oh and for those of you who haven't read this, i dug it up from some old posts from another blogsite. i wrote this in march on a plane home for spring break...

"planes don't stop for love"
Romantic comedies are what we hope our love lives will be like. Boy meets girl. They seem perfect for each other, fall in love and all is well. Boy finds "tragic flaw" in girl and girl leaves boy, all accompanied by a soundtrack that conveys the sadness and longing of the parties involved. Girl decides to leave town and boy realizes that the tragic flaw doesn't matter anymore and he loves her. Boy runs to the airport, pleads with airport personnel to stop the plane. In a swirl of romance they stop the plane. Boy finds girl and they kiss passionately...riding off into the sunset...happily ever after.

But planes don't stop for love. There is no soundtrack for your life because while the joy may seem to last for a second, the pain will undoubtedly last longer than three minutes and thirty seconds of your life. You don't know if the boy will come and chase you down at the airport. And furthermore, if he did, would you even stay?

They never really show what happens after the kiss. Maybe all the passengers get pissed and kick the boy and girl out; girl gets upset because she had a medical school interview and that flight was the last one out, ruining her chances of getting into her dream school. It's real life, it's hard, it lasts much longer than two hours, you can't control it and you never know what's going to happen. So next time you watch a romantic movie, give yourself a reality check and think back to when you read the cynical ramblings of a girl sitting "alone" in an airplane with no music, for four hours, waiting for her pain to subside.


hehe so there ya go. enjoy!
listening to: snoop and dre-ain't nuttin' but a G thang BABY!

song of the day
Swing, Swing, Swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again.

I put my cousin, Novette's website up. Right now it's just a blogsite but she's workin on it. I am just relaxing at home. Trying to figure out what I need to do before I leave. I should start cleaning up more..but I'll save that for Monday.

so i'm going through my songs on my computer so i can burn the albums/complete CD's i already have and boy......I HAVE A LOT OF SONGS. Also my friend burned me all the DMB CD's known to man and i realized.....I HAVE A LOT OF CDS! Crazy. Anyway so i have to burn the rest of my Friends episodes...I'm a third through Season 8...so all I need to do is finish downloading the rest of season 9...hope that doesn't take too long. Anywho...that should occupy my time for a while I would say.

I bought this book called "The Science of Harry Potter", I think that's what it's called. Some plane reading. Oh yeah and I have to finish the Bridget JOnes Diary 2 book so I can return it to my friend b4 I leave. And I have to pack. Does anyone get the feeling that I'm overwhelming myself w/ unnecessary tasks? Looks that way to me! At any rate, at least I will have a busy and productive summer. ttfn.

silence.....must turn on CD player before explode.....peace out!

Woohoo. I have mastered how to edit my template and thus will keep this one for a while. I am now using frontpage to edit and then cut and paste the html codes. YAAY.

i got my westernu email today. it's awesome to feel a part of something new. i'm really looking fwd to going to school. new ppl, new experiences. so i set up my emails and there were already a couple of emails out there about females lookin for roommates. so i emailed a couple of them back. hopefully they're cool ppl. i feel all busy like ihave so many things to do before i leave. but it feels invigorating. it feels like i'm alive and have purpose in life. it's great.

we're going bowling tomorrow. woohoo! AND spaghetti warehouse. sangria. yum. hehe. tomorrow i have a bunch of errands to run. tying up loose ends here in philly. man it's only 10 and i feel like it's 2am. i think thats' what happens when you work all day. my roommate told me i was glaring at a customer today when she walked by. i feel bad now. i mean ppl who know me would not say i was a mean/rude person, but i think my job makes me that way geez. i feel so bad cuz i get annoyed at stupid/ignorant/slow ppl. that's not the way to be. i can't help it. :( hopefully i will get better with that as i get into my career. COMPASSION IS KEY! hehe. pray for me.

i'm going home in 7 days and counting...
listening to: Dave Matthews & Tim Reynolds Live-Christmas Song

ok i don't care if this site is not updating and it's ugly and i can't change shit! I'm happy!! hehe
64 days until DMB @ Chula Vista
52 days until Counting Crows and John Mayer @ Irvine

i just went shopping and bought some more summer stuff. i'm ready to be young and have fun!! screw everything else. :)
listening to: DMB-where are you going

er i changed it again...but it hasn't showed up yet......and i wanna edit stuff......shit i forgot to copy the codes for my links and info...oh well later. wylie burned me all the DMB CD's that I didn't have! woohoo! he's the best.
listening to: DMB-stay

i changed my template again :P hee hee......

