so i saw this girl today that i hadn't seen in a long time. and she gained so much weight! totally noticeable. it totally weirded me out. i mean it cant' be that much weight but enough to be obvious u know? i wonder if that will ever happen to me.

i think i have stomach issues. i've been having tummy aches. it could be that i eat too much or don't drink enough. ohhhh well.

p.s. i love my car

i think i'm coming down from my high with the new car. felt kind of sad today. starting missing the boy for some reason. but then i had this dream about him that made me mad, so now i still miss the boy but remember why i shouldn't be with him. oh baby steps.

Here's some pictures of my new car :) I named her Hedwig...yeah yeah yeah i know she's black, but thats' her name ok?

What a blog-worthy day!! :) Today is a happy albeit stressful day.

I BOUGHT MY CAR! FINALLY! I finally have a Civic to call my own for the New Year. I'm very proud of myself because I went to the dealership all by my lonesome and did pretty good at talking down the price of the car and the price of the extended warranty. I walked away feeling like I got a good deal...I hope I didn't get jipped hehe. Then I didn't need a cosigner for my financing so the car is allll mine.

How cool is my car? The CD player plays MP3s, there's this thing on my radio where if you press this button "a. select" it will program your radio stations to the stations that have the best reception. So if you're driving through Utah, you can just press that button and get radio stations instead of browsing through the whole thing. Plus, my car is just so pretty. :) So very pretty.

Then I went to church with my mom for Simbang Gabi(Midnight Mass) which is a tradition in the Philippines...but the mass was actually at 730. So I was starving by this time cuz I skipped dinner(I was at the dealer from 230-630). And to my surprise THEY HAD FREE FOOD! I didn't overeat either so that was another plus. They had powdered brownies. YUM. And now I'm home. I just cleaned the car, cuz I had all my crap from the Accord thrown where-ever in there.

So yay, that was my day!

Hallelujiah!! My mom FINALLY started cleaning. It's amazing how much work she got done in the last couple of days. Good thing too cuz my friend is going to be staying with us as of january.

Today I got a facial in Alhambra....which was totally ruined by the 2 hours of traffic I had to sit through to get home. Sigh. It was fun while it lasted.

Looking forward to this weekend. It's my friend Steph's bday and we're going to Rock Bottom then whatever bar calls our way.

I'm almost done with Christmas shopping for the "kids" of the family. 3 more I have to figure out.

Me and one of the best Rieslings I've ever tasted! Yum.

This is the car I'm getting, hopefully sometime this week!!

ok ok. so i'll post something that's not depressing.

this weekend was my friend sheila's holiday cocktail party. it was cool. i came early and we got our makeup done. i probably spent too much money on the makeup but i never had it done before and it made me feel good. :) then we picked up the food from whole foods. she got these mozzarella, basil and tomato crestini thing...YUMMMMMM.

my dress was very "ahem" low cut and it's funny to see how guys react to this. i got a lot of "thank you's". i mean if some guy was wearing his shirt open or his ass out, i don't think i'd say thank you. guys are weird.

my friend's ex bf bought her this riesling: johann falkenburg...it was soo good. better than chataeu st. michelle. yum. but i can't find anywhere to buy it. i had like 3 glasses of that. i think i could have finished the whole magnum bottle. then we played checkers w/ shots of wine. the wine was wack. *shiver*

we slept in until 1030 the next day and ate brunch at the long beach museum of art. good times.

then i got in a stupid fight with my mom which spiraled me into a depressed mood for the rest of the day. yay.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

anyone ever feel like quitting life. noooo not TAKING their life...but just quitting. just restarting it all over and starting new. wish i could just restart sometimes. i wonder if i'd be happier. i guess my WHOLE life isn't crap. i just feel like i screwed up some aspects of it and well, i don't like screwing up. can i just crumple up the piece of paper and start drawing a new picture? i just feel like i could have done things differently. and i know it's not all my fault b/c he could have done things differently too. whatever i just don't feel like dealing with feelings right now...so i'll continue to be numb.

p.s. this is me just venting, don't go feeling sad or sorry for me. i'll be fine

I love the show Everwood on, yes, the WB. And not because it super realistic, but because it's so completely idealistic, romantic, tragic, UNrealistic and filled with angst of all kinds. I like rooting for all the characters and all the crap that goes wrong in their lives. Gives me a warm fuzzy feeling which I'm in dire need of these days. Just thought I'd share.

Other thoughts: 1. I want to watch Memoirs of a Geisha 2. Anyone hear about "Brokeback Mountain" with Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal? Read an article on it written by a gay film critic I think, it was "the straight man's guide to brokeback mountain." I can't find the article again, but it was funny 3. I hate that LOST is on hiatus for 6 weeks!

i feel like my personal life is on a downward spiral. oh i'm sure i'm being overdramatic and pessimistic but i don't care. thank goodness i like what i do for a living and find it fulfilling.

things i'm bitching about
1. my internet is fucked up again
2. i'm alone...can't be with the one that i love because we don't work/make each other happy...not ready to find someone else...which doesn't really help my loneliness does it?
3. don't feel really good about myself...just personally...don't really know who i am at this point....trying to find out, but it will take a while. i disappoint myself constantly b/c i bottle things up inside and then i blow up for no reason at all. i wish i was braver.
4. i'm impatient and only time can help me...how ironic is that?
5. i am not happy with my home life. my mother is irritating the shit out of me...i love her cuz she's my mom, but she's a child. and her scolding me for things she doesn't even do makes me want to scream. AND i know she won't/can't change because this is who she is. it's just a little harder to accept it if it's staring you in the face ALL THE TIME.
6. i hate not having an income. i feel useless/hopeless because i can't fix any of my financial problems.
7. i constantly feel stupid at work...but this isn't so bad b/c i'm only a 3rd year med student so i have about the rest of my life left to feel stupid because.....doctors are 'life long learners'
8. wow i've run out of things to bitch about......

things i'm thankful for/looking forward to
1. i think i actually picked the right profession and i'm happy about that. just have to figure out a specialty
2. my friends...they know who they are. thanks for all the support
3. my cousin Novette...always there for me...can always cheer me up somehow.
4. my sister...she can be a pain but she give me the hugs i need
5. and as much as i bitch about her, my mom...and dad. i'm thankful i have them and they support me.
6. chronicles of narnia....and i just found out they made a new version of charlotte's web which comes out in 2006
7. getting a new car.....

i've watched a whole season's worth of six feet under in like 4 days. maybe it's comforting to me to watch fictional characters' f*ed up lives to make my life seem ok. not that my life is even that bad. i just feel like i'm just here. not happy, not sad. just here. it's really a strange feeling. i'm gonna try to write in this more. we'll see how that goes. :)

well it's been a few months since i've blogged. lately i've been feeling a bit depressed and feeling like my life is in chaos, but today i realized nothing is going to change if i don't change it. so i am going to try to get my credit in check. my credit score is actually not that bad, but i would like to get rid of my credit debt and keep it off. all that is intertwined with my relationship with my mom. it's hard to communicate with her because most of the time she takes it the wrong way. we use my credit cards for alot of our purchases which isn't good cuz then they get maxed out and my credit score goes down. i would someday like to be able to buy a house and a good car, but i need good credit to do so. so i gotta keep that in check.

as far as my mom goes, since i've moved back we've had a volatile relationship. one day we will be great and in a second we'll be yelling at each other, or i'll be mad/frustrated at something inconsiderate she's done. i kinda wanna have a talk with her to minimize all that, but i'm apprehensive because i don't really know what will become of it. what i really want to tell her is to get off her ass, manage her time well(because she watches way too much tv) and just be considerate. she knows i'm pressed for time and yet she schedules or shall i say doesn't schedule things accordingly like my time isn't important. come to think of it, i don't think i'll have that discussion with her. i can already see it going bad. now, you all might think that i'm just being pessimistic and chickening out, but i'd like to let you all know that i have tried communicating with her on numerous occasions. you can't have an adult conversation with this woman. seriously. i have to find the right time to bring it up. we'll see what happens.

ok after i vented, i see that my life really isn't in chaos, i just feel overwhelmed at times. i'm super anal and want everything to be perfect. and life isn't perfect. the sooner i understand that, the sooner i'll be able to handle life.

so i'm at coffee bean killing time before i meet my friend christie at souplantation and i brought my computer so i could do work. there's a wireless connection here but i couldn't use it. when i open my IE it's an SBC home page type deal and it says you could pay 4 bucks for 2 hours of connection. so i paid and woohoo, then there was a connection. so i think i'll be hanging out here :) i'm gonna go watch willy wonka in 15 minutes at the theater next door...all by myself.

