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alternate study space
also known as A.S.S.

I have found it! Starbucks on Central is my new ASS!! For the last couple of days I've been going to Starbucks to study. It gets me out of the house, away from the internet and to studying. It's working for me so far so I think I will continue going there, ESPECIALLY if I'm not feeling motivated to study; which is EVERYDAY!

listening to: Will I-RENT OG broadway recording. it's the best!

this is what someone posted on this blog group i'm in. v. straaaange

[Tue Aug 26, 09:51:12 PM | Mac the Knife ]
hello everyone. i heard some interesting information on the radio this morning. apparently we will be able to see Mars clearer than we ever have sometime soon. but that is not the news i am talking about. what i heard was this lady talking about her belief that all Chinese people are Martians. it was very intriguing she belongs to a special "club" a cult you might say that believes that Chinese people are decendents of aliens. isn't that awesome? so when asked what the culture of aliens were she responded with they have a very asian influenced style. ummmm, k.........just thought i'd share this tidbit with the Chinese folk out there, apparently you guys are all aliens, and not the illegal kind either.

when in doubt, go to a study group session

that's the lesson of the day. i had a TOTALLY crappy day at school today. I think it was a mixture of frustration, being overwhelmed, fatigue and brain overload. BUT everytime I feel this way, and I think I'm gonna go crazy.....I go study w/ my group and I feel so much better! There's this group I study with and they're really cool. We discuss one subject and go over all the lectures to date and it really helps. I also need to bulk up on my studying alone time. I seem to find myself wasting time in my apartment. So what I'm gonna try this week going to A.S.S.(alternative study spaces) to a. get me offline, b. away from the tv, c. away from the phone(sort of) and d. to studying!! Hopefully it works out. We get out at 3 tomorrow, so I'm planning on going to starbucks either right after or something like that. Then tomorrow we're going to go to the HIP HOP class at the LA fitness in La Verne. WOOHOO! Dancing is awesome. Can't wait. Plus I think Novette is gonna go so good times will be had. Ok I gotta get ready for bed. Night all!

listening to: the whir of my computer

k i'm totally freaking out again. :( i slacked this week and will be paying for it this weekend. at least i have my embryo book now and i can catch up on that. anyway yeah i think this blog thing will be pretty much a rollercoaster of medschool. so it won't be v. interesting. oh well! time to opack to go home...hasta
listening to: ultimate-lindsey lohan(freaky friday soundtrack)

Feeling Better

I had study group today and it helped a lot. It's so different when you're actually prepared for study group. It goes along smoother. So hopefully this will motivate me to keep on top of things.

listening to: Painter Song-Nora Jones

hey all. it's the weekend!! woohoo. i had planned to study hard core today but it doesn't look like that's gonna happen. I mean some of my fellow students seem so much more gung ho than I am...like ppl are going to anatomy lab every day after class....just all this stuff. somehow i feel like i should be more into this studying thing. but, i guess i shouldn't compare myself to other people. but i'm scared that maybe i'm not studying enough even though i understand all the stuff i'm learning. i do think i should be reviewing more. there's a study group today that i'm going to. i dunno how exactly we're gonna study but i'm gonna make the effort to go. i hope it is helpful. i was just never good at group studying. i'm cool with studying with someone else or like 2 other ppl. but i think our group is like 6 people it's crazy.

anyway i gotta pack and get ready to go home...then i think i'll eat cuz i'm getting hungry.

listening to: some commercial on the radio...i just heard a song by outkast on kroq....so weird

FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!! and this is JUST for anatomy. insanity i tell you!! and oh yeah...DON'T PROCRASTINATE IN MED SCHOOL!!

listening to: my braincells hanging on for dear life

Well yesterday was my white coat ceremony which marks the beginning of my medical career and the end of my social life as we know it! haha. Nah it won't be but I will be remarkably busy. I'm scared that I won't be able to balance my personal and academic life but since I do have concerns about that already--even before I start--then maybe I will be concious of it and succeed in doing so.