ok my blogsite is annoying me...why doesn't it show all my blogs? and why dont' my archives save correctly??? grr.

so i'm listening to the evanescence CD....they said that they weren't a Christian band..but most of their songs sound very Christian or can be interpreted that way. Anyway, the song I really like is not Christian-sounding...altho I think one could interpret it that way...possibly.

my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

...and then of course the song that they have out has......."save me from this nothing i've become." lar lar lar.....i'm bored. and i want to pack but it's like i can't pack some of this stuff until like next week. ohhhhh well.

listening to: evanescence--everybody's fool

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

i just woke up from a nap w/ a series of weird ass dreams or just a dream w/ weird scenes. i dreamt i was w/ all these guys......i can only really remember 2 buy i kno there were more. anyhow, the first guy--damn he was black again..and he kissed like crap, his skin was all oily and i think i was his first kiss.....elch. then the 2nd guy was that guy josh from american idol.....and we were at a house party w/ my MMS friends. He asked about hookin up and i was down.....and he was hot but he was an ass. like he coudln't remember my name or anything like that. it was all disturbing. arg. so i dunno what the hell that means. I had a couple of similar dreams a month ago...same kind of things...guys who are gross haha. i'm so freakin tired and i don't know why. i gotta pack sometime today. they put up airconditioners!! woohoo! figures it's cold out. haha.

listening to: why georgia(live)-lyrically/vocally sexy john mayer

so i've decided that i'm gonna write a lil sumfin sumfin about my stay here in philly.....what i've learned, what i'm gonna miss...how i've grown etc. i'm thinking it will be pretty long. i will work on it during summer or the rest of the time i'm here. hope it turns out well.

i dunno why i've been so tired today. i woke up tired and was tired all day. i think i might be dehydrated. we're going to atlantic city tomorrow...hope it is ok. it's supposed to rain all day...whoo hoo. i made dinner today. it was rib eye and porterhouse steak, baked potato, asparagus and some mushroom/onion topping. i thought it was good. :) we also had some red wine w/ it. i have decided that i am not a red wine person hehe.

american idol was wack...i wanted clay to win. the show was booooooooring. i don't think i'm a fan anymore. now it's all about the money and it sux.

random random thoughts......
listening to: kelly clarkson-anytime

NY is so cool. this last trip was prolly the best trip to NY i've had. we stayed at a hotel for a night so that made the trip chill and not so rushed. we got to see RENT on broadway.....and that Frenchie girl who got kicked off American Idol was playing one of the swings in the play...actually she played the soloist on Seasons of Love. The performances themselves...like the group as a whole was just ok. Some songs were really good and some songs they performed like bleh. but it was still an awesome experience. we went around central park and i got to see more of it than i ever had...soooooooo pretty and it was a lovely day. I spent 130 bucks at H&M...and even tho it seems like a lot...I got my money's worth. :) Everything is so cheap there...I swear they need to open some West Coast stores cuz seriously I would just shop there all the time.

I'm starting to get really sad about leaving Philly. :(

Listening to: Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride--Mark Keali'i Ho'omalu and the Kamehameha School's Childrens Choir(Lilo and Stitch)

i graduated today!!! it was great. i think the best part wasn't really graduating but watching the M.D.'s graduate...that's where i'll be in 4 years!!!!! woohoo. ok head ache......must gooooo!
listening to: 3rd eye blind--new girl

so i decided to blog for real and not bitch about the page. i've been blogging a lot. maybe it's cuz i have no life.....i mean it's almost noon, i just got up, i'm still in my jammies and if i didn't do a damn thing today, it wouldn't really matter. i have stuff to do tho...will prolly get around to it at like 1 or something. i feel bleh...unsettled and unsure. i have a whir of confusion constantly spinning in my head.

but on to other things.....i was thinking about the things i need to do before i leave...not like "errand" type of things, but goodbye things. It mostly involves food which is sad haha. I have to eat my last, cheesesteak from Pats, meatball sub from the cart, chinese food from the cart, cosi/xando!!!!!! :(, i think i'll go eat at shula's for the last time, buffet at the marriot...and that's about it i think. yum! maybe i'll have that meat ball sub today. it's only 1.50....hmm. well we'll see. i'm gonna miss dirty ol' philly.

listening to: king of kings--cece wynans :) God rocks! hehe

damn this blog page!!! i think i lost my posts from last year......that totally sux.

