this is funny....cute and funny

just wanted to say that i really like everwood, the show on the WB. good stuff. ok time to study!!

i hate school....

disclaimer: this all could be b/c i'm starting my period soon but i don't care this is how i feel!!!

ugh seriously it's time to blog. i'm so frustrated and RRGHGG! right now. school is really taking it's toll...just the stress and the pressure and the tests and the lectures and it's just too much!! i'm not even hard core studying and i cant take it! even when i relax and hang out...i'm thinking in the back of my head...i need to study i need to study....GOARREAKL;ADFGAHGIO! i can't get a break. my dreams are of school or studying and i just wake up all tense. seriously people....no one knows what the hell doctors have to go through to get to where they are!!! and then when you become a doctor people don't like you because they think they don't care...and we DO care....that's why we're in the damn profession in the first place....but there's all this shit in between the doctor and patient that prevents us from giving good healthcare. anyway that's a tangent...i'm here to complain about med school life. your whole friggin life is taken over. you can't really go out...you go out and feel guilty b/c you should have studied...then you take the test and find out you would have done exactly the same had you studied that night you went out.....then after the test you can't even relax b/c there's MORE shit to learn and it just repeats itself over and over...week after week.

take my bf for instance....he had to write 2 cover letters for a job at the Univ of Redlands....that was a month ago...b/c of his procrastination one of the positions was filled and the other position is open but sux....luckily he found another position that i actually think would fit him well. so today he has a plan to finish the cover letter...and he did....it's half a page....half a page that i could have written in 30 minutes...and he was complaining b/c it's "HARD"?? wtf is HARD it's not fucking HARD.....write that you're interested in the position and why....why you would be good for the position and what you would bring to the organization....thats' IT!!! and it took him one month...ONE MONTH to get his ass in gear to friggin write a half a page of bullshit?????!!! I fuckin wish i had it that easy...but no my task is to learn all the structures in the lower limb...arteries, nerves, muscles, veins....fatty acid biosynthesis and degradation....cell injury, pathology....all the friggin bacteria that exist....and what drugs do AND how to do manipulation..........HARD!?!?! not that his work isn't hard b/c it is...he works a lot and he's great at it...but COME ON. at least you can friggin go home and just relax and go drink beers at your friends house.

yeah ok i have to eat now...then do some microbiology. hate school man.

i have a game for the chatterbox...i dunno if anyone even reads this anymore but here it goes. basically the point of the game is to give lyrics to a song...the next person has to give lyrics to a song that contains a word or phrase from the last song lyrics given. for example:

show me show me show me - The Cure
next person....
ME myself and i- Easy E

so capitalize the word/phrase you took from the last song. anyone is welcome to play :)

so i went to the LA county medical association(LACMA) welcome dinner for 1st year med students.....and so this is an email i wrote kyle telling him about my night:
so the drive there was ok...just some traffic but we weren't late. donnell, katie and shefali rode with me and that was fun...good conversation. we got kinda lost in LA but we found our way. we got there and signed in...it was a nice hotel. there were ucla and usc ppl there...and lethal weapon girl was there! i meant to say hi and introduce myself but by the time i had thought of it...i couldn't find her anymore. hehe donnell said he used to love her when he was younger. i think western had the biggest turnout. probably the only thing that sucked about tonight was that Western wasn't even acknowledged. when the presidents of LACMA chapters for each school went up there, the western one didn't go up....then when our MSI representative went to introduce someone he didn't say his name or where he was from...so nobody knew we were even there. so i was mad about that. OH and then the keynote speaker was makikng his speech and some emergency alarm went off...then some guy on the PA was saying that there was an emergency situation on the 11th and 12th floors and that they needed to evacuate...which was dumb b/c we were on the 2nd floor. so the dinner ended kind of early. but the COOL part was i got free gifts! i got a stedmans medical dictionary....i actually wasn't going to get one b/c they ran out...but i asked one of my classmates if he had one already like at home and if i could have his...and he gave it to me. woohoo. but that's not all!! i got a vacuumized sterling silver flask that holds cold and hot stuff. it's SO cool! i dunno when i'll use it but it's awesome. and also i told you about how my class/school is really cool, like we're a family and it makes me feel good. like all the other schools seemed distant to each other or something. i'm glad i went to western.
then we decided to go to westwood to diddy riese...b/c we didn't want to go to the bar with our classmates...and that was cool. westwood has a cool atmosphere. and we got some cookies.