I don't really have much to say....what have I been up to. OH i watched CSUSB's production of "Into the Woods". Considering it was a college play putting on a broadway play....I really really enjoyed it. The music was cool, the actors were great overall. Everyone except for maybe a couple of people could sing very well. I also watched "A Midsummer Night's Dream" there the next day, but I didn't enjoy it as much as ITW. My friend was in it and played Demetrius. He did a really good job. What killed the play for me was the girl who played puck mostly, the guy who played lisander(sp?) and a couple other ppl in the company(not b/c they couldn't act but b/c I really couldn't understand them; no offense to them b/c they were deaf but I just couldn't understand them on top of the shakespearean language). But I commend the casts of both b/c I know I sure as hell couldn't get up there and pretend I'm someone else and do a good job. :D

listening to: only you-112 f/ Biggie

i'm all moved in! it only took two days so i'm glad that it worked out ok. kyle's family helped me move my stuff in, along w/ darren. then at night my mom and sis came over and helped me clean. today novette came to visit me...my first visitor! and she brought some thai food...yum. it was really good timing cuz matess and i were getting hungry. it's fun setting up a new place. your old things find new places and everything is like new. :) i feel like i have stuff to do...but i havne't organized my head to think about it yet. perhaps i should make a list of things to do. i know i want to change my sprint plan and phone number...and i have to cancel the gas and electric in philly....but amy never emailed me back. then i just gotta get ready for school in general. orientation is in two days...craziness. then it's school like i've never had before. 8-4 everyday....WOOHOO! i'm SO looking fwd to it. bleh. hopefully it will be fun...but when is studying ever fun. *shrug* alrighty i'm gonna continue to take my lil weave thingie i got from seaworld out of my hair...it's annoying.
soundtrack: girl from ipanima--astrid gilberto

so i'm moving into my new apartment tomorrow. i'm tired from packing and i'm not even packing all that much. maybe i'm just tired at the idea of tomorrow being a long and tiring day. that's all the blog i can muster....prolly won't be blogging a lot anyway just b/c of school and what not...hey, you never know maybe i will.
playing in the background: finding nemo

woohoo SD for 4 days with kyle! and woohoo! missa got into nycom!! oh and woohoo harlem(sp?) lee chinese guy won on fame! woohoos for asians all around! it's been a good day except that i feel fat! boooo! anyway things calmed down at home and all is well. oh oh and today i got my graduation present from kyle's parents....they gave me an old school doctor's bag!! and a sphyngometer(bp cuff dealie, which i don't think i spelled it right), ear thermometer, dr. scissors and reflex hammer thingie hehe. it's awesome. although i dunno if i'll actually use it...cuz ppl don't use that stuff anymore...and what would i put in it? despite that it's dope!!

anyway i'm off to SD tomorrow...so won't really be blogging but i'll blog when i get back!

pendelum swings...altho not far from where i was at last blog when my blog got erased. i got in an "argument" and it was a stupid one that shouldn't even had happened. you know when your voices just get louder and louder and you don't really know why? anyway, so i withdrew 60 bucks from my discover card b/c the nail salon place would only take cash for my sister's mani/pedi and facial. i didn't have enough money in my bank so i took it out of my discover. yeah i could have withdrawn the money i was saving for rent...but i didn't know when i was going to sign the lease and didn't want to risk it. discover charges me 5 bucks! FIVE DOLLARS! for getting a cash advance. i was never aware of this ridiculous fee...i knew there was a fee of 1.50.....but add to that 5 dollars? ludicrous. so she tells me not to withdraw money from the discover card anymore....which c'mon now, just seeing that fee would tell anyone not to do that anymore. the convo following this is fuzzy, but all i remember is that i was trying to explain why i withdrew the money...it's a natural reaction esp since she asked why right? then she says i know and tells me a second time.....just don't take money out of your discover...next time just take 200 dollars out. would this confuse anyone? a little. so i'm not understanding her and i ask questions...she's getting more annoyed and irritated. why would i take 200 if she told me not to take money out of the card....she means take 200 out of my account....uh i don't HAVE 200 bucks to be taking out of my account. long story short it escalated into me yelling that i was just trying to explain to her what happened and her yelling that i always have something to say and that i can't just say "ok next time i won't take the money out of the card OR i will call the card next time to make sure there are no charges OR i will call the place next time to see if they take cash or not"...i distinctly recall me saying "OK" when she told me not to take money out of the card AND recall me THINKING "well i'm not gonna do that again." so what's the deal??

