btw here's a review that i like...i'm too lazy to write my own...but this guy sums it up real nice w/o giving away anything really.

Order of the Phoenix Review

i finally finished the 5th book! it was good. i won't talk about it much just because some ppl who may not have read it yet might be reading this...no i'm not arrogant enough to think that people actually READ my blog page haha but you know...just in case. ;)

I HAVE CRAMPS!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAARRGH!!

ok i'm in a better mood now hehe. on ch 26 of OotP...good stuff. good times. hehe. i also got free car washes for our cars at rock honda for getting them serviced there. woohoo! not much else to say. my life is pretty much, run errands for mom, clean for mom....or reading HP and doing nothing. exciting no? hopefully i get my laptop ordered today.....cross your fingers.

silence.......my stupid winamp is messed up. i think i'll just have to reinstall.

*expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive* *expletive*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so not in a good mood right now!!!!!!!!! short version: sister+computer=drivers messed up/computer *expletive* up...possible need for reformat +headache!!!!!!! *expletive**expletive**expletive**expletive**expletive*

sorry haven't blogged...been reading...or the stupid blogsite was down....or my mom was making me clean or whatever....she's on a cleaning expedition or something b/c relatives are coming. it's very annoying....
oh and my compture is retarded as well. now it's stuck on the lowest pixel setting so everything is HUGE and even tho i try to change the settings...once it restarts it's back to the huge freakin settings all over again. v. frustrating. would appreciate any suggestions if anyone has any...just post on the chatterbox.

hi all. i had a great day overall yesterday. HP- OOP came in the mail!! And I got a bootleg copy of Finding Nemo. :) yay!

yesterday was my cousin ben's graduation party. FOOOOOOOOOOOd. My uncle made his famous roast beef with gravy. so freakin good. i regret being too lazy to wrap some up. oh well. it was cool hanging out w/ my aunts and uncles and cousins. i hadn't seen them in a while and it's always a "hoot" to hear them laugh and joke about random stuff. gotta love that. my cousins from LA were there too and I really should start hanging out with them more. but they don't ever call. they're hella cool though.

so i'm on chapter 9. good so far. it's a page turner just b/c...like Harry you thirst for "the truth" and all the secrets that everyone is keeping from you. ok now i sound like a freaking crazy woman like i'm IN the book or something. i'm hungry, but will read maybe another chapter b4 i forage for some food.

listening to: 3EB-blinded

YAY!!!!!!! it came!!!!! 1015 it came! my HP book is here! OK READING TIME!!!!!!

i am bored i am bored....that would have been great if my HP book came today on accident. then i would have something cool to do. i'm not even mad...i'm just freakin bored. and i think i'm getting sick which sux. i think it's gone beyond normal allergies.....b/c nothing new has come into my life that could aggravate my allergies even more right? and i get cold randomly so this must be something bad. maybe i'll knock out on some nyquil and hope for the best. whatever.

listenting to: the beatles-blackbird

i've done absolutely nothing today. i finished up the laundry and cooked some food. man why can't i cook well? my stuff always comes out bland. i just don't like putting alot of seasoning b/c sometimes it's too much. oh well. i was supposed to finish up my physical forms but the nurse practicioner wasn't there today so i guess i'll try again on monday. then i was supposed to get my car an oil change, but by the time i was ready i was too lazy. no one is online...lar lar. and i'm bored. i could work out...but i don't feel well. my throat or like my nasopharyngeal area feels all weird. and i keep getting the chills. i feel like sleeping all day. blarg. harry potter tomorrow. hopefully the package comes b4 we leave for SD. woohoo! that would be cool if my mom's bf could drive and i could read all the way there hehe ;)

u know what i hate. i hate when u make plans w/ someone and u set aside time for that person...but then something comes up that's really important and you can't really be mad but you are b/c you were looking forward to seeing that person. i hate that. i dunno what to do now. i don't wanna clean hehe. il'l prolly just finish hanging up the rest of the laundry and then maybe work out, shower then watch pride and prejudice until 9 when katie curick(sp?) interviews j.k. rowling...dude this news anchor called her j.k. rawlings.....wtf. geez! get your information straight sir!!

listening to: aaliyah-journey to the past

I GOT THE APARTMENT! YAY! YAY! i move in august 1st. it's 505/month plus utilities...so lets just say 600 a month. woohoo! i'm happy now and everything is pretty much set for the school year. My financial aid is pretty much taken care of so yay i'm on my way!!!!