it was a great night. :)

listening to my body saying it's time for bed because u've got an 8am class!

hey all, just wanted to send a prayer out there for ryan jasso, my friend justin's brother who is in the hospital, in surgery. he was in a car accident this morning/afternoon. if you're religious, or not, please send a prayer out there that he is ok.

happy halloween + 1 day. i went to my school's halloween party and can i tell you....stick a bunch of med/health professions students who've been studying non-stop for 2 and a half months into a room, mix in some alcohol and some crazy costumes and you've got yourself a partay. it was a lot of fun. the red head's friends came...plus my friends so...i think we were like 20 deep. we went to my friend sheila's place to pre-party and i discovered a new drink. vanilla stoli and ginger ale!! so good and i go messed up! so then we went to a party at this gay bar but it wasn't a gay bar that night. i had a shot of surfer's on acid...and then danced and mingled. it was fun fun fun! just what i, and i think everyone there needed. it was a great night for the most part. and i'll just leave it at that.

listening to: KOST 103.5 i think....oh whoops it's KBIG 104.3

yeah i think i'm bipolar. i feel all blah today. just feel sad or whatever. i dunno.
listening to: travis tritt-it's a great day to be alive--trying to cheer myself up

i tried posting this yesterday...but blogger was down...

ah today was a good day. even though i have been really tired and at first i really didn't want to go to my friends bday dinner just b/c i was being a lazy ass. so i dragged myself...actually i was rushing b/c i lolligagged until the last possible minute. i had to go get flowers for this one girl and then a picture frame for my friend. and it all turned out great cuz i found the perfect frame and flowers.

so we went to dinner for my friend grace's and this girl elene(pronounced like elaine)'s bday. we went to a chinese/korean restaurant. crazy huh? anyway so it's super cheap and we have super good food. oh but first we went to ikea to get her gift card...and i had some swedish meatballs! haha it was yum. yes i am fat so what!?!? but i had so much fun. it was a bunch of girls like 16 or so..there were like 2 groups...for the 2 girls' bday but we all go to school together. anyway my group of friends is really really big...we have 12 ppl total 11 girls and 1 guy. and you know what? i used to think, that's way too much...but all of them are really cool in their own little way. and we are way diverse which i also think is really cool b/c u see cliques within our class...and they're mostly based on ethnic lines. but we have 4 white ppl, 2 black ppl(2 out of the 2.5 black ppl in our class haha), one korean, 2 filipinos, one asian indian and one vietnamese--does that add up to 12? i think so. but isn't that great? so i love my friends and they're hella cool, sweet and awesome!! shoutouts to the 2nd and 3rd row on the (if you're looking at the lecturer) RIGHT!! woohoo. :)

listening to: woman-john lennon

oh oh and what i thought was REALLY weird was...ok after dinner we were getting the bill togehter which came out to 58.02...so we tipped him like 8 and some change. so one of my friends paid 7 bucks on her discover then gave him 60 in cash. so he comes back and is like...."so you put 7 on card and i'm confused this is 60 but bill is 58" and i just told him "KEEP THE CHANGE"...and he was like so "8 buck tip?" and we were like uh...yeah. and he kept asking and looking confused...and it's like ok dude....so lets say it was a 60 buck bill...10% is like 6 bucks....so we're giving you 15% tip...which is normal. so my friends are like super nice and they pitched in like 5 more bucks. the reason why i thought it was weird was that usually chinese or asian places don't really care about tip. i mean am i being ignorant or don't they usually expect like 10% tip? so either he was complaining about the tip or he didn't understand what was going on....but i seriously think he was just complaining about the tip. what do y'all think?

