so i don't blog a lot...is that a crime? haha. i think it's cuz i'm part of a blog group and sometimes i blog there so i get lazy to blog here. i wonder if anyone really reads this. oh yeah another reason is prolly cuz i have a journal and when i REALLY need to write i do so there. stil, it's nice to have yet another outlet for my random thoughts and ramblings. i wish i knew how to fix my template. it will have to do for now. maybe i'll fix it this summer.

6 more days until graduation. i can't believe we're done...geeez. and then i will open another chapter in my life. i'm excited......but not extied about the money that will be spent in the next 4 years. i'll be a broke ass doctor. but i'll be a doctor!!

so i keep see-sawing about the red-head who's name i will now change to he-who-must-not-be-named (hwmnbn) or you-know-who(ynw) just b/c it's sounds cool haha. GO HARRY POTTER...oh and while we're on countdowns...5 days til the matrix, 3 weeks til i go home and 1 month until THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! ok so back to the original subject of this paragraph. hwmnbn....yeah well my roommate pointed out something and that was......that i needed to decide whether or not i am going to trust him again....b/c there's nothing i can do and nothing he can do to "gain" my trust. it's all up to me to either say screw it and let it go or screw it and go for it. hehe. as of right now i'm still doing the pendelum thing and i think i will for a while until i am past the anger stage. and i don't think i am.

my roomie and i are going clubbin tonight! drunkeness and dancing.....ahhh hehe that's the life!