FRIENDS quote of the day
Frank Jr.: ...it's cuz like being with her is so much better than.......not being with her...

song o' dee day well actually yesterday.....but i just now got time to get the lyrics :P
Crush-DMB

friends quote of the day:
Phoebe: Hey Joey, when you said "the deal with Santa Clause", you meant...
Joey: That he doesn't exist.
Phoebe: Oh...right. *surprised shocked look*

ok time for ni ni

blah blah balh

Pure F.O.B. Style
Directions on a Papaya whitening peeling cream:
Use: Days for sub-two, first shall face wetness, and weild the product gently knead, then with cleanly water washing.

On front cover of the box: "Clean out horniness whitening...One minutes dispel horniness"

you like that huh?

ok so if y'all haven't noticed i put a chatterbox on the site so you can leave me a message HINT HINT!!!!! hehe :P well it could also be that no one is reading this and that's fine too...this is for me anyway. dang i forgot what i was gonna post about...ohhhhhh ok so we're cleaning out our house and i found some old stuff from elem., jr. high, and high school. just some funny stuff. i read some old letters....."hey, what's up? how have you been[when you just saw them in the class b4]. sorry it took so long to write back[when you just wrote them the period before that]. so do you like so and so still? well i like so and so. i don't like so and so anymore. ok the bell is about to ring....BFF, WBS, Sorry So Sloppy" hehe. fun shit. i love looking through old stuff. that's why i keep everything. you kind of look back and see how you've grown. that's about it for now. tired tired...i'm 90% done w/ my room! yay. then the rest of the house is left........sigh. work work work.

watching: friends #523-524--The One in Vegas
friends quote of the day

Pheobe: Ugh..that's like the third time that lady's won on a machine I was playing!
Ross: ohh i bet she's one those people
Phoebe: m-m-mole people???

there's something about rearranging your house and cleaning out stuff that feels invigorating...EXHAUSTING...but invigorating nonetheless. my mom and i are cleaning out our rooms and we bought new storage units for each room. we also moved around some furniture...so everythign seems kind of new you know? plus i can't help but pretend i'm on trading spaces...but haha i'm not doing any home improvement...we're just moving around stuff :P...but i can pretend can't i? there's this ugly coffee table that i'm thinking of "refurbishing"...i have to see if it's real wood, and if it is i'm gonna try to take off the covering and sand down the wood and paint it! woohoo! but thats' for later on in the summer when i'm bored haha.

so today was the day. it was HOT but i had a good time. i met up w/ justin and marion at denny's cuz they didn't know where to go. i went to the reception afterwards...subway sandwiches, chips and white cake w/ strawberry filling....yum. marion, justin and cesar showed up. everyone left and i stayed behind to chat w/ the fam. he liked his gift (i think) shoot he better hehe. anywya on his card at the back of it i said: Gift #1-Surprise I came to your graduation....the other gifts were a drexel dragon and a burned copy of "Any Given Thursday"-John Mayer (live). so when i was leaving i told him that he had one more gift and that i was opening the lines of communication and he got all giddy happy. and i said, "so you wanted a chance...here's your chance." and that was basically it. so it went "well" i suppose. we'll see how this goes.