arg i can't get the stupid page right...blargh

for mother's day i have decided to do absolutely nothing! well not nothing i'm working on my blogsite and trying to learn html.......and it's hard cuz i never learned how to do it :P

so yeah i changed the template AGAIN! too lazy to fix the other one........

oh so i keep finding all these good songs that could relate to you know who(ykw)......haha i just realized that in my last blog i put the acronym as ynw--i'm smart! anyway yeah so i just found another one: the space between.....great song by dave matthews band who i will be seeing this july!! woohoo. here be the lyrics...well part of them. i'll put the link up in a minute:

The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...
Lyrics to "The Space Between"

And then before was "Comfortable" by the lyrically hot John Mayer...ok well these lyrics are not on the lyric page b/c it's part of his live concert.....but:

that you were my first love
was just dumb luck
you were ahead of me
that you were my first love
was just a dumb dumb stupid technicality
you will always be ahead of me
why'd i have to practice on you
why'd i have to practice on your heart......

Lyrics to "Comfortable"


it's a bomb ass song!!!

so i decided to write that in here cuz i think it would be weird to be like "hey hwmnbn....here are some songs that relate to your situation...go nuts!" blah blah. so i blogged enuff for a good week right? :P

currently listening to: i think it's expose??-i'll never get over you getting over me
ok dont' think i'm sitting here listening to depressing break up songs haha it's just a coincidence!!! i swear!

so i don't blog a lot...is that a crime? haha. i think it's cuz i'm part of a blog group and sometimes i blog there so i get lazy to blog here. i wonder if anyone really reads this. oh yeah another reason is prolly cuz i have a journal and when i REALLY need to write i do so there. stil, it's nice to have yet another outlet for my random thoughts and ramblings. i wish i knew how to fix my template. it will have to do for now. maybe i'll fix it this summer.

6 more days until graduation. i can't believe we're done...geeez. and then i will open another chapter in my life. i'm excited......but not extied about the money that will be spent in the next 4 years. i'll be a broke ass doctor. but i'll be a doctor!!

so i keep see-sawing about the red-head who's name i will now change to he-who-must-not-be-named (hwmnbn) or you-know-who(ynw) just b/c it's sounds cool haha. GO HARRY POTTER...oh and while we're on countdowns...5 days til the matrix, 3 weeks til i go home and 1 month until THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! ok so back to the original subject of this paragraph. hwmnbn....yeah well my roommate pointed out something and that was......that i needed to decide whether or not i am going to trust him again....b/c there's nothing i can do and nothing he can do to "gain" my trust. it's all up to me to either say screw it and let it go or screw it and go for it. hehe. as of right now i'm still doing the pendelum thing and i think i will for a while until i am past the anger stage. and i don't think i am.

my roomie and i are going clubbin tonight! drunkeness and dancing.....ahhh hehe that's the life!

so i was talking to my coworker who studied in japan for the past 3 months. she was telling me about this "fad" that they have over there--i forget what they're called. 15 year old girls prostituting themselves....they have this website where you like put your phone number on and men contact them...take them to karaoke bars where they get piss-drunk and "have a good time." She said that the girls never admit to having sex w/ these men but I think it's assumed. And the girls do this b/c they need extra money to buy designer stuff. Then she asked a japanese friend of hers if she knew anyone that did that and the girl said yeah. And she seemed to think it was perfectly normal. When asked why she didn't do it....the girl said that she really didn't need the money b/c she wasn't into expensive stuff. Isn't that weird?! Weird ol' Japs hehe. And she said that the really old ppl and our generation japanese are perfectly cool to foreigners but the middle aged ppl dont' like foreigners and they just want them out. I thought that was weird too--well mostly about the really old ppl cuz of the war and everything. so i thought that was an interesting tidbit i'd share w/ y'all.

listening to: Beatles-Across the Universe

i just saw x2 today. i thought it was really good...well maybe i'm just excited about xmen 3.....pheonix saga! :) I have to watch the very end again to see if whatever is in the water is a pheonix or an X. NOT sure. anyway it was good. i have to sleep soon......have to work tomorrow.

i'm lonely and want someone to talk to. and i think i miss kyle too. :\

mmm so i decided to write in this again....it's been a whole freaking year can you believe it? more later.......working on the template for the blogsite. new obsession.

so i decided to use this template cuz it reminds me of trading spaces...cable rocks! must have it when i move back home...at whatever the cost!