the past week i've felt unmotivated and BLAH! we have two tests coming up next week. one is for anatomy, the other is our first system exam for dermatology. i think it's because it's our first exam in a long time and i just really don't feel like studying. we have less class time which, i think, makes me even lazier. i have more time to goof off and thus i goof off even more. it's such a sad cycle i have. and i'm always whining. what's up with that? i wonder if i will ever grow out of that.

so today i planned to watch must see tv until 11pm...which is about right now. but 60% of it was reruns. so since i hadn't planned on studying i didn't. which is really sucky and sad but i wanted to relax. nevertheless, despite my slackerness i think i will do ok on the exams. it would be great if i was super motivated and could really just ace everything. but i like having a life. i like relaxing. what i DON'T like is the guilt that comes with it. it's a stressful relaxation despite all my efforts to "relax." I have been making time to work out, and I don't really feel guilt with that. So with the hope of being a good student for 2 hours, I am planning on going to Starbucks tomorrow morning and studying until class at 11. lets hope that happens. i have to leave here by 815 so i can get to starbucks by 830...study til 1030 and go to class. pray for me.....

listening to : no me ames-j/lo and m/anth haha

today...i ditched class(oooh!) to watch a taping of Will and Grace. it was really fun! Totally worth ditching 3 lectures. :) It was a whole day process but it was a nice break from the monotany--trying to extend my "vacation" mentality for as long as i can. the only thing that sucked is that debra messing and megan mullaly weren't there. debra messing is pregnant so they had to cut her work hours...so they split the plotline tapings up and added an extra day of taping. so it was basically a tradeoff...it was just will and jack or nothing at all haha. when they came out i was like WOW they're good looking. i think something about meeting them in person makes them look even better b/c i was never really attracted to sean hayes...but he looked good! and so did erick macormak--yeah i kno i'm screwing up all the spellings of their names but oh well. yeah he looked good too! so now i can understand how kyle could say that ali landry is "perfect"...cuz when they're all make-uped out...and when they look good on TV anyway...they look phenomenal in person! the only celeb i've seen up close is janet...and since i'm not attracted to women i don't think i got the whole effect of it. now, let me meet orlando bloom or someone else i think is fine...i can't think right now i'm on my way to bed....then MAN will i go friggin crazy!!! haha i'm starstruck how lame!

tomorrow's lab is gonna suck ass! we have to bisect the skull...yummmmmm. and go through all these structures. i wonder if we can do it in 2 hours...i hope i don't have to stay for the whole 3 hours. oh well, better than having to go to lab 3 days this week...i only have to do 2 labs....but one is Friday. stupid anatomy!

listening to: walking in memphis-lonestar

last night my friends and i had a sleepover to cheer up one of my friends who just broke up with her boyfriend. it was a lot of fun. we just watched friends, the apprentice and ER...oh and sex and the city. it was fun cuz it's been a while since i've slept over somewhere...just like in jr. high. i did have some trouble sleeping though.

so i've decided i'm going to europe! LONDON BABY! i'm gonna take a tour like my cousin novette did last year. i'm very excited. i still have to run it by my mom first...not for permission but just to tell her. so to fund this trip i'm gonna take out more money from school...SHHH! but yeah, so there ya go.

listening to: Stacy's Mom-Fountains of Wayne

new years resolutions:
1. study more efficiently---or stop procrastinating....this won't last
2. blog more...
3. work out at least 3 times a week(i started this before break, but Christmas came and it went out the door)
4. Be more aggressive and speak out more--CONFIDENCE!(work in progress...it's on my list every year)

i started school this week. it felt good to be back and to see my friends. what sucked was my car was wiggin' out. like the battery was "dead" and i couldn't start my car. i brought it to the shop, they charged the battery....a few hours later it wouldn't start again! this resulted in me missing margarita monday with the chicas and i was bummed. so today i had to get a ride from my friend and i brought my car to get fixed. and u know what the damn problem was? it was that the stupid battery was dirty...like corrosion or whatever. the guy was like "why didn't they clean this yesterday?". grr! and it's fixed now! so i finally went grocery shopping and now i can hopefully get into school mode and start working out again.

i'm trying to cut down on the carbs. i bought some lean cuisine meals that are low carb...it was 4 for 5 bucks which isn't bad at all. and i'm TRYING TRYING to cut down on carbs...but it's hard b/c i love potatoes and bread and sugar.

i also noticed that the stupid supermarkets don't help much when you're trying to lose weight and you're poor. everything they have on sale is fattening or bad for you. it's really disgusting.

i feel sluggish right now. i just ate some carl's jr. it was good...but i'm like ready to go to sleep now. i might go to sleep early...but it's only 7 for crying out loud!!