my mom made me go to church today...and i am really thankful to her for it. i didn't wanna go to church b/c i had to study for my anatomy test. but for some reason, church has really been helping me figure out my life and just realizing what's important you know? as well as, helping me understand what's going on within me. so today the deacon preached the gospel and he was talking about the story between Jesus and the blind man. And when Jesus called the blind man jumped up, dropping all his valuables and ran to Jesus. Jesus asked, "What is it you want?" and the blind man said, "I want to see."...Isn't that powerful? In order for one to "see" one must disregard all the trivial things in life and realize what's important. anyway i really liked it. back to studying!

listening to: some random rock song on X1039...boo i should change the station...

so my priorities are screwed up....it's 1 and i don't wanna go to sleep. i'm not being a v. good med student. i feel lost....

listening to: er track 13 off the michelle branch album...i dunno the name i think it's called "it's you"

Wow, so today was my VERY first freak out breakdown in med school!! Congrats to me. As a result of my block-long procrastination I was completely overwhelmed w/ all the anatomy I have to learn in 5 days! My reason for procrastinating was b/c my professors sucked and I didn't want to study it b/c I didn't understand it or thought it was too much work. That is not, however, any kind of excuse b/c I could have learned it all on my own...which is exactly what I'm doing now. See how I sound very calm and relaxed? This was not the case 4 hours ago. At around 730 pm I had been reading a lecture for an hour...and was not retaining anything. I wanted to cry, I was frustrated and I still didn't know ANYTHING. Lesson learned: I cannot learn just by reading. I was too lazy to draw everything out. Solution: copy and paste diagrams from powerpoint onto word document and label that way. BAM! worked like a charm and now I'm thinking more like how I should, in the anatomy perspective and I am learning(hopefully). At least I feel like I'm getting good work in and thats' all that really matters. Another lesson learned: I MUST MUST pre-read and prep for anatomy lecture and lab the day before each lecture/lab. This is what they told me at the very beginning but I was sidetracked by the lack of organization/structure/GOOD TEACHING of this anatomy block. So now i know, NO MATTER WHAT, study for anatomy. And I knew this...which is why i was so frustrated with myself...but now i know it's doable b/c it only takes an hour an a half to 2 hours tops per lecture/lab. So I will do that next block.

listening to: Track 12 on the Michelle Branch album...i dunno what it's called but it has French in it.

hey all...so my bday was fun despite the physio test. i had a dinner thing at BJ's pizzeria and brewery in West Covina. Most of my WesternU friends went and kyle and a few of his friends. the lame part was that i got faded off of 2 drinks...but in my defense i only had a banana since 1...and i started drinking at around 8 something before our food came. my friends got me a 100 dollar GC for nordstroms. i think i'm gonna get a MAC makeover and buy some make up. Then buy something to wear or whatever. kyle got me 24 red roses which was really sweet and the season 4 of friends DVD and Chicago on DVD. And our friends Sokhom and Kim gave me a khaki purse and a khaki top. v. cute.

so i have an anatomy exam next monday and i don't feel that confident about it at ALL. and this is not my normal lack of confidence...i really haven't learned anything this whole block. it has really sucked monkey balls. so i'm half assing studyiing b/c i want to get through everything. i am done going through half of the lectures...but i dunno how much i retained. the 2nd half shouldn't be too hard, but we'll see. I think i will be fine..but i am just scared and feeling lame b/c i'm not a v. good student at the moment. hopefully this will change after this anatomy exam and i will get on the ball again. b/c it really isn't that hard to prepare for the next day's lecture. i did it today for thursday's lecture.

tomorrow i plan on staying at school all day so i can get some work done. we have a biochem review too...which blows and will only make me lazier. whoopie. time for bed now tho.

listening to: why don't you and i--carlos santana and chad kroger

i love my boyfriend! :) no particular reason...just feeling the love. :D back to studying!!