today i had 4 patients and i actually got to eat lunch even tho dr. lai came early. i think i'm getting faster woohoo. i'm down to 2 patients...will probably get a new one tomorrow. woohoo.

things i'm looking forward to:
1. moving back home and actually have a HOME...say goodbye to my nomad days
2. getting DSL at my house...15 bucks a month for 1.5 Mbps....if that sux then 25 bucks for 3Mbps
3. getting netflix...10 bucks for unlimitted DVDs a month...only get to keep one at a time, but that's totally fiine with me.
4. disneyland this weekend
5. tom petty next weekend
6. hawaii in september
7. vegas in september
8. getting my car fixed someday

things i'm not looking forward to:
1. surgery at arrowhead
2. having to move to another rotation and get used to their ways there.
3. moving back home and actually having to organize all my crap...

so i decided to blog a lil blurb of random thoughts

my rotation is going well. it's a lot of busy work. not really learning alot about medicine per se but i'm learning about the runnings of a hospital and how much work it is to manage patients. hopefully i'm getting better at it rather than just staying where i am.

peter jennings died, sad huh? so sudden.

i feel busy, i did a lot today. worked straight from 9-330 no breaks no lunch. went and got dinner for my cousins...came home and ate...and i've been on the computer for a few hours running errands and what not. now it's time for a shower so i don't have to take one tomorrow. i'm gonna try to go in at 8 tomorrow b/c we have 2 lectures....and we start rounding at 1230...but have to be done w/ patients at 11 cuz our lecture starts at 11.

i'm actually going to starbucks to study for a couple of hours cuz i want to. how crazy is that. lol

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ahh. for the past two nights all i've done is veg. i haven't done it in so long. i just sat and watched tv for HOURS. :) But right now i'm going to read the 2 articles Dr. Lai gave us so I can just get it out of the way.

listening to: Gwen Stefani-Cool

Comlex scores

woohoo I passed again!

Score: 497
Percent: 79%

it's really weird that i did better on this than the usmle. it's out of 800 points and you need 400 to pass. yay for me! I'm finally officially a 3rd year.

HELL FREAKIN YEAH!!!!

I passed!! I passed!! I seriously feel like I got into med school all over again. This is a great feeling and I haven't felt this way in so long! It's refreshing.

The USMLE is the boards all M.D.'s have to take. Being a D.O. and passing the USMLE makes you more competitive because they can measure you against M.D.'s. I don't HAVE to pass these boards, but it is to my benefit if I do.

Passing is usually a score of 182...(I can't remember out of how much) and a percentage of 75%.

My score: 207
Percent: 84%

I called my mom and told her to check the mail. She said she would call me back with my score. When she called she asked, "What's passing?" and I told her 182. And she's like you got an 84. And i'm like um...are you sure it's not a 184?? And she was like no it's an 84. And I'm like is it the percent? and she's like yes 84% whew!! then she told me my score.

Rotation: OMM
Other Western Students: Cherrie Gilleon, Ila Pourashem(sp?), Cindy Chen
Preceptor: Dr. Joseph Watson aka the red head hippie
Schedule:
M 12-6(i got out at 715 today)
Tues and Thurs 9-5(most likely 6)
Wed off
Friday 9-2

Pros: It's in Del Mar, so nice weather and you can see the ocean from the office. I get Wed off. I don't have to go in until 12 on Monday.

Cons: I GOT OUT AT 715 TODAY!!! grrrr
My preceptor is a freakin hippie--yep, like those guys who came to lecture us during psych--yep, he had a book of those weird psychadelic pictures. He's preachy about the government/politics, his philosophy about the profession(very anti-pharmaceuticals, pro-nutrition) etc etc. so not only does he TALK alot...I don't know what he's talking about 80% of the time!!! And not cuz I zone out which is like 70% of the time, but even when i pay attention!! He was talking about how the distance btwn our teeth is the same as the distance between here to the moon, if you think about it in atomic energy??? i don't know.

There isn't very much structure. We were sitting there not really knowing what to do. Every now and then he would be like go upstairs and see the patient there. No guidance, just go. So I didn't really LEARN anything, I just pretty much went with what I knew and that was enough. I didn't learn how to document really--his charting is retarded; not at all like how they have charts at the OMM clinic. So I would just improvise.

Most interesting thing of the day: Dr. Crazy was working on this lady(first patient--we were observing) and he started at her feet. I noticed she would jerk her head randomly and so i assumed she had some weird tick or something. Then later he mentioned something about, "See how she's reacting to the treatment." And then when he got to her head, she started spontaneously moving her head in weird places and then it wasn't just her head it was her torso and arms, while Dr. Crazy just followed her into whatever position she was going into. SO FREAKING WEIRD! It was like watching one of those evangelical shows on TV where the priest is ridding the person of the devil. I'd never seen anything liike it in my life. And I didn't wanna ASK him cuz then he would have gone off on one of his rants about energy and the spirit.

FUCK!!! Two and a half weeks left until my first set of board exams(COMLEX). I have been diligently studying for boards for the last few weeks. So can someone explain to me why I'm getting lower scores on my qbank practice questions?? I got the LOWEST score I ever today. I think my brain is fried. it's just so disheartening to do worse after you've been trying so hard. TWO AND A HALF WEEKS!!!!

I took this Specialty Aptitude test to see what specialty fits my personality. is that bad that the specialty i want to go into is at the bottom of the list??

Rank Specialty Score
1 dermatology 46
2 physical med & rehabilitation 44
3 pediatrics 44
4 radiology 43
5 occupational med 43
6 rheumatology 43
7 hematology 43
8 general internal med 42
9 anesthesiology 42
10 ophthalmology 41
11 obstetrics/gynecology 41
12 otolaryngology 40
13 radiation oncology 40
14 gastroenterology 40
15 endocrinology 39
16 pulmonology 39
17 nephrology 39
18 med oncology 39
19 colon & rectal surgery 39
20 pathology 39
21 general surgery 39
22 plastic surgery 39
23 psychiatry 38
24 urology 38
25 orthopaedic surgery 38
26 nuclear med 38
27 neurology 38
28 emergency med 38
29 infectious disease 38
30 cardiology 37
31 allergy & immunology 37
32 neurosurgery 37
33 thoracic surgery 37
34 preventive med 36
35 aerospace med 36
36 family practice 34

So i MIGHT still be able to rotate through OMM in Hawaii. How awesome would that be?! One month in Hawaii with my dad and brothers. It would be like a pseudo va-k with free lodging. I'd have to work 6/7 days of the week, but then I heard you get out early 2 of the days. My brother could TOTALLY teach me how to surf--or I could take lessons. I could get nice and tan. woohoo.

I have 2, count em 2 exams tomorrow and somehow I'm not stressing it for shit. Lord knows why. I need to do well. I'm gonna get something to eat right now, then go to church, then spend the rest of the afternoon studying. Gotta love it.

today i had montclair clinic. it was a women's clinic tonight and i did my first "real" pap smear. i felt bad cuz i couldn't really find the cervix. and then when i was taking the specimen she started bleeding. poor thing. I'M SORRY i'm inexperienced! then my dumbass forgot to finish up with the patient so she was waiting in the room forever. i felt so bad. otherwise it was a cool night. the resident and the nurse said my notes were good :)

i had a first year following me. i hate it cuz i'm ok looking like a dumbass to the patient, but someone shadowing me vaguely knows what's going on. so there's all this pressure to know stuff cuz you're the 2nd year and should know this shit cuz you're about to go on rotations. bleh. i guess i just have to get used to looking like a dumbass cuz starting june 27th that's all i'll ever be looking like. wish me luck.

And you thought you could fold a shirt.

