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The Crimson Room

i don't have time to blog about much...but throughout the year i have been without a couch. my living room is just that...a room haha with stuff. anyway, so i got a good deal on a couch and a bookshelf...couch=40, bookshelf=25.....not having to sit on the floor=priceless!

grhdsareogfjadoipfdsifdjasadsifaolj;! what is wrong with me/kyle? why do i need so much friggin attention? why is he so grumpy? ok you're sick...but like why are you gonna call me, only to half watch law and order and not listen to anything i say? and you know what therapy and self help books do? they just make you think more and more....and it's like wtf. this one self help book i was reading was making me feel like everything was on me...and in conjunction with that my therapy is all about...you can only change one person...and that's yourself so you have to change the way you react to things. FUCK THAT can ppl just change the way they treat me? i dunno maybe i shouldn't have skipped my session today but i had to take care of some shit. i'll call to reschedule tomorrow. it helps me look at things differently but i'm also stubborn and want my own way. i dunno why i'm so frustrated...it's over a 5 minute conversation that i had nothing to say in. like i don't even want to be around or talk to him when he's grumpy. but then i just feel lonely. whatever. onto another week of school w/ 3 tests coming up. oh the joy of my life these days!!!
listening to: stoned-dido

this weekend sux. i have to study, kyle's in vegas, i am alone and can't even distract myself with anything fun.

ok you guys know that Damita Jo by janet came out today right? if not WHY NOT?! HAHA so i have to rate it. let me start by saying that I read 2 reviews, one was a rolling stone one and the other was a random one off of the internet and both said she was "trying too hard" and they didn't give very good reviews. They said that it sounds confused like she's having an identity crisis. The album is pretty much trying to convey her 'real side.' The reviewers criticized that this 'real side' is really fake blah blah blah and that she's trying to encompass all of pop by having all these styles on her album. As a fan, and perhaps I may be a biased and unconditional fan even though i consider myself as a pretty fair judge...but i digress. I feel that this album is much like her other albums, in sound, layout, expression etc. The subtle difference is that she has other funky beats in there but it still stays true to herself and her style. It's not her best album, but it's good. I also like the fact that she doesn't have as many interludes in this one.
Damita Jo-Janet Jackson: solid-excellent(7.9-8)
Tracks to check out: Thinkin bout my Ex, Island Life, My baby...those are the three that stick out to me right now...i was studying while listening to the CD so yeah hehe. But I found myself bobbin my head to a lot of tracks...you know what that means??? lotsa dancing on the tour!!!!

ok so...i'm supposed to be trying to work on handling my emotions and not letting things get to me....but atrrijkharegslkjsdfj;l

so i made plans to go to stateline to gamble w/ kyle and his brother. my mom IM's me today and is like when are you coming home cuz we're going to so and so's wedding tomorrow at 10. WTF?! why didn't she tell me before today. then sh'es like you knew about the invitation you just iddn't want to make plans WTF?! then she was like neverMIND. WTF?! WTF does she want from me????? tell me at least one week in advance...i didn't even know this person was getting married? she doesn't tell me a damn thing! now i look like a bitch cuz i didn't go to my God-daughter's 1st bday party which wasn't her fault but now everyone is gonna wonder why i didn't go to the wedding....and she's gonna say i'm off with my bf. i know it's not my fault and i can't convince my mom that i didn't do it on purpose but it's just so freakin frustrating that i don't even want to go home this weekend. seriously sometimes i just wish i cuold crawl into a hole and sleep there forever. now i have all this negative energy before i go gamble, which means that i will lose all my friggin money when i shouldn't be gambling in the first place. just shoot me now please.

so...ok let me explain something first. as you all know i am a harry potter freak. and i say "freak" because there is a great distinction between freak and fan.
fan: OH I LOVE THE BOOKS and/or MOVIES!!
freak: So, did you notice in the first book where Ron saw himself winning the Quidditch Cup....don't you think it's weird that in the 5th book he gets to play Quidditch and they win the cup?!

fan: Yeah I've seen all the movies. or Yeah i've read the books and I love them!!!
freak: Yeah, I just finished rereading OotP(Order of the Phoenix) and now I'm rereading PoA(Prisoner of Azkaban) before the movie but I think I'll finish it way before the movie comes out!!! When is the next book coming out?

