Are you bored and want to be so frustrated that you pull your hair out?
The Crimson Room

i don't have time to blog about much...but throughout the year i have been without a couch. my living room is just that...a room haha with stuff. anyway, so i got a good deal on a couch and a bookshelf...couch=40, bookshelf=25.....not having to sit on the floor=priceless!

grhdsareogfjadoipfdsifdjasadsifaolj;! what is wrong with me/kyle? why do i need so much friggin attention? why is he so grumpy? ok you're sick...but like why are you gonna call me, only to half watch law and order and not listen to anything i say? and you know what therapy and self help books do? they just make you think more and more....and it's like wtf. this one self help book i was reading was making me feel like everything was on me...and in conjunction with that my therapy is all about...you can only change one person...and that's yourself so you have to change the way you react to things. FUCK THAT can ppl just change the way they treat me? i dunno maybe i shouldn't have skipped my session today but i had to take care of some shit. i'll call to reschedule tomorrow. it helps me look at things differently but i'm also stubborn and want my own way. i dunno why i'm so frustrated...it's over a 5 minute conversation that i had nothing to say in. like i don't even want to be around or talk to him when he's grumpy. but then i just feel lonely. whatever. onto another week of school w/ 3 tests coming up. oh the joy of my life these days!!!
listening to: stoned-dido

this weekend sux. i have to study, kyle's in vegas, i am alone and can't even distract myself with anything fun.