How awesome is that?! I tried it and it works! i will fold like that from now on. so fast!

so i've once again reverted to my "depressed state". what is that you may ask? well it's a little better than before. i am not crying incessantly, but i am playing that damned spider game again instead of studying. i also can't get up in the morning. i would love to just stay in bed until everything is better again. but nooo nothing will get better if i stay in bed. it will only get worse because i will fail in school and have wasted like 150 grand on it. so not only will i be a depressed fool, i will be a failure haha.

i know it's a waste but i just keep sitting here wishing for things that aren't at all possible. i keep thinking of ways to make it better. i keep wondering when all of this will finally run its course and things will be "normal" again for me; instead of this weird day to day life i lead that is only bearable by distractions such as studying. so basically, if i can master getting my ass up in the morning, find a way to never be in my apartment alone unless i'm eating or watching tv, and figure out how to fall asleep once i hit the bed, then i can be "ok." hmm wonder if that's healthy. prolly not.

i didn't really accomplish my goals for the day. i need to get to bed soon because i'm trying to get up at 7am tomorrow. but i'm not sleepy. so i'll prolly end up crying myself to sleep again. WOOHOO can't wait. tomorrow should be a busy tiring day. class from 8-5, then doing micro for an undisclosed amount of time. then american idol and house. then prolly do a qbank. good night all.

i'm obsessed with the show Lost....must buy DVD in July when it supposedly comes out. I think i would be a more obsessed fan if I wasn't so lazy to look things up. Sucks that there's only like one person I know that watches the show. I don't think anyone gets my obsession....oh well, it keeps me sane anyway. that's what tv's for right?

I can't believe it's Thursday. I didn't work as hard as I did last week, but then again I don't have a test on Monday. I feel like I've been working my ass off, and yet I'm sure there are people out there working twice as hard as I am. I just don't wanna burn out. I think I'm going at a reasonable pace.

I got my GI grade today. I did ok, passed and above the mean. I'm ok with that. I'm freaking tired! I actually went to my 8am class this morning cuz it was Dr. Yang. She's the best.

Oh and I got more spots filled on my rotations schedule. I'm doing OBGYN at Arrowhead and Peds at Citrus Valley. I dunno if I posted the rest of my schedule, but I'll post the finalized one cuz they're still trying to figure shit out, and hopefully I can trade my farther rotations.

I think I'm going to sleep early tonight. I have to take a shower tho...and that might end up waking me up. Wouldn't that just be great. Or I could just go to sleep now and see what time I wake up tomorrow.

I feel like there's such a hole in my life right now. I'm doing everything I need to be doing in my life, and yet I still feel incomplete.

listening to: Jason Mraz-Absolutely Zero

Finally reinstalled Hello. Here is a pic of me and my sibs: Erwin(15), Andrew(9), Matess(23) and Me(25--i'm old yes i know). 

Random Occurence of the Day
So I stayed in Fontana last night because I was too lazy to drive back to my apartment, plus I think my sister wanted me to stay home. This morning I had an exam and I didn't really have time to fill up my gas tank. The light had just turned on which means I had 30 more miles to go before I ran out of gas. So I get to school fine. But I forgot to fill up after school and when I went to my friend Sheila's house. So after we watched Desperate Housewives and Eurotrip, I went to my car. But...IT WOULDLN'T START! I was like crap, I think I'm out of gas.

Sheila drove me to the gas station and I had to buy one of those little tank thingies for gas. There were some British tourists there that were having problems with their pump. So Sheila and I tried to help them, but we couldn't figure out what was wrong. Then I couldn't figure out how to fill the tank that I bought. The attendant ended up coming out and helping the both of us.

We drove back to Sheila's and assembled the nozzle for the tank. BUT it started leaking gas when I tried to put it in the hole. It kept leaking gas, so Sheila suggested that we just pour the gas straight from the tank into the nozzle...without using the pump thing. And it worked! Took a while but it worked!

It must have looked really funny with two filipino girls trying to figure out how to put gas into a car.

Random occurence of the day: My cousin's fiance IMed me and told me that my cousin talked to Kyle b/c he had a job for him...and Kyle told my cousin to tell me that he missed me. I just thought that was really random and weird of him. Good thing my cousin didn't really think so. Anyway, I was almost happy to hear that. I guess hearing anything about him would elicit that reaction.

Quote of the Day
Mr. Incredible/Bob Par: Well, what are you waiting for?
Little boy: I dunno, something amazing I guess..
Mr. Incredible/Bob Par: Me too kid.

And I continue to wait...SOMEthing's bound to happen. In the meantime I'll just float through my life getting to where I need to be, doing the things I need to do.

Today I met my half brothers for the first time. I will post a picture once I can figure that out cuz I think I deleted "Hello" from my computer. It wasn't as awkward as I thought it was gonna be. My brothers seem pretty cool. Erwin is 15 and Andrew is 9. Erwin reminds me so much of my cousin Ben: loves surfing and plays the guitar. Andrew looks a lot like me when I was a kid and he talks ALOT(i think i was like that when i was young too). They seemed to enjoy their time here in CA and by enjoy I mean LOVE.

Right now I'm "finishing up" studying for my test tomorrow. I hope I do ok.

HEY! i just looked at my "goals for the week" and i FINALLY accomplished one. good job me. :)

dude it's freakin 230 already. i been playing that stupid spider solitaire game. i didn't even win. i dunno...just don't wanna go to bed. cheers to my insomnia....

For the past couple of Fridays, my friend Steph and I have been going to Borders in Montclair to study. The first time we went, we were pleasantly surprised to find out that they have live music there from 8-10 every Friday. Well, first we were annoyed because we were studying, but the band turned out to be pretty decent and good study music. They were called Reserved 16. Steph ended up buying a CD since it was only 8 bucks. We still can't figure out who they sound like...probably never will. This week this asian lady...we couldn't figure out her name and didn't bother to ask but she played the piano and guitar; first name was Korrene I think? She was also good. The music was good, but the lyrics were kinda eh to me.

Speaking of non-mainstream random music. My cousin introduced me to this Filipino band called Julie Plug. They sound exactly like Six Pence None the Richer...it's creepy. But they've got a slightly different sound. A little on the "harder" side...for lack of a better word cuz they're not exactly HARD. It's a nice break from some of the crap that's out there today.

I have been having phases of random tastes in music. The last few months I was into some indie rock stuff. Before that I was into country. I can't remember past that. Now I'm into soft, mellow, Jason Mraz-y music. You know...good study music.

Speaking of studying. I have been studying my ASS off this past week.
Monday: 3 hours on my ECM assignment---such boring, tedious busy work.
Tuesday: studied at the library from 7-1030.
Wednesday: went to school early and studied from 930-11, then studied from 5-7
Thurs: library from 630-10
Friday: school studying from 1-5; Borders studying from 7-10

INSANE!!!! I've never studied this much ever. I have to do this until June haha. Hope I can keep it going.

Random news that may not be important to you but is to me:
1. I scored a 74% on qbank yesterday! (but today i scored 50% haha)
2. there's another girl who's pregnant in my class now(my friend katie is the other one)
3. I downloaded the Sound of Music soundtrack!
4. Lost was awesome on Wed.

ahh an afternoon off. but i don't want to study.

my dad and his family are in CA for the week. my sister matess is va-k-ing with them. i talked to them last night and it sounded like she was having a lot of fun at disneyland. i'm glad, cuz she doesn't usually do much during the week. sux cuz i have school, i can't go with them.

so this week i'm trying to get my studying done. i did really well last night. i went to the library from 7-1030 and then this morning i studied boards stuff from 930-11. and once i get out of my afternoon funk i will study until lost and american dreams start. i can't tape both cuz they are both on at 8--too bad i don't have tivo.

i also started working out this week cuz i'm finally getting better and i'm not coughing as much. i bought the CORE workout ball thingie and videos. i worked out yesterday and i'm so sore today. my flank region, my ass, my hamstrings and pecs and arms. i did a light workout today. more of stretching. i hope i'm not too sore again tomorrow. haha i decided to start working out again b/c when i was sick, the constant coughing tightened up my stomach--so i'm trying to take advantage of that and keep my stomach tight haha. but right now i want to take a nap...
listening to: jason mraz-on love, in sadness

MFCKR!!! i blogged ALLLLLLLL this stuff about my week. And it got erased. I quit. Maybe some other time. SUCK!!! it took me like 10 minutes to write all that crap. aklsd;fjaksldfjsdlkafds

I GOT BANGS! the eyebrow waxing and the new haircut definitely put me in a better mood. next mission: drinks and sushi!

this fucking sux. :( i don't want to be sad anymore!!!! i can't call him, email, IM, ANYTHING. i hate not knowing him. stupid crap dsafjklasjfklsfrielajfkfdsad. this is wack.

so i'm blogging again. why may you ask? well, i'm single now and have oodlees and oodles of time to think about life---which i should actually spend STUDYING FOR BOARDS, but hey, i'm on spring break and i'm gonna relax dammit!(well, just until tuesday)

i'm in san diego right now staying at my cousin's house. it's nice to get away, even though i'm not doing anything very different from what i do at home. if you think about it, it's really like a 2nd home to me. we went to go watch hitch tonight. cute cute movie...kinda gives you hope---for those of us who are hopeless.

