the past week i've felt unmotivated and BLAH! we have two tests coming up next week. one is for anatomy, the other is our first system exam for dermatology. i think it's because it's our first exam in a long time and i just really don't feel like studying. we have less class time which, i think, makes me even lazier. i have more time to goof off and thus i goof off even more. it's such a sad cycle i have. and i'm always whining. what's up with that? i wonder if i will ever grow out of that.

so today i planned to watch must see tv until 11pm...which is about right now. but 60% of it was reruns. so since i hadn't planned on studying i didn't. which is really sucky and sad but i wanted to relax. nevertheless, despite my slackerness i think i will do ok on the exams. it would be great if i was super motivated and could really just ace everything. but i like having a life. i like relaxing. what i DON'T like is the guilt that comes with it. it's a stressful relaxation despite all my efforts to "relax." I have been making time to work out, and I don't really feel guilt with that. So with the hope of being a good student for 2 hours, I am planning on going to Starbucks tomorrow morning and studying until class at 11. lets hope that happens. i have to leave here by 815 so i can get to starbucks by 830...study til 1030 and go to class. pray for me.....

listening to : no me ames-j/lo and m/anth haha