingie...then thurs is a party at her friends house and it's also serving as a bday party for my sister.....blah! I'm tired!!!

listening to: the cure-cut here(acoustic version)

ok ok i'm blogging! I can't take it anymore! haha. we have our family reunion tomorrow and the rest of the weekend is like the afterparty hehe. so my mom and i have been cleaning our house. her sister's were here the other night...they were so happy. my mom was showing them her dresses and they were trying it on....like playing dress up. three 50 year olds playing dress up. it was cute and simple and innocent. there's something about people seeing each other after a long time that kind of strips away all the drama and complications. like sometimes my mom complains about her siblings...and that they treat her like she doesn't matter and just drama w/ property in the Philippines. But that night they were just...happy...happy to see each other. It was great. Made me feel all warm and fuzzy.

the red head and i are going on a long weekend to San Diego. I'm really excited about it. Especially b/c it was my idea but he planned the whole trip...booked the hotel and everything. We're staying at the Town & Country Resort in San Diego. We get free tickets to Sea World and we're also gonna go to the wild animal park. woohoo!

listening to: Norah Jones-Nightingale