i just noticed that i don't follow grammar rules. i wonder how many people that bugs. hehe. fragment! oh no! :D

ahh finally something to blog about. 4 things actually.
1. went to see the body worlds exhibit at the calif. science center on tuesday. AWESOME. and not just from like someone who would naturally be interested in that kind of stuff. it was very educational and the dissections/specimens were INSANE. my personal favorites were the severe scoliosis and the pregnant woman.
2. later that night, i finally went to the indie night at the in cahoots club in riverside. kyle's been raving about it for months now and i could never go b/c it's a tuesday night and i always had school the next day. anyway, i thought it was pretty cool/interesting. the main reason i wanted to go was to see the ppl dance. the majority of the ppl weren't dancing all that different from how I'd dance. but they do this dance where you like step and flail your arms about...kyle thinks it's cool in it's own weird way, but...i dunno i can't do it haha. the vibe was totally chill; only a select few low self esteem girls trying to get attention by showing their bras. but bottom line was that it was just a place to have fun. i didn't get the huge feeling that everyone was there to hook up. the music was ok. i danced to a few songs. OH and the cool thing is it's $1 well drinks ALL NIGHT. i didn't drink that much cuz i was driving but you can order like 10 drinks at a time. lol.
3. i tried roscoe's chicken and waffles for the first time ever. we went to the hollywood one last night before watching les miserables at the pantages. it was SO SO good. i got the chicken w/ gravy and onions and 2 waffles. yum yum yum. service was fast, food was good. i give it an A.
4. watched les miserables FINALLY and i loved it. not as good as RENT but it was really good. the cast was very talented, especially the guy that played jean valjean. great night.
anyway, hope everyone is having a great holiday. the mountains are all green now after the rain. love it.
happy new year!

i think i'm addicted to TV. i love it. hehe. so tonight's NYPD blue was really good. i never really watched the show before this season, but it's really good. another show that deserves mentioning is desperate housewives. so good. it's different and quirky. Everwood and ER top off the list of shows i'm loving this season. The ones that I watch that are just "eh" are Joey, the Apprentice, Smallville, Scrubs.
I hate reality shows....and yet why are they so addictive? It's really sad that NBC has only 3 sitcoms on their lineup(joey, WG, scrubs). They have like 3 Law and Orders, and from what I hear are adding another one!! L and O is good, but c'mon! I would to get into "Lost", but it's just too much to watch for me. I will watch the DVD when it comes out. And I'm still waiting for the end of season 6 for Sex and the City.
Do you see how this is problematic for a med student? Damn TV!! I'm just lucky I don't have cable...could you imagine?

i got addicted to ANOTHER show...possibly 2 shows(but i doubt it). I watched the end of Kevin Hill and it was cute, but i doubt i'll watch it. then i watched the encore presentation of the pilot for Desparate Housewives. it was really good. it's just quirky and you kind of just laugh at their lives; but at the same time it's sad cuz none of them are happy. OH and there are 2 pieces of eye candy in there...the lawn boy and the neighbor guy. yum. there's also a mystery tied into the whole story. it starts out with one of their friends killing herself...and the dead friend narrates the show. so i think as the season goes, they are gonna try to piece together why she killed herself. there's something in their backyard, in the pool. the day that the lady killed herself she got a letter saying "i kno what you did. i think it's horrible. i'm gonna tell." and it's interesting that 2 of the actresses who played characters in everwood(as the main dr.'s dead wife--who by the way is the dead friend in this show, which is weird and the main dr's love interest who is HIV+) are in this show. and the writing style is similar(everwood used to have a narration for each show too) and it doesn't take itself too seriously. :)

the BAD thing about that is it's on sundays---before my tests!!! and i also watch american dreams now too. i'll just have to tape them.

so that's my life right now cuz i hate school and so i escape into my boob tube.

ahh wow haven't blogged in a long time. i just thought today was a blog-worthy day. This weekend has been great so far. It started off on thursday night b/c I decided to ditch Friday's classes.

Thursday-took a nice long nap, headed over to sheila's to watch the debate and Joey and W and G. Ate some burger king, popcorn, and had some wine. Then Kyle came over and spent the night. Nice and relaxing.

Friday-Woke up and drove Kyle home so he could work out. I vegged in front of CABLE tV for about an hour and watched the end of Matrix Revolutions/Reloaded? whichever one is the 2nd one. Then we went to the mall to get my car alarm fixed. We ate at Sbarro---which was NOT worth the 16 bucks Kyle paid for 3 slices of pizza, a salad and 2 drinks. boo. The pizza was cold and bleh! Then we stuck it to the man by movie hopping--2 for 1 deal haha. We watched Collateral(8) and Shaun of the Dead(7). Awesome acting by the main characters. Then we ate dinner at Hooters. The wings were YUM...altho I dunno, the hooters girls were a little unsettling. I felt the "feminist" in me cringe....and that's a pretty small feminist. Afterwards we met up with some people at Deer Creek Lanes for some Karaoke. Only sucky people were there, so I actually got up and sang! I sang "when you say nothing at all" by alison krauss(love her). Then I went home and slept.

Saturday-Today, my family from SD and from Glendale came to visit and we ATE AND ATE AND ATE. My God-daughter is SO FRIGGIN CUTE. She can say "ninang" now, which is Godmother in Tagalog...and so she calls my cousin, Novette and I, "ninang." I will try to post a pic of her later on in the week. After everyone left, I went with Kyle to his friend's daughters Christening party. I got to eat some Dippin' Dots! and played poker. I could have won 50 bucks tonight! I was in the top 2 both rounds, but I choked. Boo!!!!! So close. I can get up to the top, just can't finish it off. It's ok. I'm still learning how to play, and it's only gonna get better. :)

Sunday-Tomorrow will be spent RELAXING and then I might go to Temple Bar for my friend's fundraiser.

Song of the moment: Sunday Morning-Maroon 5

which one are you? :P

FINALLY!
Pictures from Europe

finally something blog worthy....i just found out that ralph fiennes is going to play lord voldemort in the 4th harry potter movie. woohoo! good casting. trying not to get too worked up over the movie.

and since i'm here. i moved into my new apartment this past week. i'm finally all moved in so that makes me happy. it feels good to live alone. i start school on monday and then the whirlwind begins. hopefully i do well. i'm uploading my pictures onto shutterfly right now and hope to be done by monday....
out...

here's something i blogged on another page...and it's apretty good, but really short summary of my europe trip:

sorry i haven't blogged. i'm in europe...amsterdam to be exact. yes i went to a coffee house and yes i had a space cake and then some. all in good fun. just wanted to write a quick hello and give greetings from the land where bikes always have right of way above everything including people, where you can go window shopping for women 24 hours/7 days a week and where the MJ is tolerated/legal. here's one interesting part of my tour; last night i watched a live sex show. and that's exactly what it was....it was live, there were people having sex on stage for show. pretty crazy. i watched people on stage having sex; different people....for a whole hour. there were strippers also.

highlights of the trip: white water rafting in austria, staying on top of mount pilatus in switzerland-the view was awesom, Paris-all of it, Italy-all of it, the friendly people in the Netherlands, all the new friends i've made on my tour.

bittersweet things on the trip: laying on the beach in nice at the french riviera...the beach was all rocks; mountain biking through the austrian tyrol...it was raining and cold; the tuscan dinner in florence....the crappiest bathroom i have ever seen was in florence (it was 4 ft by 4 feet and nothing dividing the shower, toilet, sink and bedette)

sucky things on the trip: shnitzel(me no likey), veal sausage(blech), all french food that is bland as all hell, walking an hour to find a crappy place to eat, paying for water, eating bread for breakfast for 21 days and getting irritated at your friends cuz you've been on the road for 21 days.

going home in 2 days!
take care all
i added some stuff. that's all i'm gonna write about my trip cuz man it's too damned long to type it all out and my memory sux. :D

back from europe! i wrote a journal, so whenever i am not busy or lazy, i'll write a little summary about europe...i guess. i'm not promising anything. i will be posting pictures on this one site and i'll put the link up as soon as i'm done.
listening to: all you wanted-michelle branch

i leave for europe today...23 day whirlwind tour of middle to eastern europe. no spain...que lastima. but it'll be my first trip there so i'm lookin forward to it. :)
looking fwd to: meeting new ppl, seeing new sights, buying new things, eating new food.

not looking fwd to: living out of a suitcase, having a limited wardrobe....that's about it.