******silence*******

so tomorrow's the "big day"...the redhead's graduation. i have anxiety...but there is potential for a good time to be had...and possibly the start of things being "alright." i still have no game plan as to what i'm going to tell him...bottom line is that i have to get the point across that the communication lines are open...and basically now's his chance to show me...SHOW ME not tell me that he wants to be with me...and we'll see where that goes from there.

things go by so fast...and i know some people will be like "wtf is she doing giving him a chance?" i guess i'm just tired of playing games...i was upset at the events that occurred...and while i'm still upset about those things, i have gotten past the anger point...and now it's like i'm tired of fighting my feelings for him b/c i do love him, i do miss him. ok well that's my blog for now..i'm tired and still need to write his card out, his dad's card and wrap his present....oh and dry my hair and put curlers in it. lar lar lar.

listening to: 21 questions by halfdollar......better known as 50 cent.

guess what?! well prolly doesn't call for a "!" but i was watching CBS this morning...the "kids discovery" portion...and they had Trading Spaces for kids! I was like WOOHOO! I don't have cable so I got my TS fix...but it wasn't the same b/c the host was different and so were the designer people. ahhh i miss cable :(

the cleaning/reorganizing of my house continues and so does the roommate search...this summer seems so busy.

as for the "personal life" section...it's all still up in the air. it's basically the only thing that's not "going right"--hmm i've used a lot of quotation marks in this post hehe. i just feel like something's missing. I'm just scared of making the wrong decision....but I guess that's the risk you take with life right? well we'll see how everything goes.

listening to: "just friends"-musiq soulchild

yay yay! it came on and now i'm taping it!!!

*and i wish that you could be the one i die with....and i pray that you're the one i build my home with....i hope i love you all my life...i don't wanna run away but i can't take it i don't understand...if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am? is there anyway that i could stay in your arms? cuz i miss you...body and soul so strong.......OK I'LL STOP!*

listening to: DUH!

i hate this stupid blogger basic piece of crap "easy" version of blogger. i didn't even want it on there but i think they're forcing me to preview this version. HATE IT!

my sister's graduation was today. my friend's sister who was "small" the last time i saw her graduated too...freakin crazy. the kids that graduated today were in 6th grade when i graduated h.s. am i old or what? hehe. and this couple who were going out when they graduated from h.s. they were 2 years ahead of me...anyway they now both teach at my old h.s. and they're married to each other. i think it's cute. but the guy looks old now hehe. and i saw this other dude i went to h.s. with...but didn't say hi. we used to talk on the phone...i guess we "liked" or were interested in each other...but i think he was boring or something...boring doesn't work well w/ me.

i wanna play pai gow...hehe. :P casino morongo anyone?

listenting to: 102.7 KIIS FM-Santana f/ Michelle Branch-Game of Love....but really waiting for the Daniel Beddingfield song to come on so I can tape it ghetto style on a cassette tape! heeee YAAAAAAAAAAAY

vegas was fun! thanks amy for letting us crash in your uber-fancy hotel room. :) i played pai gow and won 8 bucks...but i started with 50 and walking away with 58 bucks is a hell of a lot better than walking away with nothing! plus i had the best time playing. and we also discovered a new drink from the ppl that we were playing with. it's called a miami vice...has i think some malibu rum, some other stuff...it's a girly drink topped off w/ some whipped cream!

so i'm really loving this song by daniel beddingfield...looking for lyrics atm so will post when found. oh ok it's called "if you're not the one"

DANIEL BEDINGFIELD


"If You're Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

it's soooooo good. anyway...so that's what's been going on. i am a confused girl..hopefully i can figure everything out by summer's end. :(

listening to: savage garden--er i dunno the name of the song it's track 4 hehe

i am lost...feel empty...confused. find pleasure in talkin to friends...EATING. distracted by...cleaning my room--that's prolly the best time b/c there's no thought involved and it's cathartic. hate hate hate hate being like this. altho not THAT bad. just lonely i guess. cleaning out stuff is cool..u find memories that you forgot...and you kind of realize that you've had a really good life. i had some good friends in high school...and i really should get in touch w/ them again. i dunno why it was that when i left h.s. i just wanted to forget everything there...........but i had a great h.s. experience...so what's the deal?

