i just got back from a PCHAT clinic. i feel really good after each one. i feel like we are doing something important for the community; for people who can't afford healthcare....at least i hope we do.

i saw the passion of the christ last night. and i can only describe it using one word: powerful. even if you are not Christian, this story and its message is just so....powerful. you can feel Jesus' pain and what he went through...and just like Jesus, you wanted it to stop, but knew that it can't and that it will get much worse. hopefully this movie creates a discourse among the religious community and help us understand each other's religions more. i for one, am curious to learn aobut jewish beliefs since i've never really known and this movie has made me wonder. so there you go. :)
listening to: perfect girl-sarah mclachlan

turns out the test wasn't THAT bad. it's funny the redhead says i freak out everytime before a test; saying that i don't know where to start and i REALLY don't know if i'm gonna do well this time. but at the end of my studying process i'm usually pretty calm and feel like i'm ready. either that or i'm in the "fuck it i can at least pass" mode and everything is ok. i ended up getting an 80% on it which is good. but my nerd-ass wants a higher grade....of course. but i'm still satisfied b/c i was sick, and i didn't study that much. just gotta try harder the next 3 exams!!! i want as close to an A as possible. :) i'm a nerd!

i'm freaking out. at least my stomach is....i REALLY REALLY don't think i'm going to do well on this test at all. I was sick half of Monday, all of Tuesday and half of Wednesday. It is now Thursday and I feel better, but what did I do? I watched TV, now that was my bad. NOw i feel sick to my stomach and want to throw up. Tomorrow is Friday, ,which will be spent all day at school. Review from 1-2 and tutoring from 2-4. Let's freaking hope my tutoring session is the best one I've ever had because after that I have 2 days to learn all the crap I haven't learned yet, which is like 70% of the shit! I cannot fail this test. Now my middle finger of my left hand is numb. See, freaking out.

listening to: Time-Sarah MacLachlan...this is how freaked out I am..that name looks weird to me. please someone put me out of my misery.

(i must be feeling better. i'm complaining about studying and overreacting)

Don't you just LOVE it when you're sick? The aches, the pains, and the chills! it feels WONderful. Not to mention the incessant coughing and runny nose, which can only be topped by the resultant headache!!! Then going to urgent care to get it checked out and waiting for 2 hours?! only to find out that i could have diagnosed myself. AWESOME! woohoo! I love today!

not much time to blog... i had fun in reno:
cheers: discovered that blackjack is a fun game, awesome italian restaurant in Harrah's called Cafe Andreotti, the Chef's Buffet at El Dorado(the redhead and i probably ate a plate and a half of shrimp cocktail) for only 15 bucks!! free drinks at the tables!
boos: lost all the money i brought :(, southwest sux! haha
but it was all well worth it

listening to: josh grobans new CD-Closer

Woohoo!!! I'm going to Reno today for Vday. I've never been, and despite the fact that I've only heard "not so good" things about it when I do mention Reno, I think I'll have a blast anyway. The red head and I are gonna learn how to play craps, I'm gonna teach him how to play Pai Gow and HOPEfully we can win some good money!!!

Another WOOHOO! for Europe! My cousin and I are in the process of closing up our itinerary for Europe. They just need to confirm this one promotion for 50% off the flight. I'm so excited and yet so guilty about spending so much friggin money, but it's ok. I'm sure it will be a totally worthwhile experience.

See Friday the 13th isn't so bad.....*knocks on wood*(as it is only 918 in the morning haha)

i feel frustrated. the past week was a whirlwind of confusion. we had a different schedule and i felt lost all the time. unfortunately, we're back to the same routine, but a new system so i'm just as lost as when i was last week. i don't know which books i should buy, i dunno what i'm doing. other reasons why i feel so frazzled is i'm trying to plan all this stuff and take care of all this crap like the europe trip, my loan, my taxes and fafsa application, my application for preceptorship this summer(which i haven't even gotten to), and kyle and i planned to go to a kings vs ducks game on the 29th and i find out today that it's my God-daughter's 1st bday party. WTF? What am I supposed to do? The game was planned for months, but the bday is her FIRST bday...and i missed the last one. ugh! the guilt and i'm torn but i promised i'd go to the game and the tickets are paid for....but i feel bad for missing out on the party. i guess that's what is frustrating me the most. it's no one's fault but dang!!! why couldn't it have been on the Saturday???

One good piece of news today is that my loan is being processed and my money should be here soon! We're buying the Europe tickets on Wednesday! woohoo! then i'll have a lot of my worries out of the way. i should stop whining huh. oh well.

listening to: mean old man--james taylor

another random thought....
so i was watching tv and they were showing those sushi places where you eat the sushi off some girl....do you understand how disgusting that is????? do you know how much bacteria is on your skin? the potential fungi, dirt, etc on ppl's skin???? GROSSS

i'm bored....
so i'm watching the grammy's and thinking....britney's not nominated; and for good reason. i was watching justin timberlake performing and playing the piano. he's a talented ass man. then thinking about christina aguilera and how she was nominated and she won for her song "beautiful." i don't think britney is considered a serious artist. just some flashy entertainer. i mean her album is decent...but not much substance per se. there's like one song on there that has any soul. perhaps she's just trying to find herself and once she does she will make better music? random random thoughts....