i don't think i'm gonna say much about the 3rd installment to the Harry Potter movie franchise. i'll do pros and cons.

pros: alfonso cauron(AC) definitely did a great job pulling the characters out of the kids, the cast is awesome--good casting esp. sirius black, peter petigrew. the cinematography was really good and the "new" setting and scenery was somewhat refreshing. added some new scenes esp. the dormitory scene w/ the boys.

cons: it was too short in that there was alot left out in the story. he added some weird stuff for 'comic relief' that just made it cheap--the pink lady and the shrunken head on the knight bus...wtf? it was missing some central aspects of HP history with harry's dad's friends. story was out of order somewhat. i can understand some of the changes...but stuff seemed thrown in--firebolt at the end??? and what about the last shot of harry at the end...seemed gay.

ok that's it...i could rant on about it...but i'm still trying to figure out if i liked it or not. i can't get away from the thought that he left out such huge parts that lead up to the next book and the history that gives the story depth and emotion. *shrug*

let's just say that life is ironic....and i think there is such a thing as karma....

the time is upon us again that we are to be blessed by the next installment of the harry potter movies. i'm really excited about this one because it is the best book out of the series. i'm also worried because i've been hyping it up in my head so much that maybe i will be disappointed and thats' why i'm TRYing to stay grounded.

i signed up for "hello" which allows me to post pictures on my blogsite for free. :) so be on the lookout for pictures.

listening to: thinking bout my ex-janet jackson

random thoughts
1. why is brad pitt so hot even tho he's 40?
2. why does emma watson(hermione) have a crush on brad pitt...a 40 year old man who's probably old enough to be her FATHER!
3. why does money suck so much when you don't have it?
4. what's up with all these sister powerhouses (ashley/jessica simpson, halley(is that her name?) and hilary duff)...are they all just trying to be like the olsens....it's seriously freaky b/c they all sound the same.
5. gee i hope the olsens don't start singing....that would make them 10 times the nightmare they are now!

check out my picture taking skills! 

just got back from SD. had a really good time and it lifted my spirits. it's always great when family steps up and makes you feel better. i spent time with my cousin and went picture happy in coronado cuz i got my new digital camera. it was cool cuz it was totally spontaneous. i woke up monday morning and my cousin called me asking me if i wanted to come down and i was like, "why not?" so i packed up and drove down there with my sister. my cousin made some super nachos---yum! then we ate at a japanese food place and had coffee in downtown SD; watched ever after and you got served(haha so funny and cheesy); went to coronado; took a nap and had coffee. good convo and just good chillin time.
listening to: the corrs-what can i do

omg haha i just saw the funniest video...so glad i was at my cousin's who has cable internet cuz it's 12 MB. click on the link below and then scroll down a couple of blogs on the site and download the video. it's supposed to be set in canada or something.

V-unit for life!

do you ever feel like you're not the best person you could be? i mean i know we're all works in progress, but today was just such a bad day to be christina day. and not in the sense that "oh my life sux" but more like, "i suck." i feel like i'm handling all these aspects of my life in the wrong way. i don't really know whats "wrong" or if anything is truly wrong with my life or with myself. maybe i'm just bored and making drama for myself but sometimes i feel like such a dumbass weak, passive person and/or irrational, confused, needy person. i don't like it. maybe i should just stop beating myself up and just live. i want to go to europe already...just want to escape for a while. i kinda feel like going to the beach all by myself and chill there and people watch. altho i could see it getting really depressing and lonely. haha you can tell i have no school because my blogs aren't about how much i have to study or anything about school....it's just about my life and the way i choose to live it. ah, better go to sleep now and end this weird blah day. thanks for those who offerred a sympathetic ear and supportive words.

g'night all

everyone has issues right? so my issue is fear of rejection from my mother. it's a pretty screwed up situation in my head. like, i'm forced to do things i don't want to do sometimes because i'm afraid that she'll get "mad". it seems like such a silly fear. i hate myself sometimes because of it because i let myself down for my mother's "approval." the thing that bothers me is that this all is blown out of proportion in my head and that my mom and i don't really understand each other and possibly never will. it makes me sad. i don't really know how it got this way, or what i can do to fix it, but i have been trying to be more assertive and trying to communicate better. that is how it is on my end. i don't really know how she's feeling on her end, but at least i hope i'm trying my best. still sad...

wooh what a weekend. it all started thursday....

thursday: dr. jason flores' graduation party
location: 330 in Brea

the red head couldn't go so i went solo. i was a little bit nervous b/c i hadn't seen these people in over a year but i was also excited. when i got there, it looked like the place was closed cuz there wasn't anybody there(this was at 8:30)...but around 930 or 10 a throng of filipino people flooded in. it was a UCR reunion. i saw people i hadn't seen in like 3 or 4 years. the place was cool, small but nice. it had pool tables and the DJ played good music. a good mix of new songs with GOOD old school stuff...old school being from the early 90s hehe. so my evolution peeps and i danced the night away. i only spent 7 bucks cuz 2 people bought me drinks. woohoo! great way to kick off the summer right? it gets better....

friday: dirrty dozen beach birthday(tenli, darla and katie--the summer babies)
location: bolsa chica state beach

...and by babies, i mean babies. these three are the youngest ones in the group and all were turning 23. i was a little worried b/c it was a chilly morning. the red head and his friend mikey aka miles got there at 230...30 minutes after everyone was supposed to get there...and no one was there. so mikey and the red head boogie boarded while i lay out to get warm cuz it was a bit chilly. gracy came first and we ate some of her "pound cake" pastries. then everyone else came with more food, drink and fun. most of the DD were there except for Sheila who was up north. we had a bonfire with s'mores!! katie gave me some pointers on boogie boarding and there was this hard core dude w/ a chainsaw to cut up the wood! AND i didn't even get dark! woohoo!! i got home around 12...and i helped my mom pack til about 2am...woo...hoo. haha

saturday:lisa and anthony's wedding--how can i top that???
Universal City Sheraton Hotel

the morning was spent packing again...this is the first wedding i've been to where i actually know the couple pretty well. lisa is my cousin so i've known them for a while. it was one of the best weddings i have ever been to. the ceremony was great...the songs they picked for the church were songs i would have picked (seek ye first which is a hymn but is sang to canon in D--as she walked in; you are mine, another favorite hymn of mine); her dress was soooo like a dress i would have picked and she looked beautiful. the set up was very simple but it was very classy. the reception was just as perfect. they had it at the sheraton in universal city in the roof/garden room with a view of the city. the video/slideshow, which was done by her brother mark was very well put together and while it would have been cheesy if a professional stranger would have done it, it came off really genuine and sweet. during the father of the bride(FOB)'s speech, i almost started crying...and during the FOB and the bride's dance, i almost started bawlin'. the waterworks were a'flowin' it was open bar w/ wine and beer...which was fine with me, but in addition one of the emcee's brought a bottle of tequilla...and well i took 2 shots and was good for the night. the dancing was cool...the red head, as usual, danced his ass off and blew away my relatives w/ his crazy skills haha and i danced my ass off too. it was great! food was good, music was good, people were good...GOOOD. oh and i met a dr. who practices pediatric ENT in the philippines. i hope to shadow him whenever i go to the phil again. drove home and passed out.

Sunday:Mom leaves for the Philippines
location: LAX and the madness that is the Tom Bradley Terminal

i helped my mom finish up packing. then we drove to LAX where we found out, the carryon luggage has to be at most 20 pounds. my mom's bags topped out at 30 pounds...hmm...how to shed 10 pounds of luggage and still have enough clothes for my mo to wear in the phil. so in line we were trying to figure out what she could salvage. in the end it all worked out. i'm glad my mom is getting a va-k. she'll have a bun0ch of fun. afterwards, my sis and i went to eat at garden cafe in rowland heights. it was a cool sister moment w/ matess. :)

Monday(tomorrow): Farewell Brunch for Sheila and Melissa (it never stops....)
location: BC Cafe

WOOHOO i am now officially a 2nd year medical students. congrats to WesternU's class of 2007 for finishing their first year of medical school. now it's time to PAAAAAARTY!

hmm i guess i'll be going out with confusion on this test. i don't know many things. i hope i can just pass...cross your fingers!

woohoo!! my cousin just called and said we got our itinerary for europe! double woohoo! last test of the year tomorrow and then i'm officially a 2nd year med student! according to jason that means i have received the D for my D.O.(each character equals a year, i.e. by 3rd year i'll have me D.O and the last . i will get 4th year hehe)
triple woohoo party thursday friday and saturday!!