was going through this list....in honors english senior year..our teacher made us write our name on 2 pieces of paper...one was "where i'd be in 10 years" and the other one was "good things about..." and then we passed it around the class and everyone was supposed to write one thing on both papers. i just read it...so funny that maybe 4 or 5 ppl said..."will be married or dating a black guy"...or "will have a kid who's half black and half filipino" haha. that's prolly one of the things that won't come true within the next...what is it 4 years? yeah it will prolly be on the other side of the spectrum...or in the middle somewhere.

blah blah blah boys are pooooooooooop


listening to: hot in here...nelly

i finished the bridgette jone's diary 2...i didn't really like how it ended...but i guess the whole point was...even when you finally get everything that you've always wanted, life's not perfect and it never will be...and i'm adding on, so you just gotta take whatever life hands you and find happiness. get a lemon, make lemonade.....altho i dunno what you could make out of a piece of shit....use it as fertilizer to make a pretty flower??

onto cleaning out my room...it's SO MUCH FUN!!!

listening to: james taylor-frozen man(pull over DVD)

life is frustrating...want to lose weight/tone up but all i want to do is eat and sleep...want to be happy but CAN'T blah.

song o' dee day
Grey Street by DMB

Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears it doesn't listen
There's still a hope in her it might
She says "I pray But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place? "
There's lonliness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It feels like cold blue ice in her heart
When all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
There's a stranger speaks outside her door
Says take what you can from your dreams
Make them as real as anything
It'd take the work out of courage
But she says "Please
There's a crazy man that's creeping outside my door,
I live on the corner of Grey Street
And the end of the world. "
There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anyrthing to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
It breaks her heart
To Grey

blargh my room is one big pile of crap! i need to organize/clean/throw out so much crap!!! how did i accumulate so much?? and this is the stuff i left behind. there are 4 boxes en route to my house from philly still. and when those come i have to unpack them, organize/clean/throw out the stuff that's in THOSE boxes.

no one wants to go w/ me to this party. but i think i should go. lar lar we'll see.

so i think i made my peace w/ the boy and i can get on w/ my summer and he can get on w/ his. so i feel a lot better(i think...) about my situation here.

listening to: goodbye to you--michelle branch
*and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time*

i'm home now! yay....kind of. i have much to do before the summer's over. ack can't believe am starting school soon. i actually have to WORK and DO STUFF. what's up w/ that? hehe. i'm lazy...i don't wanna unpack...only to have to pack up again. i wonder if i could juts live out of a suitcase for 2 months...hmmm hehe.

i drove my caaaaaarrrrrr! it was so nice to see it again and to drive around in the 70 degree weather...sunroof open, windows down...just drivin' w/ john(mayer) or dave(matthews) hehe. hopefully i can start work in a couple of weeks. have a feeling i will hate work once i start..but it's money in my pocket. moooonnneeeey. i hate this time difference...esp since i'm used to subtracting 3 hours to figure out what time it is where the ppl i want to talk to are. so now i do that, but it doesn't calculate EST...it's hawaii time! so i'm all screwed up. happens everytime i come home hehe. should call amy tomorrow. alrighty....out.

listening to: john mayer-83(live-any given thurs)....so coooooooooooool

i'm back home...feels so weird. cuz i'm not going back to philly. when i left it felt like i was just going on summer break. as backwards as it seems...i wanna go back. of course i'm prolly just running from my problems...but running is good hee hee. :P i feel myself regressing....i hope i can get all my stuff together before school starts. the flight sucked...took forever. and i watched the hours on the plane and it sucked. like why was julianne moore's character so sad? was it b/c she was a closet lesbian? i didn't understand. then at the end nothing was resolved...it was very annoying that i spent that time watching it. ok i think i'm gonna try to sleep. i hope i don't sleep in too late.