MY theory is she's frustrated at something else about me...right Dr. Phil? so why doesn't she just say it? i think she's frustrated about a lot of things....i'm moving out in a month, i spend a lot of time with kyle, i've changed since philly and am not afraid to TALK but she's afraid to LISTEN. judging from her ramblings when i finally decided to shut up since i knew she wasn't listening to me anyway, i think she feels inadequate as a mother and she's taking it out on me. she doesn't think i appreciate her and she thinks i think i'm better than her. there may be some validity in that but i never said it OUT LOUD...AND if she has a problem with it she should make changes in her life so she can feel better about herself, not taking it out on me. i'll admit i've gotten more selfish since getting back from philly but i think it's a good selfish. selfish enough to know i need to do stuff for me.

THEN i try to make ammends by deciding to call her consolidation company to inquire about her loans and fix stuff...so i ask her what her birth year is cuz they need that confirmation info......and she--does--not--answer. silent treatment all the way. now does anyone think i did anythign wrong for me to have to apologize? i didn't insult her...i was just trying to explain things, get answers, etc......the only reason my tone started changing was b/c hers did....and possibly the only thing i may be guilty of is not being the bigger person(right away) and letting her get to me. but seriously, do i deserve the silent treatment? perhaps not for this little incident...but for deeper things she's frustrated about? and i will close with the statement that my mother says that i'm always saying.......it's not my fault. and i really don't think it is.....

dammit i just spent all this time blogging about my weekend and the page messed up...i'm not writing it all over again. i'm going to sleep. fuckin yahoo pool messing up my internet shit...piece of crap!!!

i totally forgot to blog about the dolphins! at first i saw them when i was on shore...they were riding the waves...4 of them. then when i was out boogie boarding i spotted another group! it was so cool! oh and i guess i left out the details...we went to zuma beach which is up the coast from malibu. so much fun!

listening to: let me down easy--chris isaak

i went to the beach w/ melissa, andy and my cousin Ben. it was sooooo much fun! prolly the best time i have had at the beach. we got there kind of late...around 6. the sun was still up but it was kind of chilly. once i got in the water tho it was ok. the redhead let me borrow his boogie board and so i went out w/ that while my cousin surfed. dumbass that i am, i was riding the board upside down....so the nose went down and hit the sand...the board dug into my stomach and OUCH. so i went to lay out...then i went out on the surf board and tried that. i didn't get to stand up but it was fun just the same. when you catch the wave and just ride it...it's the best feeling in the world. it's a different kind of freedom that you can only get from either flying or something like that. it's awesome. i kneeled on a couple of waves. i also scraped my knees, swallowed some saltwater(yack!), went under a few times as well. and even tho there are aspects of the beach that i hate...the sand and the saltwater....i love the beach!

i'm too tired and lazy to blog about my beach experience today...this blog is basically a reminder for me to write about it....ni ni

who's bored? my fam reunion pics are up at www.novette.com

hey ok i LOVE LOVE LOVE this song off of DMB's Crash album....and I sing the words etc but i never knew what the song was about...but today I finally looked up the words to see if i could understand what the song is saying. I read it...and I'm STILL lost.

#41
Come and see
I swear by now I'm playing time against my troubles
I'm coming slow but speeding
Do you wish a dance and while I'm in the front
The play on time is won
But the difficulty is coming here
I will go in this way
And find my own way out
I won't tell you to stay
But I'm coming to much more
Me
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now
What if they came down crushing
Remember when I used to play for all of the loneliness that nobody
notices now
I'm begging slow I'm coming here
Only waiting I wanted to stay
I wanted to play,
I wanted to love you


I'm only this far
And only tomorrow leads my way


I'm coming waltzing back and moving into your head
Please, I wouldn't pass this by
I wouldn't take any more than
What sort of man goes by
I will bring water
Why won't you ever be glad
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
Why won't you run
in the rain and play
Let the tears splash all over you

Ok so what I gather from it, it is about a guy coming back to someone but that person doesn't want him back. I'm lost. Anyway it's a kick ass song even tho I don't get it. :D

watching: FRIENDS-TOW Dr. Drake Ramoray Dies
Chandler:...because he thinks I slept with his ex-girlfriend and killed his fish!!
Phoebe:Why would you kill his fish?
Chandler:Because sometimes, Phoebe, after you sleep with someone...you have to kill a fish.

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