A funny and yet, sadly relatively true account of the plight of "premeds"...
SDN FAQ

hey all...just thought i'd say i had a not so good night. it was frustrating, expensive and anticlimactic. don't go to ivar ever. it's not worth the 20 bucks or the wait.

woohoo woohoo!!! going out to hollywood tonight for the first time in a LONG time. it's almost summer! I can't wait. Happy Birthday to Sheila and Shefali!!!

woohoo i figured out this comment thing. yay

i can't figure out this comments thing...blah

so i added a comments section to the blog. just testing to see if it works....

so i totally did the whole complaining about my bf hanging out with his friends jealousy thing today. it sucked but my feelings were hurt. it just came out of my mouth and after i said it was like ugh you're dumb! so yeah. i just thought it unfair that he said he needed to finish his reading and that's why he can't come over....when he has allll day tomorrow, wed, and thurs to do the reading. but he wants to play bball all day and hang out so he needs to do his work at night. it pisses me off cuz he's just gonna say sorry later. whatever. i don't wanna see him now anyway.
listening to: elaborate lives-aida soundtrack

two studies demonstrate a modest but unmistakable shift toward hedonism between the freshman and junior years of medical school.... students became less concerned with achievement and less intellectually curious and became more impulsive, agressive, and interested in play...students become more self-indulgent, cynical, agressive, and confrontational over the course of medical school.

oh how true that is. :( i'm so there. 2.5 more weeks of school and i'm itching to get out. i can't friggin wait.

so i realized/noticed something today. 3 people on their blogsites said that love actually was not a good movie. one of them said it was one of those it's so bad it's good....and the other 2 just thought it was trash. So I'm like wondering...IS it a bad movie? I enjoyed it very much. yeah it's cheesy and romantic and also sometimes real...so i dunno why the bad reviews. granted, it's only 3 people, but so how come they don't like it? *shrugs* i should really be worrying about my exam on monday...but the way i see it....i'm at an 89 cummulative....there's no way i'm gonna break a 90 with this 1 exam right? i'm lazy.

wow haven't really blogged in a while...like a real blog. Anyway, I'm at home on a Saturday night which is just fine with me. I just finished rewatching Love Actually...jolly good british movie. it's good stuff. has all the emotions built into it and leaves you feeling grateful for the love that you do have in your life.

haha the fly that has been following me just landed on my computer screen and i was flailing my hands about and my sister was like "Ate(sister in Tagalog)?" in a very concerned tone heehe. She musta thought i was crazy....especially since i looked like a crazy woman.

i dunno, i've been up and down lately. going between wish i had more time to spend with family, and wish i had more ambition to do better in school, get involved more. i've learned alot about myself this year....which i guess is good cuz you should constantly be learning about yourself as you grow older. i've learned that i'm impatient....my mouse sensitivity is so high, when i'm on my computer or fixing a computer i'm very quick about everything and i just click away....i want things now. maybe because of that i miss things around me that i should notice. life's a journey not a destination....

i also learned that i am totally the secretary....for the 2 groups that i've been in, both behavioral med and this other group i have been the one to pull out my computer and type away. and i enjoy it. i was watching 13 going on 30 today...jennifer garner is charming in it btw...but she was a magazine editor....i think i would be awesome at that. editing ppl's stuff, organizing pictures and formattting the magazine. so i'm adding that to my dream jobs in case i don't make it through this whole medicine thing.

kyle's been having a streak of bad luck after a streak of good luck that he had one weekend. he got a new job and car....but shortly after that, he learned that there is a postponement in starting the job b/c the city council hadn't voted on it or something....so he's sort of out of work. in addition to that his car has been having tiny things wrong with it and everytime he brings it in, nothing seems to get done. poor thing.

lindsay lohan on snl tonight....i do wish she'd stop wearing so much damned make-up. she's pretty just the way she is. and she needs to fire her hairstylist...me no likey. but i'm still a fan. speaking of....go see mean girls...good stuff.

i'm done rambling now....pendelum swings......

Are you bored and want to be so frustrated that you pull your hair out?
The Crimson Room

i don't have time to blog about much...but throughout the year i have been without a couch. my living room is just that...a room haha with stuff. anyway, so i got a good deal on a couch and a bookshelf...couch=40, bookshelf=25.....not having to sit on the floor=priceless!

grhdsareogfjadoipfdsifdjasadsifaolj;! what is wrong with me/kyle? why do i need so much friggin attention? why is he so grumpy? ok you're sick...but like why are you gonna call me, only to half watch law and order and not listen to anything i say? and you know what therapy and self help books do? they just make you think more and more....and it's like wtf. this one self help book i was reading was making me feel like everything was on me...and in conjunction with that my therapy is all about...you can only change one person...and that's yourself so you have to change the way you react to things. FUCK THAT can ppl just change the way they treat me? i dunno maybe i shouldn't have skipped my session today but i had to take care of some shit. i'll call to reschedule tomorrow. it helps me look at things differently but i'm also stubborn and want my own way. i dunno why i'm so frustrated...it's over a 5 minute conversation that i had nothing to say in. like i don't even want to be around or talk to him when he's grumpy. but then i just feel lonely. whatever. onto another week of school w/ 3 tests coming up. oh the joy of my life these days!!!
listening to: stoned-dido

this weekend sux. i have to study, kyle's in vegas, i am alone and can't even distract myself with anything fun.

ok you guys know that Damita Jo by janet came out today right? if not WHY NOT?! HAHA so i have to rate it. let me start by saying that I read 2 reviews, one was a rolling stone one and the other was a random one off of the internet and both said she was "trying too hard" and they didn't give very good reviews. They said that it sounds confused like she's having an identity crisis. The album is pretty much trying to convey her 'real side.' The reviewers criticized that this 'real side' is really fake blah blah blah and that she's trying to encompass all of pop by having all these styles on her album. As a fan, and perhaps I may be a biased and unconditional fan even though i consider myself as a pretty fair judge...but i digress. I feel that this album is much like her other albums, in sound, layout, expression etc. The subtle difference is that she has other funky beats in there but it still stays true to herself and her style. It's not her best album, but it's good. I also like the fact that she doesn't have as many interludes in this one.
Damita Jo-Janet Jackson: solid-excellent(7.9-8)
Tracks to check out: Thinkin bout my Ex, Island Life, My baby...those are the three that stick out to me right now...i was studying while listening to the CD so yeah hehe. But I found myself bobbin my head to a lot of tracks...you know what that means??? lotsa dancing on the tour!!!!

ok so...i'm supposed to be trying to work on handling my emotions and not letting things get to me....but atrrijkharegslkjsdfj;l

so i made plans to go to stateline to gamble w/ kyle and his brother. my mom IM's me today and is like when are you coming home cuz we're going to so and so's wedding tomorrow at 10. WTF?! why didn't she tell me before today. then sh'es like you knew about the invitation you just iddn't want to make plans WTF?! then she was like neverMIND. WTF?! WTF does she want from me????? tell me at least one week in advance...i didn't even know this person was getting married? she doesn't tell me a damn thing! now i look like a bitch cuz i didn't go to my God-daughter's 1st bday party which wasn't her fault but now everyone is gonna wonder why i didn't go to the wedding....and she's gonna say i'm off with my bf. i know it's not my fault and i can't convince my mom that i didn't do it on purpose but it's just so freakin frustrating that i don't even want to go home this weekend. seriously sometimes i just wish i cuold crawl into a hole and sleep there forever. now i have all this negative energy before i go gamble, which means that i will lose all my friggin money when i shouldn't be gambling in the first place. just shoot me now please.

so...ok let me explain something first. as you all know i am a harry potter freak. and i say "freak" because there is a great distinction between freak and fan.
fan: OH I LOVE THE BOOKS and/or MOVIES!!
freak: So, did you notice in the first book where Ron saw himself winning the Quidditch Cup....don't you think it's weird that in the 5th book he gets to play Quidditch and they win the cup?!

fan: Yeah I've seen all the movies. or Yeah i've read the books and I love them!!!
freak: Yeah, I just finished rereading OotP(Order of the Phoenix) and now I'm rereading PoA(Prisoner of Azkaban) before the movie but I think I'll finish it way before the movie comes out!!! When is the next book coming out?