ANYWAY, being a HP freak....I only know of one other HP freak....I was rereading PoA and realized OMG! Cho Chang is introduced to us in this book. In a very slight and foreshadowing kind of way, but she's in it! And I was liek OOOOH she's gonna be in the movie!!! I wonder who they cast. I rush to the internet to do some HP research and what do I find out?! they're not even gonna PUT her in this movie!!!! they're waiting to GoF(Goblet of Fire-4) to introduce her. HOWEVER, they have started casting for GoF but still no news of who it is. I can't talk to potter fans about this...cuz well, they dont' really care. hehe. So I'm disheartened. OH another reason I was disheartened by Potter fans. This woman who is in my bf's class was talking about the next movie....and she pronounced Sirius Black as "Cyrus"...wtf now. And she claimed she "loves the books/movies." Granted, I used to pronounce Hermione as "her-me-own" instead of "her-my-o-knee" BUT c'mon...that's a hard one right? Ok i'll get off my ranting....

listening to: lonestar-front porch looking in

Finally, I can relax. I spent my spring break worrying about studying and doing errands for my mom. I just finished cleaning my room and am now relaxing.

But the coolest discovery of the week is that in the next HP movie.....we get to meet Cho Chang! The first girl Harry likes. :D I'm excited hehe. 2 more months!

Alright I'm gonna lay on my bed and veg....

Watching: The Simpsons. They're playing old school episodes where the drawings look all weird hehe.

so my mom got a new dog and named it after her ex bf/bf....how gay is that? STUPID. i wanted to name it Dobby hehe. Or something Harry Potter related. 2 more months!!! I can't wait!!!

i feel lost. it's almost 12 i should sleep but i don't feel like it...plus i dont feel like waking up tomorrow morning either. i'm stuck to my chair and have no inclination to do anything. what's wrong with me. i did however manage to study for almost 4 hours at starbucks....so perhaps i deserve the break. but i CAN'T be late tomorrow cuz my new OMM fellow is really anal and will kick my ass if i'm not on time. OH WELL boo on him.

listening to: the whir of my computer

Someone on my blog group blogged this. seriously, WTF?!

I thought I should share this with you guys. A customer sent this letter to my coworker. OMG. Too funny. And disturbing too!



Nice to meet you online! Good place gives me to talk with you.

Per our conversation, oh! This was second conversation between you and me. I think, you are very very kind to me and give me great help and support I needed. Because it is the first time for my company to attend the Glass, Window & Door sponsored by GlassBuild America, I received a CD about Exhibitor Service Kit from NGB but so many pages enclosed made me confused, and further more I am very busy that no time for me to read them carefully and just scan what I need when I will do the things. Therefore, I usually phone Freeman for help according to my need and what I scan in the Kit. That was the reason that God gave me two good chances to meet you in the phone. Meanwhile, in our conversation, your melodious voice gave me perfect acoustic enjoyment. Your accent is pure, sweet and soft so that it attracted me very much and gave me enjoyment. How I wish to talk with you for so long time! From your sweet and beautiful voice, I guess you must be a beautiful girl, and an active and lovely person as well. This time I phoned you and you immediately recognized my voice and named me Pat Power Kim, at that time, I was so excited by your naming me that from the other half globe there is one good and beautiful girl knowing me. At that right time from my inward feeling, I did thank you very much indeed and meanwhile like you and love you. Would you mind my favor and love? I just want to say out what I feel to you in my heart. Please don¡¯t mind my like and love to you. If God knows my feeling, maybe he will love you as well because you are one of the helpful and kind ladies. I eager to see what lady you look like, in my imagination, maybe you, charming face, middle height, and are blonde with white color skin, blue eyes with long lash and high bridge-nose. Those are my judgment according to your sweet and beautiful voice. Would you mind sending me your photo by email? Ok! Those are what I feel to you.

I appreciate your kindness and great support & help.

Looking forward to your early reply.



Very Best Regards,



Pat Power Kim

i just got back from a PCHAT clinic. i feel really good after each one. i feel like we are doing something important for the community; for people who can't afford healthcare....at least i hope we do.

i saw the passion of the christ last night. and i can only describe it using one word: powerful. even if you are not Christian, this story and its message is just so....powerful. you can feel Jesus' pain and what he went through...and just like Jesus, you wanted it to stop, but knew that it can't and that it will get much worse. hopefully this movie creates a discourse among the religious community and help us understand each other's religions more. i for one, am curious to learn aobut jewish beliefs since i've never really known and this movie has made me wonder. so there you go. :)
listening to: perfect girl-sarah mclachlan

turns out the test wasn't THAT bad. it's funny the redhead says i freak out everytime before a test; saying that i don't know where to start and i REALLY don't know if i'm gonna do well this time. but at the end of my studying process i'm usually pretty calm and feel like i'm ready. either that or i'm in the "fuck it i can at least pass" mode and everything is ok. i ended up getting an 80% on it which is good. but my nerd-ass wants a higher grade....of course. but i'm still satisfied b/c i was sick, and i didn't study that much. just gotta try harder the next 3 exams!!! i want as close to an A as possible. :) i'm a nerd!