song of the day: everybody's fool--evanescence

have become raving lunatic...perhaps should boycott all creatures of the male sex. seriously not worth all the frustration and anguish we put ourselves through. does it sound like i've been reading bridgette jones? hehe cuz i have. hate not knowing what i want...or if know what i want wish would just realize it and get on with my life. hate making decisions. just want to live life ignorantly and blindly as if in matrix and being used as human battery for the machines. no pain...but then again no joy. crappolla...what to do with my insanely disheveled life. what is it about thinking that one is british that makes one want to speak "properly" and use big words. does anyone else get the sense that i'm manic? altho am not really writing grammatically correct. hate so many things right now. wish could just get on with life and JUST. BE. HAPPY.

listening to: my turnacate-evanescence over the incessant drilling in the alley outside of my apt. can i get some peace please?! it's my last day here.

p.s. is probably my fault all this crap happened b/c i decided to "make contact" with the boy...out of respect and friendship...but just backfired and now have fueled unnecessary drama. def. should go on BOYcott. boys are poop...

hey all...so this is my last blog for a couple days...i know you are all hanging at the edge of your seats to see what is going on in the great and exciting life of christina...but unfortunately nothing...just me moving 3000 miles back home, being confused about ppl and same ol shit different day.

song o' dee day Dave Matthews Band: Say Goodbye

i'm getting sad sad bout going going back back to cali cali. mostly just leaving friends. i just wish i could take them all with me in a lil snow globe for me to access whenever i want. but i guess i have that in the internet. but it's not the same. i want the real thing. the real ppl who i hang out w/ every day, week, month whatever. :( yeah yeah i know, blah it's a new year, you will meet new ppl and will have new experiences and a great summer..but what about noow. whatever...i'm getting all choked up. My last full day here in philly. i'm gonna miss sooo many things and ppl.
listnening to: some evanescence song on the CD their CD that wylie burned for me.

song of the day: Honestly by Zwan

'cause there's not place that I could be without you
it's too dark to discard the life I once knew
honestly, a single wrong is not enough
to cover up the pain in us
'cause when I think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
I feel loved, honestly
I'll make a joke so you must laugh
I'll break your heart so you must ask
is this the way to get us back
I don't know, honestly
I don't know, this honestly

i feel so lost right now. for the past few weeks i've just been running on this idea of acting and going w/ my gut. no thinking and just "being happy" or trying to be anyway. hmm i feel like i should write this in my journal, but i'm too lazy. anyway, so b/c i didn't want to feel anymore, i just decided to stop thinking about anything. and then my friend asked me last night why i'm doing all this. and i had no concrete answer. i mean the main plan is to "explore" and "have fun" so that i can supposedly find myself and figure out "what i want." but what if all this is just to get back at kyle? what if it's this childish stupid thing that in the end i will be even more confused and lost than i started out? then i end up alone, confused and prolly too fucked up to be in a real relationship. blargh argh. but...at this point i'm not ready to make a decision on the whole kyle thing, so i go back to my original plan; recklessly, blindly....a la carpe diem. this could very well be the breaking point.

listening to: gin blossoms--found out about you

just a side story:
i went to my friend's house for the first time yesterday and MAAAAAAAAN it's huge and sooooooo nice. i seriously would love to live in a house like that when i "grow up." that's what i love about east coast houses, they're not all mass produced and identical to each other. and they have a lot of property...and it's all GREEN. i would have loved to see that place in the winter time. also i met his niece who is 2 and she was so cute...made me wanna have a daughter dammit......i can't handle a daughter!! i'd have to give her away when she reached 10.....then take her back when she's 18-19ish. anyway, looking around in the burbs of philly(west chester) made me seriously consider living out here......but what do i know hehe. who knows what the future holds......

best line from rules of attraction: "I need you like my elbow needs an asshole!"