ANYWAY, being a HP freak....I only know of one other HP freak....I was rereading PoA and realized OMG! Cho Chang is introduced to us in this book. In a very slight and foreshadowing kind of way, but she's in it! And I was liek OOOOH she's gonna be in the movie!!! I wonder who they cast. I rush to the internet to do some HP research and what do I find out?! they're not even gonna PUT her in this movie!!!! they're waiting to GoF(Goblet of Fire-4) to introduce her. HOWEVER, they have started casting for GoF but still no news of who it is. I can't talk to potter fans about this...cuz well, they dont' really care. hehe. So I'm disheartened. OH another reason I was disheartened by Potter fans. This woman who is in my bf's class was talking about the next movie....and she pronounced Sirius Black as "Cyrus"...wtf now. And she claimed she "loves the books/movies." Granted, I used to pronounce Hermione as "her-me-own" instead of "her-my-o-knee" BUT c'mon...that's a hard one right? Ok i'll get off my ranting....

listening to: lonestar-front porch looking in

Finally, I can relax. I spent my spring break worrying about studying and doing errands for my mom. I just finished cleaning my room and am now relaxing.

But the coolest discovery of the week is that in the next HP movie.....we get to meet Cho Chang! The first girl Harry likes. :D I'm excited hehe. 2 more months!

Alright I'm gonna lay on my bed and veg....

Watching: The Simpsons. They're playing old school episodes where the drawings look all weird hehe.

so my mom got a new dog and named it after her ex bf/bf....how gay is that? STUPID. i wanted to name it Dobby hehe. Or something Harry Potter related. 2 more months!!! I can't wait!!!

i feel lost. it's almost 12 i should sleep but i don't feel like it...plus i dont feel like waking up tomorrow morning either. i'm stuck to my chair and have no inclination to do anything. what's wrong with me. i did however manage to study for almost 4 hours at starbucks....so perhaps i deserve the break. but i CAN'T be late tomorrow cuz my new OMM fellow is really anal and will kick my ass if i'm not on time. OH WELL boo on him.

listening to: the whir of my computer

Someone on my blog group blogged this. seriously, WTF?!

I thought I should share this with you guys. A customer sent this letter to my coworker. OMG. Too funny. And disturbing too!



Nice to meet you online! Good place gives me to talk with you.

Per our conversation, oh! This was second conversation between you and me. I think, you are very very kind to me and give me great help and support I needed. Because it is the first time for my company to attend the Glass, Window & Door sponsored by GlassBuild America, I received a CD about Exhibitor Service Kit from NGB but so many pages enclosed made me confused, and further more I am very busy that no time for me to read them carefully and just scan what I need when I will do the things. Therefore, I usually phone Freeman for help according to my need and what I scan in the Kit. That was the reason that God gave me two good chances to meet you in the phone. Meanwhile, in our conversation, your melodious voice gave me perfect acoustic enjoyment. Your accent is pure, sweet and soft so that it attracted me very much and gave me enjoyment. How I wish to talk with you for so long time! From your sweet and beautiful voice, I guess you must be a beautiful girl, and an active and lovely person as well. This time I phoned you and you immediately recognized my voice and named me Pat Power Kim, at that time, I was so excited by your naming me that from the other half globe there is one good and beautiful girl knowing me. At that right time from my inward feeling, I did thank you very much indeed and meanwhile like you and love you. Would you mind my favor and love? I just want to say out what I feel to you in my heart. Please don¡¯t mind my like and love to you. If God knows my feeling, maybe he will love you as well because you are one of the helpful and kind ladies. I eager to see what lady you look like, in my imagination, maybe you, charming face, middle height, and are blonde with white color skin, blue eyes with long lash and high bridge-nose. Those are my judgment according to your sweet and beautiful voice. Would you mind sending me your photo by email? Ok! Those are what I feel to you.

I appreciate your kindness and great support & help.

Looking forward to your early reply.



Very Best Regards,



Pat Power Kim

i just got back from a PCHAT clinic. i feel really good after each one. i feel like we are doing something important for the community; for people who can't afford healthcare....at least i hope we do.

i saw the passion of the christ last night. and i can only describe it using one word: powerful. even if you are not Christian, this story and its message is just so....powerful. you can feel Jesus' pain and what he went through...and just like Jesus, you wanted it to stop, but knew that it can't and that it will get much worse. hopefully this movie creates a discourse among the religious community and help us understand each other's religions more. i for one, am curious to learn aobut jewish beliefs since i've never really known and this movie has made me wonder. so there you go. :)
listening to: perfect girl-sarah mclachlan

turns out the test wasn't THAT bad. it's funny the redhead says i freak out everytime before a test; saying that i don't know where to start and i REALLY don't know if i'm gonna do well this time. but at the end of my studying process i'm usually pretty calm and feel like i'm ready. either that or i'm in the "fuck it i can at least pass" mode and everything is ok. i ended up getting an 80% on it which is good. but my nerd-ass wants a higher grade....of course. but i'm still satisfied b/c i was sick, and i didn't study that much. just gotta try harder the next 3 exams!!! i want as close to an A as possible. :) i'm a nerd!

i'm freaking out. at least my stomach is....i REALLY REALLY don't think i'm going to do well on this test at all. I was sick half of Monday, all of Tuesday and half of Wednesday. It is now Thursday and I feel better, but what did I do? I watched TV, now that was my bad. NOw i feel sick to my stomach and want to throw up. Tomorrow is Friday, ,which will be spent all day at school. Review from 1-2 and tutoring from 2-4. Let's freaking hope my tutoring session is the best one I've ever had because after that I have 2 days to learn all the crap I haven't learned yet, which is like 70% of the shit! I cannot fail this test. Now my middle finger of my left hand is numb. See, freaking out.

listening to: Time-Sarah MacLachlan...this is how freaked out I am..that name looks weird to me. please someone put me out of my misery.

(i must be feeling better. i'm complaining about studying and overreacting)

Don't you just LOVE it when you're sick? The aches, the pains, and the chills! it feels WONderful. Not to mention the incessant coughing and runny nose, which can only be topped by the resultant headache!!! Then going to urgent care to get it checked out and waiting for 2 hours?! only to find out that i could have diagnosed myself. AWESOME! woohoo! I love today!

not much time to blog... i had fun in reno:
cheers: discovered that blackjack is a fun game, awesome italian restaurant in Harrah's called Cafe Andreotti, the Chef's Buffet at El Dorado(the redhead and i probably ate a plate and a half of shrimp cocktail) for only 15 bucks!! free drinks at the tables!
boos: lost all the money i brought :(, southwest sux! haha
but it was all well worth it

listening to: josh grobans new CD-Closer

Woohoo!!! I'm going to Reno today for Vday. I've never been, and despite the fact that I've only heard "not so good" things about it when I do mention Reno, I think I'll have a blast anyway. The red head and I are gonna learn how to play craps, I'm gonna teach him how to play Pai Gow and HOPEfully we can win some good money!!!

Another WOOHOO! for Europe! My cousin and I are in the process of closing up our itinerary for Europe. They just need to confirm this one promotion for 50% off the flight. I'm so excited and yet so guilty about spending so much friggin money, but it's ok. I'm sure it will be a totally worthwhile experience.

See Friday the 13th isn't so bad.....*knocks on wood*(as it is only 918 in the morning haha)

i feel frustrated. the past week was a whirlwind of confusion. we had a different schedule and i felt lost all the time. unfortunately, we're back to the same routine, but a new system so i'm just as lost as when i was last week. i don't know which books i should buy, i dunno what i'm doing. other reasons why i feel so frazzled is i'm trying to plan all this stuff and take care of all this crap like the europe trip, my loan, my taxes and fafsa application, my application for preceptorship this summer(which i haven't even gotten to), and kyle and i planned to go to a kings vs ducks game on the 29th and i find out today that it's my God-daughter's 1st bday party. WTF? What am I supposed to do? The game was planned for months, but the bday is her FIRST bday...and i missed the last one. ugh! the guilt and i'm torn but i promised i'd go to the game and the tickets are paid for....but i feel bad for missing out on the party. i guess that's what is frustrating me the most. it's no one's fault but dang!!! why couldn't it have been on the Saturday???