i'm freaking out. at least my stomach is....i REALLY REALLY don't think i'm going to do well on this test at all. I was sick half of Monday, all of Tuesday and half of Wednesday. It is now Thursday and I feel better, but what did I do? I watched TV, now that was my bad. NOw i feel sick to my stomach and want to throw up. Tomorrow is Friday, ,which will be spent all day at school. Review from 1-2 and tutoring from 2-4. Let's freaking hope my tutoring session is the best one I've ever had because after that I have 2 days to learn all the crap I haven't learned yet, which is like 70% of the shit! I cannot fail this test. Now my middle finger of my left hand is numb. See, freaking out.

listening to: Time-Sarah MacLachlan...this is how freaked out I am..that name looks weird to me. please someone put me out of my misery.

(i must be feeling better. i'm complaining about studying and overreacting)

Don't you just LOVE it when you're sick? The aches, the pains, and the chills! it feels WONderful. Not to mention the incessant coughing and runny nose, which can only be topped by the resultant headache!!! Then going to urgent care to get it checked out and waiting for 2 hours?! only to find out that i could have diagnosed myself. AWESOME! woohoo! I love today!

not much time to blog... i had fun in reno:
cheers: discovered that blackjack is a fun game, awesome italian restaurant in Harrah's called Cafe Andreotti, the Chef's Buffet at El Dorado(the redhead and i probably ate a plate and a half of shrimp cocktail) for only 15 bucks!! free drinks at the tables!
boos: lost all the money i brought :(, southwest sux! haha
but it was all well worth it

listening to: josh grobans new CD-Closer

Woohoo!!! I'm going to Reno today for Vday. I've never been, and despite the fact that I've only heard "not so good" things about it when I do mention Reno, I think I'll have a blast anyway. The red head and I are gonna learn how to play craps, I'm gonna teach him how to play Pai Gow and HOPEfully we can win some good money!!!

Another WOOHOO! for Europe! My cousin and I are in the process of closing up our itinerary for Europe. They just need to confirm this one promotion for 50% off the flight. I'm so excited and yet so guilty about spending so much friggin money, but it's ok. I'm sure it will be a totally worthwhile experience.

See Friday the 13th isn't so bad.....*knocks on wood*(as it is only 918 in the morning haha)

i feel frustrated. the past week was a whirlwind of confusion. we had a different schedule and i felt lost all the time. unfortunately, we're back to the same routine, but a new system so i'm just as lost as when i was last week. i don't know which books i should buy, i dunno what i'm doing. other reasons why i feel so frazzled is i'm trying to plan all this stuff and take care of all this crap like the europe trip, my loan, my taxes and fafsa application, my application for preceptorship this summer(which i haven't even gotten to), and kyle and i planned to go to a kings vs ducks game on the 29th and i find out today that it's my God-daughter's 1st bday party. WTF? What am I supposed to do? The game was planned for months, but the bday is her FIRST bday...and i missed the last one. ugh! the guilt and i'm torn but i promised i'd go to the game and the tickets are paid for....but i feel bad for missing out on the party. i guess that's what is frustrating me the most. it's no one's fault but dang!!! why couldn't it have been on the Saturday???

One good piece of news today is that my loan is being processed and my money should be here soon! We're buying the Europe tickets on Wednesday! woohoo! then i'll have a lot of my worries out of the way. i should stop whining huh. oh well.

listening to: mean old man--james taylor

another random thought....
so i was watching tv and they were showing those sushi places where you eat the sushi off some girl....do you understand how disgusting that is????? do you know how much bacteria is on your skin? the potential fungi, dirt, etc on ppl's skin???? GROSSS

i'm bored....
so i'm watching the grammy's and thinking....britney's not nominated; and for good reason. i was watching justin timberlake performing and playing the piano. he's a talented ass man. then thinking about christina aguilera and how she was nominated and she won for her song "beautiful." i don't think britney is considered a serious artist. just some flashy entertainer. i mean her album is decent...but not much substance per se. there's like one song on there that has any soul. perhaps she's just trying to find herself and once she does she will make better music? random random thoughts....