ugh...so today is the 19th..day before my bday. so i wanted to have like a family lunch whatever. and my mom was like can you call these ppl...and i was like ok whatever. i had forgotten to do that b/c i was busy w/ school and what not and i really felt that she should do it. so i didn't have my aunt's number and my other cousin was living w/ them so i called him..and he said he was gonna meet up w/ them so i told him to tell them about the party and just call my mom or whatever. turns out he never told them...and whenever his sister told me that my aunt didn't know about my party, i thought she was kidding cuz she does stuff like that and she had said just kidding on the IM and then never clarified. should i have called them personally? yes. it's my bad but i just feel like grr my mom should have done all this stuff u know? she knows i have school and i don't even know how to get there. i'm just feeling like crap and it's for my bday. i wanted to feel special and just have a party not having to worry about anything. then this morning she was like..."do you want a cake?" how the hell could you even ask that. of course i want a damn cake. it's my bday. then she asks what i want for my bday....man just once i would like her to just ask ppl who know me and get a gift...without having to ask me---THE DAY OF. i know she prolly thinkns it's more practical and she would be getting me something i wanted but the surprise is always welcome. maybe i'm just being a brat...but a girl likes to feel special right? blah blah. i'm gonna study for physio now b/c i have a test tomorrow. whoopie.

listenting: lacey's song-buddy jewell

once again, i am hating school. for the most part it's because our anatomy professors this block SUCK ASS! i got used to dr. bales our first professor and then they switched it up on us. the lectures/labs aren't as complete now...and it takes forever to study each lecture b/c i have to look everything up. yeah i'm being a bitch about it, but don't get us used to one thing then change it! we need consistency here...how are we supposed to learn??? the professor we have now doesn't tell as at ALL what to do in our lab. we're supposed to use the Grants dissector book that we're not used to...and it's not v. helpful. it's just so frustratiing!! it makes me hate learning...which i'm supposed to like b/c this is actually interesting stuff...but they suck the life out of me!!!!!! all i want to do is eat and sleep and eat and sleep. booooooo! boo on the anatomy and physiology professors. Dr. May and Dr. Kiick and Dr. Bales have been the best professors thusfar. At least we have Dr. Kiick for biochem...he makes me wanna learn biochem. Dr. Fiorindo on the other hand(for physio) has been going over membrane transport, the sodium potassium pump and action potentials FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER...and then after that he REVIEWS everything he just said!!! and they expect us to go to lecture?!?!?! I mean they tell us not to bitch but c'mon shit! give me the education i'm paying 30 grand a year for!!! ARGH!!! i mean who do i go talk to about that? does anyone care? BLAH!

listening to: shit

so last night i watched Forrest Gump....man that is a GOOD ASS movie! i hadn't seen it in a while, so i watched while i did the laundry. It's really really good. It has a great story, the direction/cinematography, script and acting is fabulous....it has wit, drama, everything. ok just wanted to share. :P

listening to: kelly clarckson-miss independent
OH and emma thompson is cast to play professor trelawney in Harry Potter and the PoA movie set to come out June 5, 2004!!!

ok for the sports fans in the house...i RAREly take an interest in sports but this one caught my eye

the redhead and i were trying to figure out who we wanted to win the world series...because we liked the red sox and the cubs cuz they havne't won a WS in FOREVER. in our thought process...at the time, we thought the cubs were just on a regular old losing streak....and we thougth the curse of the bambino is a cool curse and wanted to keep it going. so we decided to go for the cubbies. THEN i found out about the billy goat curse from my friend who is from chicago. dork that i am, i did some research....

so i got the info on the cubbies. the curse of billy the goat....billy the goat is/was(?) this famous pub/bar in chicago...the owner of the pub wanted to bring his goat into the game(world series 1945)...he bought a ticket for himself and the goat...and they were denied entrance. so they escorted them out of the park and he cursed the cubs and wrigley field.

sooooo the strange thing i learned is...that the curse of the bambino....it TECHnically started in 1920 when the sox traded babe ruth to the yankees...but they haven't won a world series since 1918....if you do the math using 1918....the curse of the billy goat is on it's 58th year...while the curse of the bambino is in it's 85th year!! how crazy is that?!

yes i'm old AND i'm a dork! :D

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