One good piece of news today is that my loan is being processed and my money should be here soon! We're buying the Europe tickets on Wednesday! woohoo! then i'll have a lot of my worries out of the way. i should stop whining huh. oh well.

listening to: mean old man--james taylor

another random thought....
so i was watching tv and they were showing those sushi places where you eat the sushi off some girl....do you understand how disgusting that is????? do you know how much bacteria is on your skin? the potential fungi, dirt, etc on ppl's skin???? GROSSS

i'm bored....
so i'm watching the grammy's and thinking....britney's not nominated; and for good reason. i was watching justin timberlake performing and playing the piano. he's a talented ass man. then thinking about christina aguilera and how she was nominated and she won for her song "beautiful." i don't think britney is considered a serious artist. just some flashy entertainer. i mean her album is decent...but not much substance per se. there's like one song on there that has any soul. perhaps she's just trying to find herself and once she does she will make better music? random random thoughts....

the past week i've felt unmotivated and BLAH! we have two tests coming up next week. one is for anatomy, the other is our first system exam for dermatology. i think it's because it's our first exam in a long time and i just really don't feel like studying. we have less class time which, i think, makes me even lazier. i have more time to goof off and thus i goof off even more. it's such a sad cycle i have. and i'm always whining. what's up with that? i wonder if i will ever grow out of that.

so today i planned to watch must see tv until 11pm...which is about right now. but 60% of it was reruns. so since i hadn't planned on studying i didn't. which is really sucky and sad but i wanted to relax. nevertheless, despite my slackerness i think i will do ok on the exams. it would be great if i was super motivated and could really just ace everything. but i like having a life. i like relaxing. what i DON'T like is the guilt that comes with it. it's a stressful relaxation despite all my efforts to "relax." I have been making time to work out, and I don't really feel guilt with that. So with the hope of being a good student for 2 hours, I am planning on going to Starbucks tomorrow morning and studying until class at 11. lets hope that happens. i have to leave here by 815 so i can get to starbucks by 830...study til 1030 and go to class. pray for me.....

listening to : no me ames-j/lo and m/anth haha

today...i ditched class(oooh!) to watch a taping of Will and Grace. it was really fun! Totally worth ditching 3 lectures. :) It was a whole day process but it was a nice break from the monotany--trying to extend my "vacation" mentality for as long as i can. the only thing that sucked is that debra messing and megan mullaly weren't there. debra messing is pregnant so they had to cut her work hours...so they split the plotline tapings up and added an extra day of taping. so it was basically a tradeoff...it was just will and jack or nothing at all haha. when they came out i was like WOW they're good looking. i think something about meeting them in person makes them look even better b/c i was never really attracted to sean hayes...but he looked good! and so did erick macormak--yeah i kno i'm screwing up all the spellings of their names but oh well. yeah he looked good too! so now i can understand how kyle could say that ali landry is "perfect"...cuz when they're all make-uped out...and when they look good on TV anyway...they look phenomenal in person! the only celeb i've seen up close is janet...and since i'm not attracted to women i don't think i got the whole effect of it. now, let me meet orlando bloom or someone else i think is fine...i can't think right now i'm on my way to bed....then MAN will i go friggin crazy!!! haha i'm starstruck how lame!

tomorrow's lab is gonna suck ass! we have to bisect the skull...yummmmmm. and go through all these structures. i wonder if we can do it in 2 hours...i hope i don't have to stay for the whole 3 hours. oh well, better than having to go to lab 3 days this week...i only have to do 2 labs....but one is Friday. stupid anatomy!

listening to: walking in memphis-lonestar

last night my friends and i had a sleepover to cheer up one of my friends who just broke up with her boyfriend. it was a lot of fun. we just watched friends, the apprentice and ER...oh and sex and the city. it was fun cuz it's been a while since i've slept over somewhere...just like in jr. high. i did have some trouble sleeping though.

so i've decided i'm going to europe! LONDON BABY! i'm gonna take a tour like my cousin novette did last year. i'm very excited. i still have to run it by my mom first...not for permission but just to tell her. so to fund this trip i'm gonna take out more money from school...SHHH! but yeah, so there ya go.

listening to: Stacy's Mom-Fountains of Wayne

new years resolutions:
1. study more efficiently---or stop procrastinating....this won't last
2. blog more...
3. work out at least 3 times a week(i started this before break, but Christmas came and it went out the door)
4. Be more aggressive and speak out more--CONFIDENCE!(work in progress...it's on my list every year)

i started school this week. it felt good to be back and to see my friends. what sucked was my car was wiggin' out. like the battery was "dead" and i couldn't start my car. i brought it to the shop, they charged the battery....a few hours later it wouldn't start again! this resulted in me missing margarita monday with the chicas and i was bummed. so today i had to get a ride from my friend and i brought my car to get fixed. and u know what the damn problem was? it was that the stupid battery was dirty...like corrosion or whatever. the guy was like "why didn't they clean this yesterday?". grr! and it's fixed now! so i finally went grocery shopping and now i can hopefully get into school mode and start working out again.

i'm trying to cut down on the carbs. i bought some lean cuisine meals that are low carb...it was 4 for 5 bucks which isn't bad at all. and i'm TRYING TRYING to cut down on carbs...but it's hard b/c i love potatoes and bread and sugar.

i also noticed that the stupid supermarkets don't help much when you're trying to lose weight and you're poor. everything they have on sale is fattening or bad for you. it's really disgusting.

i feel sluggish right now. i just ate some carl's jr. it was good...but i'm like ready to go to sleep now. i might go to sleep early...but it's only 7 for crying out loud!!

so i took out my chatterbox...well more like they took it away from me b/c no one was posting anything. what a sad sad site haha. sorry i don't blog more. i get busy and lazy all the time.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

so I'm finally done w/ all my shopping thank God. And all I've been doing for the last day is farting around. it's great cuz there's no guilt. i don't have ot worry about if i have to study or whatever. just good old farting around! i dunno what kyle got me. i'm very curious and i find out tomorrow!!! i'll let you all know...yeah the 2 ppl that read this site what i got. haha. anyway i'm hungry and i have to run at least one errand today. hasta!!

Not trying to push religion on anyone, or not trying to offend anyone...just thought i'd share. Have you guys heard of the Mel Gibson production about Jesus Christ's life? You can watch the preview on the second link...but i think u can watch on the first one too. Anyway, lemme know what you think of it. Supposedly it's ALL in Latin and/or Aramaic...with SUPPOSEDLY no subtitles. So all the images and score basically carry the movie. And i suppose if you're of the Christian denomination then you can probably infer what the character's are saying. I thought it was interesting though. Mel Gibson has an intro on it...and he addresses the Harvest Christians. What are Harvest Christians? I've seen the stickers etc...but never knew what they were about. So yeah....edumacate me if you can. :)

The Passion Official Site
The Passion Unofficial Site watch the 4 minute one.

p.s. i was just reading the unofficial site...the guy that wrote it is kind of dumb haha so don't take him all that seriously.

love actually....good stuff

wooh! i'm proud of myself! i studied at starbucks for 4 hours!! and i finished the carbohydrate packet for biochem!! 2 more packets to go. i plan to do fatty acid tomoorrow and finish up with amino acids on sunday! yay! cross your fingers. i wanna do REALLY well on this exam. but we'll see. well, i just wanted to report my accomplishments!! :)
listening to: "Under the Table and Dreaming"-by DMB---THE BEST DMB ALBUM AND BEST ALBUM EVER!

haha what a pathetic blogsite i have...well, i'm busy or lazy.

i had my last anatomy exam of the semester today....wooh! yeah i wasn't as prepared as i should be but whatever that's what "they" get for giving us a test after thanksgiving break. WOOHOO just found out we get free lunch tomorrow...PIZZA! yay!

so my new thing right now...i'm trying to work out at least 3 times a week. i have it SCHEDULEd in so i will stick to it. at least that is what the red head suggested. so here i go...pray that i stick to it and don't get lazy! i got a new sports bra...partly for the workout, but also for OMM---OH which btw i did really well on so I'm happy about that. right now i'm just relaxing..i have to organize my stuff and clean my room, but i think i will leave that for tomorrow. i will start studying biochem tomorrow....so i will have relax time this weekend...like i can go to the red head's for dinner on sunday and spend time w/ my family too.

3 more weeks til break...which means 3 more weeks for Christmas shopping. i think i've figured out what i'm gonna get the redhead for Christmas. I know what I'm getting my mom too....it's just my cashflow is deteriorating. arg...i think i only have 300 bucks left...boo. i might have to borrow some money from mom via the credit card.

Wow this is some serious rambling. I haven't rambled like this in a while...anyway, so i think i'm rambling b/c i miss the red head and wish he was here with me. man i wanna live with him so bad now...like i miss him at nights and he misses me in the mornings...it's no good. but that won't happen until like 4-6 years from now. Neither of us want to live w/ each other unless we're married. ohhhh well.

listening to....absolutely nothing!!! :)